Ice-cold rain falls from the sky
very fitting for how I feel right now
lost, hurt, cast away
Everything you ment to be
everything you did for me
everything you weren't able to say
it feels now as everything lost its true meaning
to know that you'd never given up on me
it somehow gnaws deep within my soul
to know that you'd even die willingly to save myself
it cuts like a sharp laser through my body
I don't want to hear anything like those cursed three words from you
I don't want to be close to you out of mere expectations,
I don't want to be loved by you the way you do now,
`cause I'm a freaking monster, a hazard towards the people around me
a life-threatening danger to my beloved ones
so therefore I rather live myself cast away
than watch everyone I really like to die
I rather exile myself into a far away country
than never be able to see your smile again
Ice-cold rain falls from the night sky
very fitting for how I feel right now
lonely, despaired, broken
Everything you ment to be
everything you did for me
everything you weren't able to say
it feels right now as everything has lost its true meaning
to know what you really feel deep within yourself for me
it is very hard for me to imagine these emotions
to know that you'd do everything for me
it somehow cuts like a sharp knife through my entire soul
I've lost so much and yet again
why can't I simply give up on you?
why can't I simply bury my heart that is filled with emotions for you?
why can't I sever these strong bonds between us so easily?
why can't I simply stop seeing more than you are for me?
I don't want to hear anything like those cursed three words from you
I don't want to be close to you out of mere expectations,
I don't want to be loved by you the way you do now,
`cause I'm a freaking monster, a hazard towards the people around me
a life-threatening danger to my beloved ones
so therefore I rather die than be the one who kills you
I rather cast away everything into utter darkness
so that the ones I love will be in safety from my future self
I rather be a ghost of the past then the monster I'll be
so therefore I say:
live for Lector's sake
live and remember the cheerful days we had
live and keep that side of me locked deep within your heart,
the side you'll always cherished and protected, the side of me you promised to stay with
Ice-cold rain falls from the night sky
slowly it mixes with the crimson blood
faintly I'm able to see a bright light reaching out to me
a bright but warm light,
a light I'm well aware of
even through you were able to reach out to me
it's too late to be saved by your hands
In these icy tears the sky is weeping
in these honest tears you are now crying
in the end I'm finally able to understand
I'm finally able to realize the warmth you carry
I'm finally able to understand your true feelings for me
I finally realize the true meaning of these bonds we share
where there is light, there will always be shadows
they belong together and are never to be seperated
one doesn't simply live without the other
even through they are two contrary parts
they are together one being, one soul, one heart
so in the end...
we will meet each other for sure
most likely we won't recognize at the beginning,
but I'm sure we will meet in the afterlife again
even through my time is up now,
I know by now I'm able to see you again
so I will patiencely wait for this day to come
for that day we are meeting each other in a new life
a life, where there is still hope
a life, where I surely will reach out for you
a life, where nothing can separate us any more