DEAR ED

Dear Ed,
I want your attention and I will gain it someday. Remember, I own you. I love you more than anything in the world does. You will always be mine and I will make sure of that. I pronounce to the world that I own the full metal alchemist, Edward Elric… and he will always be mine for me to do as I please with.

I want to hold you close and kiss your luscious lips gently and excavate your beautiful mouth with my tongue as it dances around with yours. I want to run my hands over your gorgeous body and hear my name called with your seductive voice. I want to run my hand through your beautiful golden hair.

But you pull away what did I do? Did I do something wrong? Oh, Ed you are just so hard to resist! What am I to do when you are gone? Oh, I will miss you so much Eddie Weddie Boo Boo! I just wanted a nice going away present! Is that too much to ask for? I look around and I don't see anyone there.

So, what is the problem? Unless, you do not really love me as much as I love you! That is okay, I always figured it was a one sided love. You were probably just in it for the sex and an excuse to kill people! I just thought there was something more between us! You hit me and said I was freaking you out. You asked me why I was crying. I was crying because I was afraid to lose you. You said I was crying a lot lately. I guess I was always too emotional when it came to you, but can you blame me for being afraid that you would choose some pretty girl over me? You asked me if I was going to be okay without you.

I told you I would be fine and that you treated me like a helpless child being separated from his parents. It was all a lie I knew it was but I did not know how big of a lie it would turn out to be. I regret letting you go. You said you were scared of what could happen when you weren't around. I was scared too and now I know why.

I pushed you away wanting so much to pull you closer. I whispered so you could not hear me that I would not stay because I knew I would not last without you and I was right. I remember telling you everything would be okay but in truth, I was just trying to persuade myself to believe that. I remember our first date. I told you to choose where to go to eat and I knew you would have had a hard time deciding as I would but I told you to anyway.

I told you I didn't have to always be on top of things although it was fun to be on top when it came to you, except when you where a little more energetic than usual. I loved watching you eat; it was like watching a child play with his food but with more intent. I said it was my fault that you got so messy when you ate but you wondered how it could have been my fault. Now I wonder the same thing. I claimed it was because I made the food.

It was so sweet the way you would sing my name when you wanted something with that childish smile of yours. The way you messed up your words like normally instead of normal when you said you were perfectly normally. Your thank yous seemed so genuine. You would softly blow your hair out of your face not realizing how much it messed with me physically and mentally.

You could easily make me nervous and either you knew it and liked making me nervous or you had no clue. You seemed so happy when you made me blush, you were so proud of yourself. You said you loved making me blush and that it was so easy but you were the only one who could do that.

Your touch as you ran your hand down the length of my arm was so chilling I felt like I could melt right there in your touch. I always claimed it was just hot even when standing in the snow in my boxers. You called me on my lies every time. You could make perfect circles with your finger on my arm as if you had practiced it for so long.

The way you whispered in my ear and purred was so excruciating I did not think I would last under all that pressure. You made me feel like my flesh was going to burn off when you touched me so lovingly. Your breathe was so warm against my neck I just wanted to hold you closer but I knew I had to resist. Your touch to my body with your body and your breathe made me nervous and confused.

Your light kisses sent a chilling sensation through my body like nothing that has ever happened before. You made me weak so I could barely refuse you anymore. I begged you to stop but just made the want stronger. You knew you could pull me in and break my resistance when you had the face of disappointment and sighed so softly on my shoulder. I told you to practice self-control and to stop staring at me like that. You said you would give me any damn look you wanted to. Then you would pull the never having any fun around here and how I could not say anything about having self-control.

I was never sure if I could feel your needs and wants but I wanted to so bad. I asked you odd questions like what do you long for and what do you long for from me? I would blush just thinking of possible answers. You would smile so sweetly and ask me what kind of questions those were. You would tease me to stop the questions and slowly move closer barely leaving room between our lips.

I tried so hard to resist and continued to rephrase the questions. I asked you what you wanted and what you wanted from me, now. Those questions made my mind go berserk. I slowly closed the space between our lips only centimeters away. Your laugh would ring out in my ear. You called me clueless in a surprised voice. Then you scooted your body closer to mine leaving only the gap between our lips making it harder for me to resist. You let out a small breathe on my lips. I could not resist so I just asked if it was my cue and did not wait for your answer.

I closed the gap between our lips and caressed yours hoping for something, anything. You just smiled into my lips and wrapped your arms around my neck while stroking my hair. I would run my hand through your hair and my other hand would slide over the collar of your jacket while I tried so hard to resist the temptation of taking it off. I slowly caressed your lips with my tongue. You twirled a finger in the hair at the gape of my neck while the other hand trailed down my chest and rested on my lower abs.

I pulled you closer and gently forced your lips to separate. My tongue began exploring your mouth and caressed your tongue. You suddenly pulled me down on top of you just to get me away from the bedpost. Then you rolled over on me while not once losing contact with my lips. I struggled to hold in the enthusiastic sigh that had been lingering in my throat the whole time you were touching me. I gingerly started sliding your jacket off your shoulders. You barely noticed the jacket slowly slip off your shoulders and who was slipping it off. You decided to help and quickly shrugged off the jacket and threw it in some random direction.

To my dismay, you sat up pulling away from my lips to undo your messy braid. I watched you start to undo your braid and then pulled myself up. I pulled you closer to me so that my tongue was back in its original position, caressing your tongue. I slowly unbuckled your two-ton belt and threw it across the room. You hardly paid attention to the complicated belt flying across the room.

You just stared down at me as you finally got the rubber band out of your messy hair and flung it across the room. You let your hair fall freely across your shoulders as you bent down and kissed my nose gently. I hated being teased by most people, especially when it was you and your body. I began to suck on your neck teasingly and slowly removed your shirt. I ran my hands down your chest feeling your soft smooth flesh shiver under my gentle touch.

You rested your hands on either side of my head as you let out a shaky sigh. I asked if you were getting a little too anxious, softly kissing your skin in between every word. You cleared my hair off my sticky damp face. You lightly ran your hand through my hair and looked me straight in the eyes. You kissed my lips lightly then pulled away slightly while keeping your forehead against mine. You said anxious as if you were surprised I asked. You smiled sweetly at me and you said you might be a little and asked if I could blame you.

I thought maybe I had no right to and I guessed that I could not blame you. I softly whispered no, I guess not. I pulled you back down so I could touch your lips lightly with my own. I started to play with your golden hair and smiled as I lightly kissed you repeatedly. I pushed you away and looked at you expectantly, not sure what to expect from you at that point.

You smirked down at me and suddenly grabbed my wrists pinning me to the bed. You kissed my collarbone and your kisses trailed down to my belly button where you blew cool air into it. I tried to hold back a giggle. You are the only one who could make me giggle nonetheless admit it. You slowly came back up to meet my lips and unbuttoned my military jacket. You spent a good amount of time fussing with it so I helped you and threw it to meet with your belt.

You slowly pulled my shirt off and threw it in another direction hitting the wall with it. I slowly moved my tongue around in your mouth while yours danced around it. You slid your hand down to my pants and unbuttoned my small flimsy belt. It went flying across the room and out the open door to the hall. You unbuttoned my pants and began to slide them down while pulling away from my lips. I let you struggle with my pants seeing how funny you looked fighting with them.

When you finally threw them aside, you looked at me expectantly and I knew what you wanted me to do. I pulled you back down, rolled you over so I was on top, and began the removal process of your pants. I threw them across the room, shoved my body against yours, and gently kissed your lips catching the sigh that struggled to get out. I could feel you harden beneath me and I softly ran my hand over your groin playfully. You let out a groan and I pushed harder against you. You threw your arms around me and pulled me closer.

It felt so right to hold you and be held by you but I knew it would have to end someday. I just wished it was later instead of sooner. You pushed me back over and jumped on me. You made a trail of kisses run down my neck to my belly button and then traveled lower making me moan from the need flowing through my body. You slipped my groin in your mouth slowly taking the anxiety right out of me. I pulled you up knowing if I did not that I would have screamed with pleasure. I kissed you gently and let our tongues dance once again.

You began to thrust your self against me and I moaned uncontrollably underneath you. You thrust slowly at first but then as I hardened more and more you thrust harder and rougher. My need for you was so strong I felt like I would kill to keep you there with me in that room. You once called it our lovely beautiful room of beautifulness.

You always had funny and cute names for things. The night felt like it lasted for days but I knew deep down it did not and it never would. You left me the next day saying you had to visit an old friend and that was the last time I saw you. It is funny, thinking back now I can see that I never really had anything to offer you. You deserved so much more than I could offer and so much better than me. I really miss you. I still love you.

Your ex-lover,
Roy

P.S. I still love you and want you to come back. If you ever need anything just ask and it is done. I will do anything for you.

A/N
Alright. Out of all my reviews... the few I have... Someone actually misunderstood some of Roy's words. Now, if you know Roy. You know he's good at sarcasm even when he's showing emotion. Roy said Eddie weddie boo boo in a more comical/sarcastic sense. Don't leave me messages about how "Roy would never say that" or any other wording for it, please. I know how Roy talks. I know how he acts. His personality. It's a fanfic and I delve in to his character more. Realize that before you review.. please. Thank you.