-1A/N: Dedicated to Paula545 for giving me the idea when I was freaking out (I hated that Of Mice and Men had 1 more FF that Noughts and Crosses, so I decided to sort of out!). Thanks Paula! Please R&R everyone!
Beyond
the grave:
Callum:
When I was alive I didn't believe in afterlife or anything. I don't think I did anyway; I'm not sure exactly what I did believe. Sometimes I thought I believed in God but other times I was sure I did. Now I know though that I'm in some sort of afterlife. I'm not sure exactly what or how I am. I don't think there's any scientific explanation to it, it's more of a belief thing. And now I'm here, there's no way I can not believe it. I guess I'm what people would call a spirit. I'm not sure where I am either. It's as though I'm between this world and some other. I can still see things that happen in this world, but it's not like I'm really here. No one can see me or anything, so I'm not a ghost, but I can see them. I can watch the people I care about.
I made so many mistakes when I was alive, and even now that I'm not I'm still making mistakes. A mistake I made just before I died has come back to haunt me, so to speak. I asked Jack, the prison guard to give Sephy that letter and he honoured my wish. I'm such a stupid idiot. How could I have ever thought that letter would help Sephy move on? I completely destroyed her. Of course she won't admit that, she's too stubborn but it's obvious from the change in the way she's been acting. Before it was like our beautiful daughter was Sephy's hope for the future, and now it's like she's given up. She treats Callie differently, too. She doesn't spend as much time with her now or anything. Because of me. I would give the world to go back and not write that letter. To be able to change it and make it so that Sephy gets the first one, the real one. The one with the truth not the one she's so desperate to believe.
It's too late though, there's nothing I can do about it. There's no way I can take back what I've done to Sephy. I'm so sorry, Sephy, so so sorry. But she can't hear me, she'll never be able to and even if she could she wouldn't believe me. She's read that letter now, and she believes it with all her heart. She keeps reading it and she won't let it go. Each time I see her with it I want to pull it away from her and tear it into little pieces but I can't. I can't do anything because I'm not really there.
If only I cold tell her how sorry I am. If only I could make her see the truth. I love her. I always loved her. I was just trying to help I didn't mean…I didn't want to make it worse, Sephy, really I didn't. I'm sorry, I love you, and I always will.