She stood out on the balcony of the darken penthouse. It was the middle of the night and all was silent. This is what her life consisited of now. Spinelli was sound asleep and Jason wasn't home. He wouldn't come home until she went to bed. Thats how it was now. Never in the same room or spent any time together or just alone with each other. If one was home, more than likely the other was either gone doing who god knows what or in opposite sides of the penthouse. But it was more the fact one of them would just leave. If jason came home and sam was in the living room she would just leave and vise versa. That was thier life for about a month now after they both confessed everything. Sam told him about her past and amelia. Because sam had caught amelia talking about it and out her, amelia left town and went back to manhattan and sam went to tell jason that her tv star days were over. With her confessing, jason thought it was the right thing to do and tell her about baby jake. Sam listened to everything he had to say before telling him she has known for months now. You'd think that everything they confessed they'd agreed to go thier seprate ways but that was the opposite neither one of them wanted to lose each other. That night they confessed their never dieing love for one another, and never made love like they ever had before. A few days after that night sam had ran into elizabeth in the park with the kids. Sam told her she knew everything and she told Liz to stay away from her and jason, that they were trying to build a new life together. Elizebeth had ran to jason telling him everything that sam had said and he went home and they got into a fight. Thats how they ended up where they are now. They still shared the same bed but they were strangers to each other. But god help her she still loved him more than anything thats why the decison she had come to was killing her. She had made a reservation at the metrocourt in one of the suite rooms, and she didn't know how long she would stay there. She would be going their tomorrow, she would also be talking to carly and jax tomorrow about working for them again. She didn't know how to tell jason, should she stay around and wait for him or leave him a note. Since they don't speak much it be weird. She walked back inside and took her glass back to the kitchen. She didn't drink coffee anymore. She held her stomach. she had told jason yet and didn't know if she should. He made it crystal clear he didn't want any more kids, but this was a miracle baby for her and she wasn't going to burden him with it. She hadn't told anyone. The only person that knew was Dr. Lee. She had been following Dr.Lee's instrutions to a T well almost all, Dr. Lee told her to tell jason about it because it wouldn't be stress on her later. And she and Dr. Lee were doing everything to make sam carry the baby full term. She washed her glass and then went back out on the balcony, it was such a nice night. She heard the door open to the penthouse and she stepped inside and saw jason, jason saw her their eyes met both filled with sadness sam looked down and started to go for the stairs. Jason watched her.

"Sam, you don't have to leave" jason grabbed her arm.

"jason, why should tonight be any different from any other day?"

"because its our anniverary"

sam had completely forgot about that. she looked into his eyes she could see the sadness and knew he could see hers. "we don't have an anniversary anymore jason" a tears started falling down her face.

jason reached up and wiped the tears away." yes we do" sam's head rested on jason's hand. She missed his touch. it pained her so much.

"jason you call whats been going on for a month now, us still together? jason i think you and i both know this has been over for awhile"

"you don't mean that sam, i know things haven't been good lately but i still love you"

"and i love you" sam kissed him. "but no matter how much we love each other jason, we both know its true, and ill love you till the day i die but its time to end this so we don't ruin what we had"

"sam, don't do this, you know you don't want to do this"

"No i don't jason its killing me to walk away from you, from us, but i don't want to end up resenting you or even hating you" sam turned to go up the stairs. Spinelli had been listening to them talking and his family was breaking up and thats how he thought of them was his family.

"sam, wait" sam stopped on the stairs and looked at jason. "come on don't give up on us!"

"im not giving up jason, im saving us, thats why im leaving tomorrow?" jason and spinelli were both in shocked.

"what your leaving?how long have you been thinking of leaving?"

"awhile jason, but i'l leaving tomorrow, i already have everything set up all i have to do is pack my clothes and leave" sam turned and was going up the stairs. Spinelli ran up stairs quickly and went to his room. Jason chased after sam. She was walking passed thier bedroom.

"sam wait where are you goin?" he asked standing infront of their bedroom door.

"im staying in the other bedroom jason, this is really over" she walked in to the room shutting the door and locking it behind it. Jason walked into what was their bedroom shutting the door behind him.

Sam spent the night crying, and packing. Most of her clothes was in that room already because their wasn't much room in jason's for them to share. What clothes was in there she got in the morning. When day finally came. sam took a shower, grabbed her clothes from jason's room. She hadn't heard anyone all morning upstairs so she figured they were both gone. But she was wrong. this was the first morning that they were all their. Sam walked downstairs carring her bags, she saw jason at the desk and spinelli coming out of the kitchen with a coffee cup and organge soda. He sat the coffee down by jason. Jason hadn't heard sam come down.

"want me to get you a cup fair samantha?" spinelli asked

"no thank you" she sat her bags down and walked over to spinelli. "i really got to go i have a ton of stuff to do today."

"so your really leaving?" he asked and jason turned around and looked at them.

"ya i am, its for the best" she kissed his forehead. "if you ever need any help or want to talk, just call and ill be there for you'' she picked up her bags.

"do you need help sam?" jason asked.

"no i have everything taken care of" jason got up and opened the door.

"take care sam"

"good bye jason" she said walking out the door and getting on the elevator. She started crying as she went down and to her car. Sam drove to the metrocourt and walked in. They went ahead and took her bags up to her room while is finished checking in. Sam told the front desk clerk to tell carly or jax that she needed to talk to one of them. She got her key and went up to her room. Even though she knew it was the right move and moving out of jasons it killed her, It broke her heart in two. She couldn't stop crying either which wasn't good if she was going to be talking to hopefully her bosses again. She fell asleep crying on the couch. Carly came in to work and walked up to the front desk.

"any messages for me?"

"only one from sam mccall, she would like to talk to you or jax"

"ok well call her for me and tell her that im here if she wants to come by" carly was getting ready to walk away.

"ok ill just call up to her room" that made carly stop

"she is staying here?"

"yes mrs. jacks."

"for how long?" he brought up her information on the computer.

"it says she is staying in the suite and doesn't have a check out date, she doesn't know how long she will be here"

"ok, ill just go up and see her." carly got her room number and headed up to her room. She didn't know why sam would want to talk to either her or jax let alone be staying here for date unknown. She stood outside the door. Sam and carly still had their issues but that gotten passed most of them especially lately. They were starting to build a friendship which both were happy with. Carly knocked on the door. Startling sam on the other side. She sat up.

"who is it?"

"sam its carly"

"coming" sam got up and saw herself in the mirror, she looked like crap, "great just great" she said as she opened the door.
"sam, you look like hell,"

"thanks carly, please come in" sam moved out of the way so carly could come in. carly walked in and sat down on the couch and sam walked around.

"why did you ask to see me?"

"well i'd like to work for you and jax again"

"why would you do that?"

"well, as you know everyday heros has been cancelled and i can't live off that money forever"

"no but you could jasons"

"jason isn't a factor in my life anymore"

"i don't understand sam?"

"i left jason this morning or actully last night, but i left the penthouse this morning"

"what! this doesn't make since, yesterday would of been your what 3rd or 4th anniversary"

"ya well i ended things"

"why would you do that? i thought you guys were happy at less thats what jason told me a few days ago"

"yeah well he was lieing to you carly, things have not been good for about a month. last night was the first time was spoke in a month, spent time in the same room in a month"

"what why?"

"because he got mad cause i told elizabeth to stay out of our life because we were going to try and rebuild it"

"that is understandable"

"ya well he didn't see it that way, but all in all i don't know if i could ever forgive him for giving elizabeth a baby, so thats why i would like to work for you guys again, i need a way to support myself"

"ya of course you can work for us again, ill talk to jax and find out whats avalivable, is there anything else?" carly asked as she stood up.

"ya, whatever job you give me can it not be to demanding?"

"what do you mean by that"

"i can't take any risks?"

"risk with what?"

"im pregnant carly, and if i didn't need the money i wouldn't be working at all!"

"your pregant?"

"yes"

"how far along?"

"a month"

"jason never told me"

"jason doesn't know"

"what you can't keep this from him"

"i'm not telling him anytime soon carly, it kills me to of walked away from him, and not tell him about this child, but im not going to burden him and make him think i want him to take care of me, its just not me"

"but he has a right to know,"

"maybe so, but im not the one who didn't want a baby"

"ok will ill talk to jax and get back to you on the job"

"thank you carly" sam shut the door behind carly as she left. she went and took a shower before laying down and falling asleep.