Where is the Light?

Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto. Makes a super pouting face. Now go away! Shoos away lawyers.

Chapter 1-Just Let Me Go

It was a quiet night. It was a quiet late night, around 1:30 or so. The streets of Kohona were still. All was dark. Not a soul was to be seen, not even a stray cat or mangy dog. It was the ideal night for peace and relaxation. Streetlights were all turned off, making the village seem haunted. All was dark...

Save for a single light in the upstairs room of a huge mansion. That single light came from a young boy's bedroom, from a lamp on the desk. The lamp was shining on a blank notebook. The current resident sat motionless, staring at the pad of paper as if expecting it to do something. His posture and features spoke of a calm and collected being. We all know, however, that appearances and be deceiving. Inside, it was all the young boy could do to hold back the tidal wave of emotions boiling within him.

Presently, he picked up the pen and began writing. His letters were neat and rounded; perfect. Very much like the boy himself. The slight scratch sound of pen against paper was almost unnerving. Words became sentences and sentences gradually became a poem. Though his letters be perfect, the real meaning lay behind and beyond surface appearances. The sentences harbored a deep sense of frustration, loss, sorrow, and anger. It read thus:

Confusion

Pain

Anger

Am I going crazy?!?

It has been like this for as long as I can remember

Am I wearing a mask?

Even I don't know who I am

Pressure building

Suffocating

Need to run

Need to get out

Need to be free

From this invisible cage no one can see

Free

WHO AM I?

Tears

Not even sure why I' crying

My soul-it must be dying

I know...

No, I don't

I don't know what is right or wrong

I don't know what I

Am meant to do

I HATE THIS!!!

Seemingly wallowing in self-pity

Screams

Screaming my heart out

Yet silenced by the

Overwhelming silence I scream into

NO one can help me

I don't know why I am

Why I'm here

In this place

Why am I here?

What is my purpose?

Why am I so miserable?!?

I have friends

That are like family

I once had faith

Yet this gnawing emptiness

Still won't go away

When I smile

I have to stop and wonder

Is it real?

I have no idea

But I know I'm going crazy

Losing my mind

Going insane

But clinging to a thread

A thread of something

I know I can end it

End my misery

Leave this place

Float away

It is just over there...

But I cannot do it

COWARD

My mind screams at me

I am alone

So all alone

Trapped

Confused

Wandering

Aimless

Purpose is gone

Purpose is denied

Why do I keep living?

What am I clinging to?

What-or who is holding me?

JUST LET ME GO!

Let me fall into the

Never ending pits of oblivion

Spiraling, screaming, into eternal insanity

There I will know who I am

There I will know what

I've become

A life without reason

Weak

Pathetic

What am I?

I don't know who I am

What to call myself

I try to let go

But my hands clench all the tighter

They have a mind of their own

Please, let me go!

I am just a coward

But I still hole on-and so do you

LET ME GO!

Let me fall to insanity

Where once-silenced screams

Will finally break through

See what I was

See what I have become

But no-I'm trapped

Trapped in this prison

Cold

Confusing

Dark

A prison that

Binds me forever

LET ME GO!

My life of a prison

Tears

What meaning do they have?

LET ME GO!

But whoever is holding me

It just won't

Life?

Light?

A savior?

No

None can save me

Friends?

They don't know anything about me

Is it because I hide?

Behind what?

A mask?

I don't even know my true face!

Love?

I thought I knew love

But I was wrong

I don't know what it is

Or is it love I'm holding onto?

They say love can save

Does love know me?

Love-whatever or whoever is holding me still

LET ME GO

Give up on me

Loose faith in me

Let me fall

Let me die

Let me go away

Let me escape

From this dungeon

They key will turn in the lock

And set me to oblivion

All you have to do for me is

Let me go

I'm begging

I'm not worthy

I don't deserve

Whatever you are gibing me

Are you love?

Don't give it to me

For I don't even know what it is

I don't know how to use it

Turn the key in the lock

Spring the cell open

I am clinging to something

Something is still holding onto me

Refusing to let to, no matter what

I don't understand

JUST LET ME GO

Just let me go...

The boy sighed as he looked at the words he had just written. Suddenly, anger coursed through his veins. He furiously recapped the pen and threw it across the room. It hit the wall with a smack and broke, breaking the peaceful silence. With a quick flick of his wrist, the lamp's light was extinguished, plunging the room into darkness. The boy sighed and buried his head in his arms, laying his head down on his desk. And there in the quiet stillness in the dark of his room, he cried.

Author's Note: See that purple button down there? Click it and it will make my day!!!! This is my first fic. (or poem, rather) and flames are accepted!

This is my second time writing this particular story/fic! It was revised because of some harsh criticism from a sibling. Thanks for reading! Now please review!

If you can guess who the boy is, congrats! You're pretty smart, then. :o)