So for some reason this beginning just came to me today. I had planned to start this differently but this seemed right. Yes, it's the sequel to Death Brings Life. So if you haven't read that one you might want to take a peek. Do not know how often or regular I can update since I want to make this just right and soon I will be busier in real life. Chapters might not be as long as in DBL but hopefully you'll enjoy it. Reviews are appreciated.

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Love for Life

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She couldn't do this anymore. Pretend that she was fine. She was about to break. She knew she was about to fall apart.

"Kate?"

Abby's voice drifted towards her from somewhere but she didn't really hear it. Then there was someone else there also.

"Come on Kate. Let's go."

It was Tony this time and she felt strong arms grab her gently and guide her away. She clung to him not knowing where she was going but she honestly didn't care. Somewhere in the back she knew the rest of them were scattered around the hospital. She felt a hand on her back. Since Tony was holding on to her pretty tight she figured that hand belonged to Abby.

"It will be ok Kate. You'll see."

Would it? She wasn't so sure. She could hear through Abby's voice the young goth's own tears. This was hard on her too. It was hard on all of them. She kept walking but she felt like she wasn't really there with them. It was not where she was supposed to be. A rush of breeze greeted her face as she realized they were going outside. She felt trapped then and moved away from the grip on her arms. They let her go but she knew they were close behind. She saw a bench and almost fell on to it. Soon Tony was on one side of her and Abby on the other. Abby grasped her hand tight. She was giving and seeking comfort all at the same time.

'It will be ok' she thought. Would it really? These last months she had been happier then she had been in a long time. She hadn't expected it to end. Not now. Not yet. Not like this. It was so unfair.

''''Earlier''''

Kate opened the door slowly and peeked inside. His face was bruised and his head wrapped in bandage. She took a deep breath and closed the door behind her. He made a move then. His head turned towards her and he smiled. "Kate." His voice was followed by a small cough.

"Hi Gibbs." She walked over and seated herself on the chair next to the bed. "How are you feeling?" She fought the urge to give him a kiss.

"Head hurts like hell but other than that I am good. Except…" He waved a hand in the air as he didn't want to continue.

Kate nodded.

"I was wondering when you'd show up. Avoiding me?"

It was meant as a joke but Kate couldn't let him know just how right he was. Everyone else had been here and some more than once but it took Kate some convincing before she decided to get it over with. She shook her head.

"You are not blaming yourself are you?"

Then it was that too. She did blame herself. "I did drive."

"Kate, it wasn't your fault."

Perhaps not but it sure felt like it. She had missed the car speeding up towards them. "How would you know?"

He sighed deeply. She had hit a nerve. There was no way he could know if it was her fault or not. "I know you and it wasn't your fault. Drunk driver I hear so blame him."

True but still it hurt. It hurt to look at him and not tell him everything right then and there. To have him look at her but without that loving look that she had been used to see in the last months. There was nothing left.

"Kate?"

She quickly abandoned her train of thoughts. "So how long are you staying here?"

"A few more days. Not my choice."

She had to smile at that.

"So make sure you come back and visit me again. Make it less boring."

She had not planned that. This was hard enough as it was but she found she could not say no. "Sure. I'll bring some coffee next time." The smile he gave her made it even harder to stay. "I should go. I know you've had lots of visitors and you need your sleep."

She got up and walked away as she heard her name being called. She turned to face him.

"Is something wrong?"

"Other than my boss slash friend being in the hospital." She asked as she laughed bitterly. She didn't need to say anything more. With that she left and outside in the hall sat down on the first chair she saw.

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"Kate? Kate?"

She jolted back to the present and for the first time since they had found her she looked at Abby.

"Oh honey, it will be alright. It has to be." Abby embraced Kate at that point.

"Will it Abby?"

Another first since they had found her. Abby withdrew and looked at her closely. "Yes, we have to believe that."

"He might not get his memory back."

"It's not like he has lost all of it. He remembers you." Tony tried while gently patting her back.

"But he does not remember the last year. He does not remember us being a couple, He does not remember me being a…." She buried her head in her hands.

Abby held on to her. This was hurting Kate more than any of them. Gibbs remembered them all but not the last year. Not the most important time in his life for a long time. It was hard on them all but for Kate it was more than hard. It was devastating.

TBC…