The tension filled the room as Riley shivered under his gaze. Now he knew why she had squashed down her feelings and he knew that no matter how much he liked Maya he still like riley.
"You don't get to decide how I feel Riley, we could've given it a shot, hell I still want to give it one. You aren't the only one who gets to decide" she let alone tear fall down her face and gulped. She couldn't handle this, she was not in the right state of mind. He reached forward to hug her but she shoved him away.
"Yes I do get to decide this Lucas, Maya deserves to be happy-"
"and you don't?" there was a silence that threatened to break and a tension that refused to be lifted.
"Lucas, she's my best friend and goodness knows she deserves to be happy. I know that I do and I will but you and Maya you deserve each other in a way we never did and I'm sorry that I messed everything up" he sighed and kissed her forehead.
"You didn't" they heard Farkle shout her name.
"Just please give each other a chance" he nodded and she turned to leave.
"Goodbye Lucas" and then she ran towards Farkle.
Riley had been quiet the entire ride home and Farkle was beyond worried. He knew that Riley had said an ominous goodbye to Lucas and he didn't really know what to say.
"So, you ready for tomorrow?" she looked to him in despair and Farkle felt himself shrink back.
"I guess but I…. I still need to say bye to Auggie"
"What are you telling him?" Farkle asked. Riley shrugged and sighed.
"I can't tell him what's wrong, I guess I've just got to go with what mum says" Farkle didn't say anything else and they rode home in silence.
At the Matthews apartment Topanga, Cory and Riley were sat across from Auggie and Farkle. Riley had asked Farkle to be there for moral support.
"Auggie" Topanga began but stopped and breathed deeply, Riley decided to take over.
"Aug, I'm going away for a while" the boy looked up at his sister in confusion.
"Why?" he asked, innocently. Riley's hands began to shake and she began to choke up. Cory himself couldn't speak out of fear of upsetting his little boy. Farkle placed his hand over Riley's and tried to give her a reassuring smile.
"She's helping a sick relative" Cory blurted out. Aggie's eyes widened.
"So she's going to be like a nurse?" Farkle jumped at the chance to big Riley up in Aggie's eyes.
"Yeah, she's going to be a big and strong nurse that saves people!" he said enthusiastically. Riley looked down as she began to decipher what on earth Farkle meant.
Auggie stood up and hugged his sister.
"Can we still call each other and stuff?" Riley smiled, her eyes getting damp.
"Everyday" she replied. Auggie grinned and hugged Riley before wandering off to his room, no doubt thinking things that little boys think.
Later that knight Farkle sat in Riley's bay window as she packed.
"You know that you'll have to talk to someone if you want it to work" Farkle began and Riley's shoulders sagged. He had been giving her this speech since he found out that she wanted help. Only a select few knew Riley's secret and Farkle was one of them. He had wanted her to open up to him but she couldn't. He didn't deserve that burden.
"Farkle I get it ok, you are one of my best friends and you feel like I'm pushing you away but at least you get to know." He didn't reply and she began looking around her room. After a while she began frustrated and threw her phone across the room. Farkle jumped up and grabbed her hands as she began rake her fingernails up and down her arms. He looked her in the eyes.
"Riley, riley calm down" he ordered. Tears sprung into her eyes.
"Why can't I find it!" she yelled. Farkle's eyes widened at the harshness of her voice.
"Find what!"
"My bracelet from Auggie!" he looked down and shook her wrist, he tried to forget the look of pain on her face.
"On your wrist, now what's wrong?" at that statement she burst into tears and he made her sit, for fear that she'd fall over.
"I don't think I can do this, what if I say something stupid and they put me in the nut house. What if I can't get better and I let everyone down. I know it was my idea but I just feel so pressured.!"
Farkle let her rant, he knew that Riley wasn't okay and it was okay that she wasn't but he knew that she had bottled everything up. Now was the time she knocked the bottle over. When she stopped he pulled her into a hug.
"Riley I know that this is hard, I know that you have to do it as well otherwise you'll go crazy. You will get better but you have to believe you will" she nodded and wiped away her tears.
"Thanks Farkle" he nodded and began helping her pack. Tomorrow he was going to lose his best friend but he knew that if he didn't lose her temporarily he may lose her forever.