Let Me Go
By: Natsu no Hinagiku
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One more kiss could be the best thing
Or one more lie could be the worst
And all these thoughts are never resting
And your not something I deserve
The weatherman said it was going to be a mildly warm autumn night. Bloody Liar. Kagome shivered. The air was bitingly cold and the winds were northern ones. Kurama looked at her concernedly, his emerald eyes watching her.
"Cold, Kagome-chan?" Kurama asked, sitting closer to her on the park bench. She nodded, her teeth chattering and Kurama wrapped his arms around her. She blushed lightly but gave no protest. She sat there, enjoying the warmth and comfort Kurama gave her. Overhead, the moon shone, full and clear.
"Don't you wish we could stay like this forever, Kurama-kun?" she asked him dreamily. She felt him stiffen and was aware immediately. "What's wrong?" she asked, alert. Meanwhile, thoughts were running through his head at lightspeed.
'How could I have forgotten?' Kurama thought brokenly, 'I can live for a long time to come, but Kagome is mortal and human...We can't be forever...
"Kagome-chan?" Kurama asked, his voice giving away nothing, "Can we talk?"
"Nani, Kurama-kun?" Kagome asked. There were the dreaded words. 'Can we talk' was a girl's biggest nightmare.
"Kagome-chan..." Kurama started, "I'm a demon..." Kagome's eyes widened.
And she fled...
In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me
And you love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go, let me go
Kurama watched her go, hesitantly wondering if he should stop her. When she didn't even turn back, Kurama sighed heavily and silent tears dropped. They rolled down his cheeks, freezing as they reached his jaw. He pushed them away angrily and got up off of the bench. He trod home, regardless of the stares of passerbyers and strode into his apartment. He flopped onto his bed, aware of Yusuke's startled shouts and concerns, but paying no heed to it. He sat on his bed, reminiscing past times with Kagome.
Flashback
"Shuichi-sempai?" Kagome asked nervously, "the principal would like to speak to you."
"Thanks, Kagome-kohai," Kurama told her absentmindedly. In his head, Youko was yelling at Kagome.
'Stupid wench, probably another fangirl. Begone! Scat! Shoo! Annoying little pest!' Youko was chanting in his head. Kagome still stood in the room.
"Why are you still here, Kohai?" Kurama asked with the most politeness he could muster. He was starting to get annoyed.
"'Cuz the principal told me to make you come, come hell or high water. Very aptly put, I must say. He did say it was important," Kagome told him, his overbearingly polite tone making her drop all of her shyness and bringing out her usual fire. Kurama looked at Kagome, surprised at her sudden boldness. "Well, are you coming?" she stamped her foot impatiently. He raised an eyebrow at her and she pouted childishly. He grinned goofily, unable to catch himself. This Kagome-kohai was definitely something else. She grabbed his hand and pulled him out the door. He was going to protest, but he somehow felt slightly at ease. Kagome steered him to the office and gave him a heartwarming smile.
"See you someday, sempai," she told him and walked off, not sparing him a backwards glance.
End of Flashback
That was their first face to face encounter where they exchanged more than three words. Not romantic, but he respected her after that. Youko had afterwards become impressed that she didn't really bother with him or fall for his looks and began boasting that had it been him in his Youko body, would have easily swept her off of her feet. Her fire had caught his eye as well as her sweet and not slutty disposition.
"Yo man, what happened?" Yusuke asked. Kurama smiled slightly in spite of himself. Yusuke must have made it through the vines that guarded my door. It's nice to know I have some really good friends. "It's Kagome, isn't it? If she broke up with you, I'll hurt her."
"It's not that," Kurama sighed, "I told her about my being a demon. I guess she didn't take it too well. It's hard but," he gestured with his hands, and a few more tears drenched his cheeks. Yusuke looked sympathetically at him. Little to no things made Kurama cry.
"Is she couldn't accept you, then she isn't worth it," Yusuke told him, "C'mon, we have a mission."
"Indeed you do," Botan said cheerily, stepping from a portal. She took in Kurama's bedraggled state. "What happened?" she asked. Yusuke filled her in and while she felt sorry for Kurama, she was secretly jumping for joy. Kagome was no longer in the way, so Kurama could now be all hers. Never mind that Kagome was a frequent visitor to Spirit World and knew everything about demons.
I dream ahead to what I hope for
And I turn my back on loving you
How can this love be a good thing
And I know what I'm going through
Kagome had reached her shrine. She was still crying and her face was puffy. Why had Kurama's confession warranted such a reaction from her? Had she loved him so very much that she now could not accept it? 'Kurama was just like the others,' Kagome scolded herself. 'All about the jewel and seducing you to get to it. How hopeless can you be Kagome?' The inner voice taunted her more and more. 'He never said he wanted the jewel,' some hopeful part of her said. She stopped crying and hiccuped a bit. He never did...she mused. Was this a ploy? Did he love her? 'No...' that dark part of her hissed. 'You were foolish enough to believe that he loved you and wanted to mate you and have happy little children.'
'Don't let it stop you girl,' her voice of reason echoed, 'Even if he did that, he's not something to shed your tears over. Up and at 'em, Honey.' Just then, Souta burst into her room.
"Kagome-nee-sama!" Souta cried frantically. "There's a demon in the Hana Field south of here! I think it's a B class or something!" Kagome snapped her head up after that and shooed her brother out of the room. She pulled on her miko outfit, a white haori and black hakamas and grabbed her bow. She headed to the Torii where Souta stood impatiently, clad in the same outfit wielding a staff. They rushed to where they sensed the demons.
"There's someone already fighting it," Souta hissed to Kagome. She nodded and watched them fight. They had no strategy and fought by mercilessly attacking it. 'Just like we used to,' Kagome thought sadly, remembering her feudal era trips.
"HIEI-NEE-SAMA!" Souta cried out, finally recognizing one of the fighters. They all turned their heads to look at them and Souta and Kagome sighed and dropped from the tree they were perched in.
"Kagome?" Kurama's voice was barely a whisper, but it felt like a knife to Kagome.
In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me
And you love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go, just let me go, let me go
"Kurama," Kagome stated. Time seemed to pass like an eternity, each tick of the clock never coming.
"What..." he trailed off. She pulled out her bow and nocked an arrow.
"Go away Kagome!" Yusuke growled impatiently. "You'll just get in the way!" He made to move her aside but she held her ground and punched Yusuke squarely in the jaw. He clenched his jaw in pain and glared at her. "You think you can make us all cry or something? You might have gotten Kuwabara to cry 'cuz of your scariness and Kurama by using dirty tricks but you can't hurt me." He looked at her firmly. She clenched her fist.
"You are the most unbearable, unsufferable, annoying, rock-headed, pompous little twerp I've had to deal with in my life," she said, her eyes blazing. Yusuke shrunk back a bit. "But nevermind. Just finish off the demon if you can." She taunted him and Kurama looked surprised. He searched her eyes for his Kagome but all he found was coldness there.
And no matter how hard I try
I can't escape these things inside
I know, I know
But all the pieces fall apart
You will be the only one who knows, who knows
"Keh," he muttered, "just watch." he loaded up a spirit gun and took aim. The blast of spirit energy whizzed towards the demon. Yusuke turned back to Kagome and grinned. "How was that?" he asked. He was enjoying the look on Kagome's face. She was gritting her teeth and looking like she wanted to punch him. She dove at him and tackled him down, just as his attack came ricocheting back at him, but luckily missed him.
"YOU FOOL!" she yelled, "You NEVER turn your back on your opponent until it's dead." Kurama and Hiei had to secretly agree with her. His stupidity could have killed him.
"Why don't you take care of it then?" Yuusuke yelled furiously. She nodded and swept across the field, bow in hand. Kurama watched her worriedly.
"Souta, NOW!" she screamed. Souta nodded and threw binding wards at the demon. Kagome took this opportunity to shoot the demon in the heart, her arrow scorching its body.
"Holy fuck," Yusuke whispered. Kurama was in silent agreement with him. But something nagged at the back of his head, and he was pretty sure it wasn't Youko. Did she break up with me because I'm a demon and she's a priestess? Or was it because of something else?
"Good job, boys!" Botan said, appearing out of nowhere. She opened a portal for them, shoving them all in quickly, not noticing Kagome or Souta.
"We following?" Souta asked her. She nodded and smiled cheekily.
"What else?" she asked him, smiling ruefully. But deep inside she was still worried about Kurama. How trustworthy was he? She conjured up her own portal and she and Souta stepped inside.
"Ah," Koenma said, noting their arrival. "Higurashi-sama, what brings you here?" The baby raised his eyes at her winningly.
"Aww, you're such an adorable baby Koenma!" she squealed, hugging him. The ogres and the other ferry people continued on as normal. This happened every two weeks or so. Kagome pulled out a lollypop from her pocket and gave it to him.
"Damn," Yusuke swore, "How deep in all this shit are you in? Who are you exactly?"
"Kagome Higurashi," Kagome told him, ignoring his first question. She turned to Koenma, "Koenma-sama, how trustworthy is Kurama-kun?" Koenma regarded her curiously for a second.
"Enough to trust him with my life, I guess," Koenma told her, nonplussed. "Why? Need him to do a job for you?"
"No no, it's okay." Kagome told him briskly. Meanwhile, she sent a message to her loyal friend and charge, Hiei. 'Hiei, check if Kurama's lying for a second for me, okay?' He agreed. "Kurama!" she said sharply, bringing him back into focus. "What are you planning about the Jewel?" He looked at her incredulously for a moment.
"I have no idea what you're talking about," Kurama told her truthfully. Hiei nodded in affirmation. Her eyes softened and she smiled at Kurama.
"I'm sorry I ever doubted you," she told him earnestly, hugging him tightly. Kurama raised his eyebrows at her. "Shikon no Tama," she told him, rolling her eyes. His eyebrows rose in surprise.
"So what? Only weak, stupid creatures rely on artifacts strengths. I steal for beauty mostly," Kurama told her honestly. He grinned widely at her, "And I'd have to say you're damn good looking, much better than some jewel." She broke into tears and walked over to hug him. An ogre, presumably George, had turned on the radio, hoping to find music to suit the mood. 3 Doors Down, Let Me Go blared out.
"You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go, just let me go"
Kagome snorted, "Now that is irony." Kurama moved closer to her. Pulling a seed out of his hair, he let his magic seep into the seed and it flourished into a red rose with white tips.
"Yes, love," Kurama whispered to her, "But I am never going to let you go." He kissed her on the lips, a passionate, loving kiss.
Botan walked in then to hear music playing and Kagome and Kurama conjoined by the lips. She huffed and stormed out of the office. Kagome pulled back from Kurama and studied him intently.
"Good," Kagome told him breathlessly, "Because I love you."
END OF LOVE STORY 1