The Love Of A Werewolf
Sept. 4
I finally told her that I love her. She doesn't. love me, I mean. No one loves me. Is it because I'm a werewolf? No one knows. Does it, I don't know, show through? Why can't anyone love me? I don't understand it. Well. actually I do. how could anyone love a werewolf?
Sept. 8
She avoids me now. It hurts. We were best friends. Oh well. it would of come sooner or later. They all would have found out sooner or later. Should have known that she would find out first. She's smart. She should have been in Ravenclaw. If it wasn't for the fact that I know that she's Gryfinddor material. She probably knew before my other best friends did. All 3 of them. I'm lonely. I wish she could love me.
Sept. 29
Sorry for not writing so long. I couldn't find the time. There were a lot of pranks this last couple of weeks. I laugh even right now. We got Snape good. She, of course, lectured through her giggling. I fell in love with her all over again. She's like that. Easy to fall in love with. I would know. I miss not being friends with her. I know that people have noticed. Just last week Malfoy made a stupid comment about it. He called her a mudblood. He apologized though. We made him. It's not her fault that her parents and the rest of her family are muggles. I could have killed him.
Oct. 2
She came up to me today. She told me that she was sorry for the way she acted. Someone had told her to apologize. She didn't think I knew that she was forced. But I heard it through the Hogwarts gossip queens. My heart has cracked even more then it was before. My only love. My best friend. I'm going to try to get into other things more. Studying of course. Obviously. I might try to get on the house team. It'll take a lot of practice. I'm nowhere as good as any of my friends on the team, but it will distract me. Plus she hates to fly. She won't bother me up there.
Oct. 6
I need poison. Now.
Oct. 7
They're already planning the wedding. They're planning what to call the kids!
Oct. 8
Dumbledore is going to officiate the ceremony. I don't get to be best man. Our other friend does. I had expected to be best man. I don't know why. They are actually much closer now then we ever were.
Oct. 9
I am never going to write in this again. It doesn't help to write it out. I was told once that it would. but it doesn't.
I wasn't going to write anymore. I have to though. I'll just settle for never remembering the date. I'll always remember the date. The day my heart finally split into a million pieces. Watching my two best friends marry each other. Me not in the ceremony. Not invited to the wedding actually. Maybe she felt guilty for breaking my heart. Maybe not. Maybe she was just uncomfortable with me after she knew I loved her. Whatever it was, I don't care. I do care. But I guess by now I'm used to it. Lost both my best friends because I told one of them I loved her. He probably doesn't want the competition. Hah! As if I could compete with him. He probably doesn't think that, He's probably guilty. We were pretty close. And he gets guilty a lot. I actually feel better knowing he, at least, has some more and better friends. Ginny and Neville. I wonder if Professor Lupin ever felt like this when he looked at James and Sirius. or James and Lily. I should ask him. Now that he's my guardian it's easier.
But I get off topic, probably a good thing. distract myself. She was beautiful. He was Harry. They're perfect for each other. I'll always be alone, Like I said, know one loves a werewolf. No one will ever love me. I'll always be alone.
Sept. 4
I finally told her that I love her. She doesn't. love me, I mean. No one loves me. Is it because I'm a werewolf? No one knows. Does it, I don't know, show through? Why can't anyone love me? I don't understand it. Well. actually I do. how could anyone love a werewolf?
Sept. 8
She avoids me now. It hurts. We were best friends. Oh well. it would of come sooner or later. They all would have found out sooner or later. Should have known that she would find out first. She's smart. She should have been in Ravenclaw. If it wasn't for the fact that I know that she's Gryfinddor material. She probably knew before my other best friends did. All 3 of them. I'm lonely. I wish she could love me.
Sept. 29
Sorry for not writing so long. I couldn't find the time. There were a lot of pranks this last couple of weeks. I laugh even right now. We got Snape good. She, of course, lectured through her giggling. I fell in love with her all over again. She's like that. Easy to fall in love with. I would know. I miss not being friends with her. I know that people have noticed. Just last week Malfoy made a stupid comment about it. He called her a mudblood. He apologized though. We made him. It's not her fault that her parents and the rest of her family are muggles. I could have killed him.
Oct. 2
She came up to me today. She told me that she was sorry for the way she acted. Someone had told her to apologize. She didn't think I knew that she was forced. But I heard it through the Hogwarts gossip queens. My heart has cracked even more then it was before. My only love. My best friend. I'm going to try to get into other things more. Studying of course. Obviously. I might try to get on the house team. It'll take a lot of practice. I'm nowhere as good as any of my friends on the team, but it will distract me. Plus she hates to fly. She won't bother me up there.
Oct. 6
I need poison. Now.
Oct. 7
They're already planning the wedding. They're planning what to call the kids!
Oct. 8
Dumbledore is going to officiate the ceremony. I don't get to be best man. Our other friend does. I had expected to be best man. I don't know why. They are actually much closer now then we ever were.
Oct. 9
I am never going to write in this again. It doesn't help to write it out. I was told once that it would. but it doesn't.
I wasn't going to write anymore. I have to though. I'll just settle for never remembering the date. I'll always remember the date. The day my heart finally split into a million pieces. Watching my two best friends marry each other. Me not in the ceremony. Not invited to the wedding actually. Maybe she felt guilty for breaking my heart. Maybe not. Maybe she was just uncomfortable with me after she knew I loved her. Whatever it was, I don't care. I do care. But I guess by now I'm used to it. Lost both my best friends because I told one of them I loved her. He probably doesn't want the competition. Hah! As if I could compete with him. He probably doesn't think that, He's probably guilty. We were pretty close. And he gets guilty a lot. I actually feel better knowing he, at least, has some more and better friends. Ginny and Neville. I wonder if Professor Lupin ever felt like this when he looked at James and Sirius. or James and Lily. I should ask him. Now that he's my guardian it's easier.
But I get off topic, probably a good thing. distract myself. She was beautiful. He was Harry. They're perfect for each other. I'll always be alone, Like I said, know one loves a werewolf. No one will ever love me. I'll always be alone.