This is just a one shot but for those of you who request it I will write the smutty sequel to it. I hope you enjoy it, it is quite a bit different than many of my other stuff. Let me know what you think of this. Reviews really inspire me.
PS I own nothing.
She was finally ready. Elena Gilbert was finally ready to confess how she felt to Damon. It had taken some time, but she had finally gotten there. She had finally come to the conclusion that not only what she had with Stefan wasn't real, but that he was unsaveable. That she shouldn't want to save him. And she didn't anymore. She no longer wanted to be the crutch that supported him. She didn't want to fear for her life whenever they were alone together. She was simply done. But then why was she laying in her bed sobbing like her heart had been shattered into a million tiny little pieces? That was because once she finally decided to take what she wanted, and confess, she found him with someone else.
She was so excited. It was finally time. It was time that she, Elena Gilbert, told Damon Salvatore that she loved him- that she was irrevocably and passionately in love with him. She spent time doing her hair just right and applying her makeup with an almost obsessive accuracy. She tried on every dress she owned, trying to find the one that spoke volumes about what she wanted to say to him. She wanted the dress that made it look like she was off to confess to him. In the end she chose a blue strapless. She knew she was going way overboard for this, but she didn't care. She had a plan and she hoped he was open to it. She wanted to wine and dine Damon Salvatore. She wanted to take him to a restaurant and buy him supper and do anything and everything she could think of to convince him that she loved him. That was after she told him of course. She wanted to say it then show it. Mainly because she knew it was going to take some persuasion on his part for him to believe her. He had loved her for so long, that he most likely wouldn't believe her when he said the words that he was dying to hear. Once she was ready, she walked out to her car ignoring the curious glances from Alaric.
"Where are you off to?" he asked seeing her all dressed up.
"I'm going to do something I should have done long ago." she said grinning.
"Which is?" he peppered.
"I'm going to tell Damon I love him." she said smiling softly.
"When did this all happen? These feelings of yours." he asked.
"There wasn't one specific moment. It's been lots of things. I finally realized it." she said.
"Good for you." he said smiling at the girl he considered a daughter. She smiled before leaving the house and climbing into her car. She drove the speed limit over to his house and parked the car just behind Damon's and unidentifiable green car. Curiously she started walking to the door but stopped when she heard voices on the other side. She seen Damon open the door more than a little occupied by the woman standing beside him, he never even noticed her dressed up. He was shirtless and it was more than obvious what he had just been doing.
"I'll see you soon?" she asked.
"You sure will. I'll call you." he said leaning in and kissing the woman. Elena immediately hated her and felt stupid for coming over here. When he broke the kiss and the woman strode past Elena, Damon finally looked up at her.
"Elena, I didn't know you were coming over." he said running a hand through his tousled hair.
"I was just checking in. Wanted to make sure you were okay, I haven't seen you in a while." she said surprised at her quick thinking for an excuse.
"We seen each other yesterday." he said.
"Oh. Well I have to go. Like I said I just wanted to check in. I have to meet Bonnie and Caroline at the Grill." she said backing up slowly.
"Are you alright?" he asked confused by her being here. She had never just come by to check on him.
"Yeah I'm fine. Perfect actually. Don't friends come up and check on other friends all the time?" she asked still backing towards her car.
"I guess so." he said running his hand back through his hair.
"But I'm late. I better get going. Care hates it when I'm late." she said.
"Okay, I'll see you soon." he said waiting until she was in her car and driving away before he went back inside confused. Once she had driven away from the house she let her tears fall. She couldn't believe she'd been so stupid. He was clearly with someone new. He normally didn't walk them to the door and kiss them goodbye. She was too late, he'd moved on. She walked back into her house after miraculously getting home alive.
"That didn't take long." Alaric remarked when he heard her walk in. She didn't answer, she was completely incapable of speech in that moment. "What's wrong?" he asked seeing her teary eyes.
"He moved on. He doesn't want me anymore." she said wrapping her arms around herself.
"What happened?" he asked immensely worried about her.
"He found someone else. I seen him kiss her before she left and he noticed me. I made an excuse and left I didn't want to talk to him." she said hugging herself even tighter. Alaric didn't know what to say. "I'm going upstairs and get some rest. I'll see you tomorrow." she said walking up the stairs.
That was how she had ended up where she was, in bed crying over a man. She wasn't crying over any man though, she was crying over Damon Salvatore, the one man that she said she'd never cry over. And he managed to break her more thoroughly than any other ever could. She closed her eyes and fell in a fitful sleep. No matter what she did, his face popped up in her mind. She couldn't stop thinking about him no matter what she thought. The next morning brought more confusion, and more pain. She was still hurting and she knew she would for a while. She stayed in bed not wanting to move a muscle. Not wanting to risk seeing his face. But she knew she couldn't. She had school, and she had friends. She had a life to get back to. A life that would not include Damon Salvatore.
"Elena, how are you feeling? School is cancelled today but I have some things to do. I called Caroline she's coming over." he said.
"Why is school cancelled?" she asked.
"Power outage." he said not concerned.
"Oh." she said her voice still raspy from all her tears. When Alaric left Caroline walked into the room.
"Ric said you were upset and that I should make you feel better. So what can I do?" she asked.
"Take me for breakfast." she said.
"Sounds good. The Grill sounds perfect." Caroline said smiling. Elena smiled tentatively before getting out of bed and walking into her bathroom to shower and get ready.
"Do you want to tell me what's wrong?" Caroline asked softly resting her hand on Elena's.
"Not really. I just really want to forget it ever happened." she said softly.
"Okay. But you know I'm here if you do want to talk." she said squeezing her hand. They ate their breakfasts in silence until Damon walked in.
"I want to leave." Elena said suddenly.
"Why?" Caroline asked looking around.
"It's just time." she said. Caroline nodded looking confused but she gave in anyways mainly because of the look on Elena's face.
"Let's get out of here." she said.
"Hey." Damon said stopping Elena on her way out the door. She froze when he touched her but she tried to plaster a smile on her face.
"I'm really busy Damon. I have to get going." she said.
"Okay, what's going on Elena?" he asked.
"Nothing. I just have plans with Caroline today and I should get back to them." she said looking at Caroline.
"Oh right yes. We have to get going Damon." she said.
"Fine. But Elena I know something is wrong, and I will figure it out." he said walking towards the bar. She sighed and followed Caroline out to the car.
"Elena what is going on between you and Damon?" she asked knowingly.
"Nothing apparently. Nothing at all. I'm too late." she said.
"What the hell are you talking about?" she asked confused.
"I'm in love with him Care, more than I ever was with Stefan. But he's with someone." she said a new wave of tears coming to her eyes.
"Oh. Are you okay Lena?" she asked.
"No, I just want to go home." she said.
"Alright. I take you there." Caroline said putting the car in drive and taking her home. "Do you want me to stay with you?" she asked.
"No. I just want to be alone." she said getting out of the car. Caroline seen Ric's car in the driveway and was relieved that Elena wouldn't actually be alone. Caroline drove away once Elena was inside, fighting with herself about going to confront Damon. She decided that she wouldn't only because it would be a betrayal of sorts to Elena. Elena clearly didn't want him to know anything so she would keep it that way. Elena walked up to her room and shut the door after telling Ric that she didn't want to see anyone. Ric decided to give her today mainly because it was only yesterday her heart was crushed by one Damon Salvatore.
Damon sat in the Grill confused about the way Elena was acting. He intended on getting an answer out of her so he drove to her house and seen her car and Ric's car parked outside. Now was the time to see if her story was true. He knocked on the door and Ric answered.
"How can I help you Damon?" he asked his arms crossed across his chest.
"Is Elena here, her and I need to talk." he said.
"She's here, but she doesn't want to see anyone." he said.
"Ah, so she isn't with Caroline." he noted.
"No, Caroline left. You need to leave too." he said.
"Fine. I'm leaving." he said getting in his car and driving back to the boarding house. He decided that he would give her a few days but then he was talking to her whether she wanted to or not.
Saturday morning Elena felt good for the first time in a few days. As long as she didn't think about him, he didn't exist and she was fine. But the moment she thought of him her entire plan went out the window. So she vowed not to think about him. She got dressed and went downstairs where Alaric had breakfast waiting.
"You look better." he noted seeing her with colour in her cheeks and a small smile on her face.
"I feel better." she said.
"So have you seen or talked to Damon?" he asked.
"I feel better as long as I don't talk about him. But no. And I don't plan to." she said.
"Sorry. Do you still love him?" he asked.
"Yes. But he's with someone so it doesn't really matter." she sighed.
"Alright. I wont mention him anymore." he said.
"Thank you." she said softly
Today was her deadline, and she still hadn't returned to normal. Deciding enough was enough he drove over to the house and leaped in through her window. He sat on her window seat and fought the urge to read her diary which was lying open, pages down on her bed.
"I'm going upstairs to do my homework." he heard her tell Ric. He heard Ric voice his satisfaction and heard her feet on the stairs. He was sitting on her window seat with an indifferent expression on his face when she walked in the room.
"Damon what are you doing here?" she asked when she walked in the room.
"You and I need to talk." he said.
"No we really don't. I have homework to do." she said.
"You're homework can wait. Now why are you avoiding me?" he demanded getting up and walking over to her where she was leaning against her wall clearly trying to put as much distance as she could between them.
"I'm not. I've just been busy." she said.
"I'm sick of your lying. Ric told me a few days ago that you didn't want to see me." he said crossing his arms.
"I just want to be alone." she whispered sounding entirely broken.
"I'll leave you alone when you tell me what's wrong. What did I do? The only time recently that we've even been together sort of was when you came over with that dress on and then you left immediately. That night confused the hell out of me Elena, and now I want answers to all of your behaviour lately." he said placing his hands on either side of her head effectively boxing her in.
"Will you leave me alone if I tell you. I don't want to see you." she said.
"Yes, fine. Whatever. Just tell me what the hell is going on." he insisted.
"I came over that night to tell you something. But I couldn't after I seen you kiss that woman. I've been avoiding you ever since." she said purposely leaving out information.
"Elena, I need more than that. What did you want to tell me when he caught me kissing Maya." he said.
"I wanted to tell you that I'm in love with you. But its okay. You moved on. You and Maya make a beautiful couple." she whispered a fresh batch of tears flowing from her eyes.
"Shut up about me and Maya. You came to tell me that you love me?" he said searching for clarification.
"Yes, but it doesn't matter now. I'm too late and you finally moved on. Now if you've ever loved me I need you to make me forget. Please compel this all away,make me forget that you crushed my heart into tiny little pieces." she begged.
"I will not compel this away. No chance. You finally love me, that's what I've been waiting for, for the past two years. I will not make this go away." he said firmly.
"Why you want to see me in pain all the time? You want me to live with this broken heart forever?" she asked
"Of course not. Elena you could never be too late. I've spent my entire existence searching for you and trying to get you to love me. I'm not giving that up now." he said moving one hand to caress her cheek. She leaned into his touch, and he closed the distance between them and pressed a feather light kiss to her lips. When he broke apart she looked up at him.
"What about Maya?" she asked
"Maya, Andie, Rose and all the other women, they're all the same. They were simply distractions from you." he said. She smiled tentatively, she was relieved to know that Maya wasn't anyone important. That she was just there to keep his mind off of her. This time she leaned in and kissed him, but her kiss wasn't gentle like his. She kissed him hard with everything she had. All the passion and love she had inside her flowing through in that kiss. When she broke the kiss she smiled up at him.
"I'm in love with you Damon Salvatore." she whispered. He grinned brightly at her before leaning into kiss her deeply. Damon pulled away after a moment with a pronounced glower on his face when he heard Alaric's footsteps on the stairs.
"What?" she asked.
"Alaric freaking Saltzman." he said Just as he said that Alaric opened the door.
"Damon what are you doing here? And what are you doing to Elena?" he asked.
"It's okay Ric. It's all good now. We worked it out." she said lacing her hand through his and smiling up at him.
"Oh okay. Well then I will head downstairs and leave you to it. For the record its nice to see you smile like that." he said walking out of the room shutting her door on the way.
"I officially hate that man." he said before swooping and kissing her.