Remus POV
I was sitting all alone in my small cottage. Cuddled in a warm blanket, a mug of tea and a book to read, trying to get my thoughts of Sirius Black out of my head. It is now two months that I have seen him the last time. He had been told to lie low at my house and we were supposed to alert the old crowd. But everything went a way I didn't expect it.
Sirius and me were trying the our best to get reacquainted, tried to get along again with our feelings we had harboured for ourselves for such a long time, but everything went wrong. After he had been staying one month with me we started to fight about little things. And each time the fight grew bigger until one day, where I couldn't bear to listen to Sirius' harsh words anymore. I had striked him along the face and bellowed at him that he shall leave this instant before I would loose control of myself. He left minutes later and I regret now that I have send him away never getting really the chance that I still loved him.
A small tear goes down my cheek and I tremble as I remember the Sirius. Sirius Black. My precious lover, the person I will love until eternity, the person to whom I am mated to…and I had to throw him out of the house just because I couldn't get along with the Sirius Black which had just lost control of his words. I am so stupid and I should have known that Sirius needed time to become the old person he had been before Azkaban again. But I know now, that I have acted wrong and I wish that he would be here now and not somewhere outside in the cold.
I put the book aside as I can't seem to concentrate on it and I watch the slowly falling snow through the window. Just as I want to get and make me something to eat, I can hear a small tapping noise at the window and I get up letting inside a big and brown Barn Owl. The Owl sits down on the chair in front of my desk and waits patiently for me to take the letter out of the beak.
As I unfold the parchment I recognize the handwriting immediately. It was Sirius' and I wonder what he can still want with me after I have treated him so horrible. I take a deep breath before I start to read the letter and sit back down on the couch, only then I started to read the letter.
Dear Remus,
I know I have been horrible and my behaviour can't be excused. But I can't go on like this especially not after the Ministry has finally proven me innocent since a week. Nobody knows, you're the first one I have told this and I will keep it a secret still some time.
Do you remember the Christmas holidays in our sixth year? The holidays we came out with our feelings and became lovers? I still remember the day very clearly and I never wanted that day to end. And I have never regretted of telling you how I have felt, because I think that you're the most beautiful creature, which exists in the world.
I miss you Remus and I can't stand having to stay one more day without you. That's why I ask for your forgiveness and I hope we can have a new beginning with a happy an ending.
I have only one wish and I hope it comes true. Please come back home love, I'll be waiting for you.
Sirius
I reread the letter about five times until I made myself clear that Sirius had really meant this all. I got up and started to get my belongings together as I had to go on a mission. To make a Christmas wish come true.