Prologue

Mi Amour,

The love I experienced for the first time was a complicated one. I hated that I loved her and I loved how I hurt her. We used each other until there was nothing left but the feint remains of a toxic lust disguised as an epic love. She was no fool knowing exactly the sort of beast I was. The evil, deceitful, ruthless being I still am today and always will be. Her desire to save mankind and my need to destroy it made the passion for one another that much more intense. Our love was dark, violent, confusing, it wasn't love at all; it was insanity and the more insane it became the deeper in love I fell. There was only the promise of destruction and in the end I proved exactly how heartless I am, the very reason she loved me.

A beauty so closely resembling that of a porcelain doll I was impressed with myself for not having broken her sooner. Her light brown hair curled naturally in the most perfect of ways I hadn't known to be possible and though this happened long ago I still see her smile clear as day. I never meant to take her life but who would believe a creature like me could feel anything other than the sadistic pleasure of defacing all things beautiful? What many failed to realize you figured out in an instant and only my greatest enemy had been able to do just that, you could my weakness in my strongest feature.

After my time with her I became consumed by many conflicting emotions, I knew I was a monster especially after what I had done yet there was still a part of me that longed to end the reign of terror I felt compelled to create. A slave to the temptations within this demonic mind I would cease to exist if I were like the others. Any doubt I had on whether I would be capable of killing again was clarified the night I met Quinn, she can explain that one to you're curious and if you ask nice enough.

It may have become apparent with what I've put you through that my interpretation of love could be considered warped but I need you to understand that monsters such as I are more than capable of feeling love, I know it. I don't mind if you believe that my love is only a selfish kind because you at least know that it's there. Britt, when it comes to you there are no words to describe the depths of how I feel so I won't hesitate proving it in the only way I know how. is to from the dangers set in motion and that is exactly what I intend do. I understand my rogue tendencies disgust you and your own modern view, it disgusts me too. You don't make me want to change my ways but you make me believe I can and I promise you I will return a changed vampire to be with you eternally and watch Sugar live her life in peace.

Te amo,

Santana

A/N

Amateur writer here, self edited and not so great with the grammar. I love this Santana and Brittany pairing and have from the weeeee beginning, hehe. Anyway, I've wanted to tell this story so hope you enjoy. I'll probably post a chapter a week, the letter is pretty vague but that's just to hook ya in. ;)