This is the follow-up drabble to Hear Me. Please review! I know it's short, but hey, it's a drabble. Thank you to those you read and reviewed my previous drabble! Hiji/Yama forever!
Title: Drabble #2- Yamazaki's Hero
Disclaimer: I do not own Gintama…sadly.
Warning: Swearing and male/male love. Contains major spoilers for chapters 158-160, the (Itou) Shinsengumi Discord Arc.
Yamazaki almost died not too long ago. I wasn't there when it happened. In fact, no one was. He was alone and out-numbered. Those traitorous bastards left him to die…and he had no one to rescue him. Because of this, I was angry…more like furious. It's bad enough that the Shinsengumi was falling apart thanks to that asshole Itou and that I had been turned into a fucking otaku by some damn cursed sword…but then Itou had stabbed Yamazaki and left him to die.
The idiot almost died and now I hate myself. Why? Because I wasn't there to save him. I couldn't protect the one I secretly have feelings for. Yes I, Hijikata Toushirou, the Vice-Commander of the Shinsengumi, actually give a damn about someone besides myself. Shocker. Of all the people in the world…I picked Sagaru Yamazaki (AN: that's his real name!) to love.
I, along with everyone else, had become convinced that I lacked the ability to love. Ha, guess we have been proven wrong. That sadist Sougo will be furious when he finds out. Why couldn't I feel this was about his sister Mitsuba? I cared for her and tried to protect her by pushing her away, but my feelings for him are stronger. I love that badminton-obsessed fool and I wish I could tell him.
Yamazaki has been acting strange lately. I try not to show it…but I am really worried. Even though his life was spared, and I still don't understand what happened that day, I think he had been traumatized. Not that I blame him. I wish I could help him through his pain. I wish I could keep him safe in my arms. Yes, I feel like a romantic loser, but he is worth it. But to admit would be like intentionally causing him pain. His life would be in an increased amount of danger simply because of who I am. I have many enemies. Besides, I carry too much baggage and I don't want to share this burden, which is solely mine to bear.
So, I will watch and wait until I get the chance to redeem myself. Yamazaki almost died and I wasn't there. But one day, I will be sure to be with him…and be his hero. Maybe by then I can get the nerve up to tell him the truth. After all, it's not every day I offer to share a bowl of the Hijikata Special with someone.
