One Day You May See
Disclaimer: Stephenie Meyer owns Twilight. I wrote the song, please don't steal!
Topic: Bella's thoughts on the flight to Italy to save Edward.
A/N: It might be a good idea to view this in half view, if your screen is extremely wide.
by kikichugirl
In the dark quiet of the plane, I wonder where he is now. My life is hell, and I wonder if I know how to go on. This plane ride is torture... I remember a song I'd once heard, and it replays itself in my head…
Something's over there
Do you hear
The silence of the black hole
the wordless echo of this hell?
It is true. My life has become a black hole without Edward, and I need him. It is a silence… an unending silence. Lost in her visions, Alice does not notice my thoughts.
And life is not a party
A brilliant pleasure, hardly
but I will come and save,
you, I will be brave
I promise to save him. I promise myself to save him from himself if it's the last thing I do. My life is no longer fun, no longer happy. I need him, and I know, without a doubt, that I'll do anything.
Doors knocked, one more gunshot
Tears falling, eyes bloodshot
but without you I am nothing
not living, never breathing
The song is never wrong for me. My spirit is not living, as I don't seem alive. I cry all day. And my eyes are always bloodshot. If someone fires one more gunshot, I hardly have the energy to care.
It was a bright Forks day
Goodbye, you said
Well I'm so sorry for the delay
So many things I've misread
I misread that you'd ever loved me. I misread that you'd ever cared. And when you said goodbye, you proved it. Edward, I'm sorry… I'm sorry for making you pretend… I'm sorry for killing you…
I don't need saving
I'm not the one falling
but without you I am nothing
not living, never breathing
He need not save me. I wanted to be Superhero, too. Not always the one being saved. And without him I become nothing. I had to save him, in order to have any hope of surviving.
Puffs of oxygen through my lips
forced by memories of your kiss
If I had my way, I'd say
I really don't want to stay
The only thing that kept me going was the fact that he was real. He's real, and he'd pretended to love me. But if he disappears, I'd never stay in this world.
In this black hole
Where those I love are lost & unfound
but I will come and save, you
I will come and save, you
Edward, I whisper to him in my mind. Wait for me. I'm coming to get you. I love you, I love you…
Even if it's "I don't love you"
Even if it's "why did you come"
but without you I am nothing
not living, never breathing
Edward, do you still love me? If you wonder why I came, and say you don't love me, I'll believe. I'll leave you alone. But I just need you alive, Edward. Please.
So tell me where you are
I don't care if it might be far
I promise to let you go
if you think I was too slow
Please, Edward. Wait for me. Tell Alice what you're going to decide… decide on something. I'll move on, the way I should have. I promise, Edward. Please.
Oh, I see you now
And I imagine how
You will let me know –
"I want you to go"
I see him in the clock tower. The clock begins to chime… one… two…I realize he will never let me stay. He'll tell me to go.
And I'll silence you with a touch
"Love, this might be too much,
but without you I am nothing
not living, never breathing
And before I let him go, like I promise, I'll tell him that I love him. I'll tell him how I was nothing before him.
One day I hope you will see
Without you I am nothing
Without you I was nothing
Was not living, was not breathing
I can let him go. And the unbreathing, not living, will all be in the past. It will all be in the "was", a past tense. I just want him to know that I loved him.
Maybe one day you will see
What was true, between, you, and, me."
Edward, I loved you.
FIN
Please review!
