First Page. Last Chance

…Just… how many times should I do this?

End up in the same place, wearing the same black shirt hearing the same monotone voice and slight crying voice around me, also looking at your smiling face in that frame.

I can even hear Kami-sama is laughing at me.

Why I always ended up in the exact same path leading to the same ending?

Well, at least, you die isn't because you hang yourself in your room. Dying alone, because you can't stop blaming yourself for everything that happened and I, your best friend, should really know that the word 'hate' means an end of the world to you.

I'm stupid. I always am.

I killed you with my words and actions, as simple as that.

I left you alone just because I'm tired seeing your attitude towards what-you-call 'my' friends.

This is my fault.

Even when Kami-sama giving me a chance to fix everything, I can do nothing to protect you. Well, on my third chance I finally have you to be a friend to everyone, which made me really happy. But, still, you still die which made me doesn't move any step from this place. I can't even see you wearing that Sakura pin and hearing the teacher call your name as a representative for us who graduated two days ago.

If it's not an accident then your parents found and kill you, or at some point, something bothers you so much which make you want to go somewhere far away, and jump to the rail, or from rooftops.

What should I do now?

"…Yeah… I wonder what you should do now?"

That voice again.

"How about you gave up, Yuu? It's meaningless."

"I bet it's your trick… you don't want Mika alive, right?"

"Oh no… you just.. well, lost the last piece of the puzzle. I did nothing ever since I give you these chances."

I glare at him.

The-looks-like-14-years-old boy with a very long black hair also long bangs which hiding his left eye turn his head at me. His hair floats and dance whenever he moves and make it almost look like a black mist that hanging around him, and also it starts to make me wonder if he just kind of demon or something.

"Oh, wow. Ok. That is rude. Hyakuya Yuuichirou."

I forgot to mention that he can read my mind.

I glare at him, but he just let his grin spread out on his face and sit at the top of the table which much people leaves a flower at and say their goodbye at Mika. This stupid Kami-sama is now playing with one of those on his finger.

"Because you keep calls me stupid or annoying, I really should tell you my name, hm? Just call me Asura."

"I don't need that kind of information."

"How rude, then, what kind of information that you need?"

"…are you not giving me any chances again?"

"Nope. That is the last. This isn't a game where you can restart every time you want."

"….But…"

It feels like Mika is just in front of me, but when I stretch my hand, I can't reach him no matter what I do. Even when the gap between us decrease every time I restart the time, come back to past time why I still can't hold him and make him stand beside me today?

I've remembered and fixed everything that went wrong, maybe this time… this time I can…

"I won't give you any. Not today. Just come back about ten years later and—"

"I CAN'T!"

Asura looks at me as if I'm just talking with kind of the language he doesn't understand. But the smirk back, he probably knows why I so persistent and eager to come back, again and again, rewriting everything when he give me chances. I really want Mika here, right now. Because—

"—you might forget about him ten years later." He said with half-closed eyes.

"You wrong. That's not what I meant. I can't be sure I can meet you again here."

"Stop lying to yourself, Yuu. I can read everything about you like an open book. You afraid that maybe ten years later, you find yourself happy even without Mika and then you can't meet him again in the next life or heaven… something like that. Look, coming back to the past isn't solving the problem—for your case. Mika already has this kind of mindset since long ago—"

"I DON'T CARE! Just.. give me one more—no, one last chance."

Asura has that judging look.

"I don't care what will you do to me, you can even kill me, take my soul or throw me to the depth of hell after this. So please… I think—no, I'll make it happen now. I'll save Mika."

"What's make you so sure?"

"…I fix everything wrong when I come back right? Even people who come today is increasing whenever I come back."

Asura shrugs his shoulders. I probably didn't give him the exact answer to convince him.

"Look, you can do whatever you want when I died, or when I fail again this time. I'll give you everything about me."

"Hmm.. selling yourself to convince me, hm? But, I'm not a demon. Selling your soul won't affect anything to me, it's useless."

"Urrgh.."

"Okay, I'll give you one more chance because I know you will start terrorizing me after this. But this time was the very last time. After this, I won't give you any chance to go back anymore. But—"

"Seriously? You serious? Asura… hey, you serious right? Don't worry, I won't let you down this time."

"Listen, You must pay something for this chance and also there's also rules and regulations—"

"You have me. You have everything to me. You can have it. Rules? Don't worry, I won't do anything stupid. No mentioning about coming back from future right? I already know that."

"Yuu. Listen—"

"No, Asura. I know. It's my sixth time. I remember all of it. No mentioning about what will happen next to everyone, no do any cheating like coming to the exact places of happening event to check everything and preparing something to make sure my plan goes to the right path, don't make anyone suspicious of my actions. I understand that." Then I close my eyes, just like what I always do.

"I'm ready."

I can hear Asura takes a long sigh.

"…Okay… just, don't complain to me when you find any problem. And um… you can meet me in this place if you want to ask about the rules and regulations or else." He said before clicking his finger.

Every single sound fills my ear before I can feel something very hard to grab my body and pulls me to somewhere in such a high speed.

I don't think of anything else except guessing where did Asura put me this time. At first, he put me in Hyakuya orphanage when I first met with Mika, the second time is where someone from Tepes family adopt him, the third is when I meet him again in junior high school, the fourth is in Shinoa's birthday, and the fifth is one week before Mika's birthday. What now?

I open my eyes slowly and the first thing I saw was blood and a knife.