Miracle of Love
Pairing: Jaslexis (Jason/Alexis)
Summary: When tragedy occurs, what draws these two unlikely pair together is more than fate, it's a miracle.
A/N: This story is dedicated to the absolutely fabulous author, Ayshen who inspired me to write a Jaslexis fic of my own with her own 2 wonderful stories. Please check out her two if you haven't already!
Part I
The excited knock on the front door jolted Alexis out of a peaceful rest but she knew who her visitor was so the intrusion was a warm welcome. She eased herself off the couch, careful in her condition to walk slowly towards the door.
She peered out the front door just to make sure and then when she noticed the smile that was blossoming over her child's face she knew who her caller was, she opened the door and leaned against the doorjamb as she looked at her visitors.
Sam and Jason, they had been through so much in the last couple of months and then it was devastating for Sam to realize that she might not ever be able to have children….She had expressed that devastation to her through her tears and it had prompted her to make the decision that she would help her daughter in anyway she could…
Flashback
"I'm sorry to be dumping all of my problems on you like this, Mom but I didn't know who else I could turn to."
Alexis caressed her daughter's face and said, "Sweetie, you never need to apologize for telling me your feelings. I'm just sorry you've been walking around with these emotions bottled inside of you,, what does Jason say about all of this?"
Sam looked down as she swiped the tears from her eyes and said, "Mom, Jason….Jason hasn't told me yet, but I just found out….He's the father of Elizabeth's baby."
Alexis gasped as she pulled her sobbing daughter back into her arms and comforted her the best she could, "Jason hasn't told you about the baby yet?"
Sam shook her head against her mother's chest as the tear continued to fall, "I don't hate him Mom…I love him more than I've ever loved anyone, he's protecting me because he knows how much I wanted a child and he doesn't want me to feel like I'm not good enough because I can't give him one."
Alexis rubbed her hand on her daughter's back hoping to impart some comfort from her touch. "I'm so sorry Sam….What do you need sweetheart? I'll help you anyway I can."
Sam looked up and rolled her eyes, "There's nothing you can do, Mom…There's nothing anyway can do, I just want a baby and I know that its selfish but I just want to be a mother so bad….There's nothing else that I want more in this world."
End of Flashback
Alexis stepped back as she allowed the pair entrance to her house. She smiled an easy smile with her daughter and a more guarded one with her boyfriend, she knew that she and Jason would never be the best of friends but she hoped that for Sam's sake they could come to an easy acknowledgement of each other.
Alexis closed the door behind the pair as Sam bounced in the house and looked around for signs of life and then turned back to her mother with an inquisitive look in her eyes, "Molly and Kristina?"
Alexis placed her hand in the small of her back as she started down the stairs when she felt a calming presence behind her as Jason helped guide her down the stairs, his warm hands caressing her back as he helped her move. She was startled by the rush of heat that ran through her body at his closeness but chided herself for that emotion. She knew it must've only been her imagination because as soon as he walked her down the steps he dropped his hands and backed away as if he had been burned. She must've been the only one to sense something, as she turned back to her daughter and said, "Sonny took Kristina for the weekend, and since I wasn't the only one going through separation anxiety when they were apart, Kristina refused to go unless her sister accompanied her. Ever since I regained custody of Molly, Kristina won't give five feet without her baby sister."
Jason spoke up from behind her, "I'm glad that Molly is back where she belongs. You are the only one who deserves to have her."
Alexis turned to Jason with an easy smile as she got caught in the cobalt, blue eyes staring at her with sincerity in his eyes and she said, "Thank you, but that doesn't answer the question, to what do I owe this unexpected visit?"
Sam motioned towards her stomach and said, "Jason and I wanted to see how you were doing and I wanted to say thank you again for making my dreams come true."
Alexis rolled her eyes as she walked slowly over to the sofa and motioned for her guests to sit down and said, "Sam, I want you to have the best of everything in life and even if I wasn't able to give to you growing up, anyone I can compensate you now is my pleasure…Although there is one stipulation I must make."
Jason sat down as he eyed her in question even as Sam's smile slowly started to fall from her face and Alexis cursed herself for allowing her lawyer's tongue to possibly scare her daughter and Jason, "Don't worry, all I want to ask is that you be responsible for explaining the situation to Kristina….No one seems to be able to convince her that this baby will not be her brother or sister but her niece or nephew….That's all I ask."
Jason grinned as he leaned back and said, "That won't be a problem." Sam sighed as she reached out and then stopped before she looked at her mother, "Can I?"
Alexis rolled her eyes as she reached for her daughter's hands and placed them on her slowly growing belly so she could feel the life there, a life that through modern medicine belonged to her daughter and her boyfriend. The baby kicked and Sam pulled back in shock as the tears welled in her eyes, "The baby just kicked me, Jason. Our baby just kicked me."
Jason looked at Sam and saw the smile in her face as couldn't help but smile as well as Alexis cleared her throat and directed her next statement to him, "Come over here Daddy. Feel your baby kick."
Sam reached for his hand, "Come on Jase, this is amazing."
Jason curved his hand around Alexis's stomach and Alexis stifled a moan at the warmth his hand immediately brought but tried to look elsewhere and focus on anything but the man in front of her, who pulled back after he felt a swift kick and said, "That is amazing, thank you Alexis."
Alexis knew he was referring to the whole process and not just for the momentary allowance of allowing the two of them to palm her stomach. Alexis nodded even as Sam sat back and looked at Jason and said, "I know it's not your firstborn but you can still love the baby right?"
Alexis flinched as she said, "Sam…."
Jason growled as her words registered, "Is that what all of this is about? You just want to upstage Elizabeth because she's given me Jake? What did I tell you about this before, this baby has nothing to do with you and me does it?"
Alexis opened her mouth shocked to see the outburst from the usually calm, Jason and sat up, "Listen Jason and Sam this child is going to be both of your responsibilities once it arrives, so all of this petty jealousies and insecurities have to take backseat to the needs of this child, please don't forget that….Sam, Jason has a point. Jake is Jason's but that doesn't mean that he loves you or this child of yours any less, you know that sweetheart. In your heart, where it counts you know what's right."
Sam nodded as she looked down and bit on her bottom lip, hesitant to admit that her mother had a point with her well intentioned words, "I'm sorry Jason, I get so jealous at times but my mother is right, you don't deserve this, no one does. Jake is your son and he's innocent in all of this, forgive me please."
Jason sighed as he sat down and smiled relieved at Alexis, she had succeeded where he failed in convincing Sam of the sincerity of his feeling about his son and their child that was coming, "I'm sorry too Sam. I love both my children, but that doesn't mean I love you or our child any less."
Sam nodded and opened her mouth to speak when the front door opened as Kristina and Molly came rushing into the living room with Sonny hot on their heels. He stopped at the tension in the room and gripped his daughter hand as he entered the threshold into the home slowly hoping he wasn't interrupting a serious discussion or fight. He smiled back at Alexis after reading her face and realizing that she appeared calm, "Is this a bad time?"
Alexis shook her head as she pushed herself off the couch and walked towards her younger daughters who were beaming full of happiness and said, "Did you have fun with Daddy?"
Kristina nodded even as Molly tugged on Alexis's leg begging to be picked up, Jason and Sonny both rose at the same moment reaching for the toddler who caught between suitors couldn't decide who she wanted to pick her up and finally deciding on the man she spent the weekend with launched herself into Sonny's arms.
Alexis gave him a small smile of thanks and said, "Well, thank you for returning my girls back to me safe and sound. Kristina kiss your father goodbye, and go get washed up for dinner."
Sonny came down the steps as he looked into Alexis's eyes and said, "You look tired, why don't I cook dinner?" His hand lingered on top of hers for a moment as he looked into her eyes, reminding himself of the ease that he always had when he was with her.
Sam nudged Jason on the shoulder as she noticed the look of intensity that Sonny was sending her mother and whispered towards him and said, "I think they're reconnecting."
Jason nodded even though the motion didn't help the sharp jolt of jealousy that ran through him as he saw Alexis and Sonny playing the dimple game. It didn't help after seeing them banter all evening and laugh; it did nothing to ease his sour mood.
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Alexis leaned back in her chair and sighed contentedly as she watched Jason and Sam clear the dishes from the table and disappear into the kitchen even as she stared after the pair with a worried frown.
"You look worried, what's going on in that brain of yours?"
Alexis looked back at Sonny and said, "I'm worried about those two Sonny. I think Sam is placing all of her hopes on her relationship with Jason into this baby and that's not why the baby is being born, I want this child to have the best of everything…but with two parents who are constantly at each other's throats about the past, it won't help. They need to focus on being together, loving together and being good parents together."
Sonny looked down and shook his head in amazement, "You never cease to amaze me Alexis. This is such a selfless act that you're doing that not many women would be able to do and I just think Sam and Jason are lucky that you are even willing. Especially after the way things were between the two of you."
Alexis shrugged as she tried to roll off the compliment even while she stared at her daughter who was in the kitchen with a smile on her face and said, "For the happiness of my children, I'm always willing to do whatever it takes."
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"Sam, I'm sorry about our fight earlier. I don't want you think that I'm not excited about the birth of our child I am, its just weird for me at times….I keep expecting something to change and I don't know how to act, I'm sorry. I'm happy about this baby."
Sam smiled as she leaned up and kissed him briefly on the lips and said, "Thank you and I'm sorry about being such a bitch earlier, I was just jealous of Jake and I have no right to be. You are going to be Jake's father for the rest of your life and you are in love with me and not Elizabeth so I will get over this jealousy thing and love both of the babies as if they were my own.."
Jason smiled and said, "Thanks how are things with Alexis? She has gone out of her way to try to be a good mother to you, its good to see the two of you get along."
Sam sighed as she washed the last of the dishes and nodded, "She has been a good mother, much more than I ever hoped for or expected. I mean, I just told her that I wanted a baby and from then on she was willing to help me do whatever it took to make it happen. I don't deserve her and not after everything I put her through."
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Sonny put his finger on his mouth as he motioned to the couch where Alexis was sleeping comfortably tucked under a comforter as he smiled at Jason and said, "So how was dinner?"
A mumble came from the couch, "Don't inflate his head even more, he knows it was wonderful."
Sonny grinned and the dimples were clear to see and Sam laughed in unison with Jason and said, "Don't worry Mom; we won't inflate Sonny's head anymore. Thanks for dinner by the way, Mom we are going to get going."
Alexis nodded as she opened one eye as Sam leaned over and pressed a gentle kiss to her cheek and then rubbed her belly gently before pulling back, "We'll be back later this week for your doctor's appointment, Jason wanted to come as well."
Alexis looked over at the quiet man and smiled her approval, she knew that her daughter strong arming him into being a parent with her hadn't gone over well initially but it appeared as if everything was working out, for everyone. She nodded and said, "Well I'll look forward to seeing you and Jason at the next doctor's appointment. Hopefully, they can see what sex the baby is."
Sam squealed once more as she turned towards the door to leave and motioned for Jason to follow her, Jason followed behind her with sadness in his eyes that neither Alexis nor Sonny could deny.
Part II – Three Weeks Later
Alexis paced around her living room for the twentieth time in twenty minutes. Her appointment was supposed to have started an hour ago and she had to break down and reschedule but now she was biting her nails with worry about the whereabouts of her daughter and her boyfriend. They had promised to be prompt so they could arrive at the doctor's office in plenty of time but the lateness of the hour couldn't stop her heart from pounding in her throat as she worried about their whereabouts.
Kristina came running down the stairs at the moment, excited that her mother was still in the house and said, "I thought you would have been gone to the doctor's office already. Where are Sam and Jason?"
Alexis placed her palm in the small of her back and began to massage the ache that had started there earlier that day as she sat down on the sofa and turned to Kristina who had crawled up the sofa with a grin and said, "I don't know where they are yet sweetheart, I already tried calling them on their cell phone. They must've gotten really busy but don't worry when they arrive we can yell at them for making us worry."
Kristina giggled as she demonstrated her mother what she had hidden behind her back, "I want you to read me this book for our story time please Mommy?"
Alexis smiled as she took the book out of her daughter's hands and looked at the book in front of her and opened her mouth, "The bear," Alexis paused to clear her throat and suddenly felt a pain in her chest but refused to focus on the pain, she turned her attention back to the book and tried to focus on the words that had suddenly become blurred, "The bear….," As her voice traveled off, Kristina took the book out of her mother's arms and peered into her mother's eyes that had suddenly become glassy and started shaking her shoulders as her voice started to rise with anxiety.
"Mommy? Mommy!"
Alexis's head rolled towards her daughter's voice as she whispered, "Sam…Where's Sam?"
Hours Later
When Sonny had gotten the frantic call from his daughter saying that Alexis had collapsed and that she was unconscious, his heart had leapt into his throat where it currently remained even after he arrived at the house. It had taken him almost fifteen minutes to calm Kristina down and even then she wasn't convinced that her mother was going to be okay. She wanted her awake and coherent and he was selfish enough to admit that he wanted the same thing.
Kristina kept crying for her older sister, Sam who she coincidently said that Alexis had called for before passing out.
Sonny sighed as he punched in the numbers to Jason's cell phone again and waited for him to answer, he had been calling every five minutes since his arrival for the past three hours with no luck and now he could admit he was starting to get worried. This wasn't like Jason or Sam to be missing for this long without checking in, he was getting a feeling in the pit of his stomach that once he located them, lives would never be the same.
He hung up after the phone went to voicemail and turned his attention back to the unconscious woman on the couch, "Alexis, come on sweetheart. It's time to open those beautiful brown eyes and tell me to stop hovering over you."
He pulled away saddened when she didn't respond to his calls and gazed towards the top of the stairs where Kristina sat on the top step peering at the two of them with pain in her eyes, he wanted to walk over to his daughter and pull her into his arms and shield her from all of the hurt she was going but he didn't know what to do himself.
He started towards the stairs when Viola came out and touched Kristina lightly on the shoulder, "Come on Kristina. Molly and I want to play a game in your room, but we need you there so we have enough players."
Kristina looked at Sonny who nodded his approval as she took Viola's hand and disappeared back into her room.
Sonny turned his attention back to the sofa when the knock on the door came; he sprinted forward hoping it was news of Jason and Sam.
As he opened the door he felt his stomach drop as he looked at the devastation that was resident in his friend's face, "Jason, what happened?"
Jason pitched forward too full with grief to even respond as he looked at the couch and then back at him in question, "You told her?"
Sonny closed the door behind him as he guided his friend down the stairs and towards the chair and said, "Told her? Told her what? The last words out of her mouth before she passed out was Sam….Where is she?"
The tears in his friend's eyes started rolling down freely as he looked at Sonny and said, "She's dead, Sonny, she's dead."
Sonny felt his knees buckle as he fell against the edge of the couch and said, "She's what? This can't be right what the hell happened Jason?"
Jason stared at the pregnant Alexis and shook his head, "We were having another fight about the baby and Sam started to getting worried that we were going to miss the appointment, I told her that we still had time but she wanted to be early. She took the keys to my car, and said she would drive, I didn't think anything of it but I should've driven, I should've driven….."
His voice trailed off as the tears started rolling freely out of his eyes again as he heard the sounds of the car in his head, the sound of Sam's screams and then the silence. The utter, bleak and dark silence that had enveloped him the moment the paramedics had pulled the white sheet over Sam's face.
"Jason?"
Jason looked back at Sonny who was still waiting on bated breath for further explanation and said, "There was a drunk driver, he didn't even see us. We had the right of way but he ran through the light and hit our car with such force I was thrown back and the airbag deployed, when I came too paramedics were buzzing around me….I yelled for Sam but she didn't answer me."
Sonny bit his lip as he realized that it was true, Sam McCall, the daughter of Alexis Davis was dead. "She didn't answer you?"
Jason nodded as his eyes became transfixed on the woman still sleeping on the couch and said, "I finally found her just as the paramedics were pulling the sheet over her head and calling time of death, I couldn't believe it. I still don't, I expect to go back home and this will have all been a dream, but its not is it Sonny? This isn't a dream?"
Sonny shook his head as he placed a comforting arm on his shoulder and squeezed, hoping to impart his sympathy by his simple touch. It was at that moment that Alexis started stirring and moaning, Sonny jumped up just as Jason walked to the other side of the couch.
Alexis's eyelids started fluttering until she finally groaned once more and opened her eyes slowly, her eyes first met Sonny's which were shielded from her, he was hiding something, something serious. She needed to know what it was, but as she looked into Jason's clear, blue eyes she knew. She knew instinctively what happened.
She struggled to sit up even as the two men began to assist her; she flinched back as she put her head in her hands and shivered even though she wasn't cold.
She looked between the two men who were hovering over her and knew what they were going to say but she didn't want to hear it, because it would make her nightmares a reality then….but she knew, she knew she had to hear the words so she could give proper anger to her grief. She stood up as she walked over to Jason and said, "She's dead isn't she Jason?"
Jason flinched from besides her as he opened his mouth to answer and when the words wouldn't come out, settled for a simple nod.
Alexis moaned in pain as she felt her legs buckle, the tears wouldn't come even though the grief was resident. She didn't have it in her to focus on the realization that her eldest daughter was gone. She couldn't even begin to…
Jason sat down next to her and pulled her in his arms even as she struggled with the need to be comforted, if she allowed herself this one small luxury it would break her, and then the floodgates would open and she wasn't sure she was strong enough to close them.
Sonny sat back as he eyed the two of them, lost in their grief for the woman who had been such an important part of their lives and then looked towards the stairs as he thought about his daughter, his Kristina. The one who loved her big sister unconditionally, blindly and eternally, he didn't know how he was going to be strong enough to break this news to her. The news that her sister was no longer going to be with her.
Alexis pulled back as she looked at him and said, "Mothers aren't supposed to outlive their daughters Jason. That's not supposed to happen. It's not supposed to happen."
Jason flinched at the raw grief that was evident in her voice as he cradled her face in his hands and pressed a kiss to her forehead as he pulled her back into his arms, her tears mingling with his and their grief together comforted by the presence of each other.
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Sonny held Alexis's hand and cradled Kristina in his shoulder while Jason was being held together by Carly and Elizabeth who put aside their animosity to help Jason through his grief. They were united in trying to comfort their loved ones in their grief but it didn't seem to help. Jason and Alexis seemed to gravitate naturally back to each other as they were the only ones who understood what the other one was going through and who had the most connection with the fallen woman and who would miss her presence the most in their lives.
After the service as they arrived back at the house, Jason and Alexis were seated side by side on the sofa as drinks, meats and desserts were constantly shoved under their nose hoping for either one to partake of the food and focus on something else other than their grief but were unfortunate with Alexis at least.
Jason after finally acquiescing and eating a nibble from a plate that Carly had forced into his hand, looked towards Alexis who sat stoically in her black dress with her hand cradling her growing belly even while the dress accentuated her growing stomach, the baby that lay nestled under Alexis's heart that was a part of him and Sam. He looked down as he thought about how excited Sam had been for the birth of their baby and said, "We buried her today Alexis. She's gone from us."
Alexis nodded as she looked towards her daughter who was sitting at the kitchen table swirling her spoon in her father's spaghetti endlessly with no signs of eating. Kristina who hadn't smiled once since hearing the news of her older sister's death and who spent the nights wrapped in Alexis's arms as they both wept out the injustice of having a life snuffed out before it had a chance to begin. 'She's gone and we are expected to still go on, it seems wrong somehow doesn't it?"
Jason was grateful that he was able to hold Alexis in conversation, he had been worried for her since the news of Sam's death as she had fallen into the pattern of issuing one word response to all questions and jerky nods of her head that didn't tell if she was close to losing it or trying to hold it all in. He felt a sigh ease its way out of his body at the effort she was making and said, "You need to eat, I'm sure Sonny is waiting around here with a plate of something for you to eat."
Alexis rolled her eyes as she listened to the concern in his voice, she was appreciative of the gesture but at the moment not really receptive, "Eating won't change the fact that Sam's dead," Alexis looked over and saw Jason flinch and immediately cursed herself for her mouth as she said, "I'm sorry Jason, I know you loved her too…I just don't see how everyone is just supposed to go on, my daughter who was half my age is lying in the ground today….I was born into a family where the life expectancy wasn't greater than 25, 20 if you were lucky and I have survived everything from car crashes to cancer and my daughter isn't here? Some drunken idiot gets to take the life of her and I'm supposed to what? Move on eat and be merry, I can't do that."
Jason reached out to put his hand on her shoulder but stopped, he didn't know how she would react if someone touched her but he knew that she needed to grieve. She had been too quiet, allowing the grief to slowly consume her body and he knew it wasn't good for her or the baby. He pulled her into his arms, "There isn't a why answer for everything Alexis. You should know that better than anyone, all we can do is take the hand that we are dealt and try to make the most of it, the most of it being moving on, one day at a time."
Alexis nodded from her position on his chest and said, "I don't know if I'm strong enough to move on Jason. She was my eldest daughter, the one I didn't get to bond with, I just feel so angry, so cheated and I don't want to believe that this is real. I want to believe that I'm going to look at that front door and she's going to come in, excited with some new thing she bought for the baby."
Alexis pulled back even as she stared at the door and turned to him as her voice dropped, "But she's not going to walk through that door is she Jason? She's never going to walk through that door ever again."
Jason cringed at the pain in her voice but knew he couldn't lie, "No she won't walk through that door ever again Alexis."
Alexis reached for the tissue as she started dabbing at the tears rolling out of her eyes and said, "So what do we do now?"
Jason leaned back and said, "Now, we grieve."
And with those simple yet eloquent words, Alexis finally let herself grieve for the loss of her daughter as soul chilling moan came echoing out of her throat as she fell into Jason's arms with the weight of her grief.
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Two Weeks Later
Alexis had fallen into a daily routine; she found that was the only way to take it one day at a time. She focused on getting up, showering, getting dressed and eating, if she accomplished that before 11 am she considered herself set for the rest of the day. She knew that her body probably needed more but that was all she was able to give at the moment.
She heard the knock on the door and walked over to answer it and instantly regretted when she did, "What do you want Carly?"
Carly entered the house with an air of class which she didn't have and sat down on her couch; Alexis exhaled slowly through her teeth as she slammed the door shut and walked down slowly to the chair in front of the couch and said, "Please come in Carly, have a seat. Can I get you anything to drink? What can I help you with Carly?"
Carly eyed her questioningly and said, "You look like hell."
Alexis refused to flinch as she knew that Carly was just trying to get her to react so she simply lifted an eyebrow in question. Carly sighed disgusted as she reached for her purse and pulled out a triplicate contract of some form, "I need you to sign this, and I have a pen here somewhere."
Alexis snickered under her breath as she patiently waited for the pen before she started reading what she was been demanded to sign and then pause as she started perusing the language of the legal document and threw it down on the table as if it was burning and said, "Did Jason put you up to this? I'm not signing that crap, what game are you playing here Carly?"
Carly reached for the contracts again and laid the pen over them and said, "It's for the best, it's so you don't have a change in mind in regards to the care and raising of Jason and Sam's child because don't forget that just because Sam is dead doesn't change the fact that this child is Jason's as well….All this contract states is that you promise to turn over sole custody of the child once it has been born."
Alexis crossed her arms as she stared her down and said, "And I repeat, Carly, does Jason know about this?"
Carly looked down to avoid meeting her eyes and told Alexis everything she needed to know without speaking, "I'm not signing this, I'm not signing anything until Jason and I have had this conversation. Jason and I are the parents of this child, Carly and don't you forget it."
Carly sneered as her true colors came shining through, "What do you hope to hold on to your daughter's boyfriend through this baby? Nice try Alexis but Jason is smarter than that, he knows what you're capable of and he won't fall for your poor is me act."
Alexis stood up as the rage started running through her body, "Get out, "she punctuated her statement by shoving her finger towards the door and raising her voice again, "My daughter just died, not even three weeks ago and you are here spewing your venom about my child and I won't stand for it, get out of here Carly."
Carly stood up and walked towards Alexis, "Look, I don't mean to be cruel, I know you are upset about losing Sam but I'm just trying to look out for my best friend, Jason. He almost lost his son, Jake for a hysterical female and I'm making sure he doesn't lose another one."
Alexis raised her hand but stepped back as she refused to allow Carly to resort to slapping another person. She felt herself start to tremble in rage even as the knock on the door came. Alexis looked towards the door as she took the stairs and said, "Carly, you better be ready to leave when this person comes in."
Alexis opened the door and saw Jason standing at the threshold of the doorjamb with his son Jake cradled in his arms and Cameron holding his hand. Alexis bit back a retort as she motioned to Carly and said, "Jason, can you please instruct your friend that we don't need her legal advice in regards to custody of this child?"
Jason looked at Alexis in shock even as he entered the house and walked down the steps and looked at the papers that lied on the coffee table, and after scanning the first couple of lines turned to Carly in disgust, "Get out Carly. I never asked you to get in the middle of my personal business; this has nothing to do with you. Any and all decisions regarding this child will be made between Alexis and me so get out now."
Carly flinched at the rage she heard in her best friend's tone and opened her mouth to explain her actions but as she saw the two children already present she knew that if she tried to cause a scene it wouldn't work out for the best. She grabbed her purse and looked at Jason with tears welling in her eyes, "I'm leaving Jason but this isn't over, I know that you are just upset but you'll see that what I was doing was protecting you…I would never do anything to hurt you."
Carly walked past Alexis without speaking and Alexis hmphed as she slammed the door behind her. She leaned against the door and placed a calming hand on her heart hoping to tamper down the anger that was still beating out of her at a high rate; she smiled at the two boys and walked forward intent on not allowing the disturbance of Carly's presence to taint the children's memories of her home.
"Cameron, I've heard so much about you….How are you doing?"
Cameron smiled as he looked at the nice pregnant lady in front of him and said, "My mommy told me that you were carrying my little brother or sister, is that right?"
Jason looked at Alexis and immediately started to apologize for the child's forward question when Alexis grabbed Cameron's hand as she walked over to the couch and sat down and placed his hand on her stomach, "Your mommy's right Cameron, this baby is your new little brother or sister, you and Jake are going to be able to play with him or her all you want but not as much when they are first born okay? They are going to still be kinda small like Jake was one he was first born, you remember that?"
Cameron nodded as he launched forward and kissed her on the cheek and then stepped back as his face filled with a blush, "You're pretty."
Alexis laughed as she smiled at the young child in front of her and said, "Thank you sweetheart, listen I think that Kristina and Molly should be waking up from their nap now, why don't you see if they have any toys you can play with?"
Cameron nodded; happy to be able to be around children his own age disappeared up the stairs quickly leaving the two parents to be alone.
Jason sat down on the couch and maneuvered Jake to his knee as he started bouncing the year old with an apologetic smile, "I want to apologize for Carly but I don't know how many times I'll be doing that in the future so how about we just say she's Carly and call it that?"
Alexis laughed and said, "If she did bring up one good point, is that we do need to decide where we go from here, I mean we've been caught up in our grief and haven't really dealt with this latest development….Sam is gone and now…"
Alexis bit her lower lip at the thought of her daughter's death that was still fresh in her memories rushed through her and she closed her eyes quickly hoping to stave off the oncoming rush of tears. She opened them quickly as she exhaled a deep breath and Jason shook his head in admiration, "How do you do that? I always wanted to know."
Alexis turned her head towards him in confusion, "How do I do what? Breathe? If you ask your best friend Sonny, he will tell you that I don't do that so well."
Jason shook his head, "You can be so caught up in an emotion and are ready to give it your attention but then your close your eyes and it's like you shut all of those emotions down behind a brick wall. I used to think I was able to do that, but I've never been able to perfect the skill like you have."
Alexis sighed and said, "It's not a skill you want, it's something that was forced upon by my environment. Growing up in the Cassadine household taught me that fear can be shown in many ways, weaknesses were preyed upon and vulnerabilities were exploited. In order to survive, you had to hide those fears, weaknesses, and vulnerabilities otherwise you would've been eaten alive. That's where I learned it, you don't want this skill believe me Jason. Sometimes, I envy Carly because she has the ability to have an emotion, feel it and then act upon it, I don't think I will ever be able to do that."
Jason felt a jolt run through him as he realized that she was letting him in, she was letting him into something that she considered sacred, the hell she was subjected to as a child, and he didn't know if he was more honored or terrified. He never wanted to let her down like he knew that Sonny had, he always wanted to see a smile on her face if possible.
He had been so lost in his own thoughts that he hadn't realized he was squeezing his youngest son until the baby starting to howl in discomfort. Alexis's eyes widened as she watched Jason struggle to comfort the infant who was not pleased with his parent.
Jason started rubbing his back, "Jake, I'm sorry guy…Daddy's sorry."
Jake was not easily placated so Alexis rose off the sofa and held out her arms and said, "Give him here Morgan, maybe he just needs a woman's touch."
Jason looked at her in shock but turned Jake her way as she reached for the infant and took him into her arms and said, "Let try to calm some of this down, shall we?" Jake had become entranced, like Jason by the soothing tone of her voice and within moments he was calmed down and rewarding Alexis for her efforts by showing her his gummy smile.
Alexis gasped as she felt the baby give a kick, even as Jason was rising in anxiety, "What is it?"
Alexis reached for his hand without asking for permission as she curved his hand where she had just felt the last kick and he was rewarded by another swift kick coming shortly after that. Alexis looked up and grinned as she said, "That's your baby."
Jason nodded as he took Jake out of Alexis's arms and cradled the infant in his arms and said, "Jake, see that's your new brother or sister."
Alexis smiled and then looked down and said, "Brother or sister huh? So don't want to know the sex is that it?"
Jason shrugged as he sat on the edge of the couch and said, "To tell you the truth, I just want the baby to be healthy, everything else is secondary."
Alexis nodded and said, "What are we going to do Jason? I'm not accustomed to not having a plan, I need to know what's going to happen after this baby is born, what do you want to happen?"
Jason looked at her and knew that he couldn't lie, "I want you to raise this baby Alexis; I want you to instill the same morals, values, respect, and love that you gave Molly and Kristina to my child, to our child, I want this child to know you as its mother."
Alexis felt the tears well in her eyes as she motioned to the papers on the table and said, "And you? Where do you fit into this picture Jason, because this is your child too?"
Jason shrugged and said, "I will be happy with being this baby's father…It's all I want, if I can be a good father to Jake and this baby then I'll be happy."
Alexis smiled and said, "Although I wasn't really expecting to be a mother to another child, I can't lie and say I'm not excited, I feel like this is my second chance to give this child everything I failed to give Sam."
Jason looked down at Jake and then back at her as he opened his heart in honesty, "Do you know that Sam never held Jake? She tried to lie and say that she didn't want to hurt him but I think she really resented his presence, that's what made my mind over about this baby you're carrying…You didn't even hesitate to put Cameron or Jake at ease with your words, that's what I want my child to be raised around. Someone who's capable of doing the best for their child even if its not popular or pleasant."
Alexis sighed as she looked around the house and said, "I hope this doesn't sound too forward of me but if you are going to be the father of this child and since Ric is no longer in the picture, if you want to be closer to your child I wouldn't be adverse to you taking one of the guest rooms here….I know the struggle you made to get out of the mob once you decided to be apart of Jake's life and I don't want you to lose anytime with this child."
Jason looked up at her in shock, he couldn't believe her generosity but said, "Thank you, nothing would make me happier, besides I can keep an eye on you this way."
Alexis rolled her eyes, "What did I just get myself into?"
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