A/N: This is placed in the past from where chapter 3 is which is the present this chapter is just a memory, this is the chapter where Rin dies, and what he thinks in this story after he arrives at True Cross Academy. This is only somewhat like the anime just a lot different in most parts, Rin has a slightly different past than what he does in the anime and if the characters seem out, of well character I am very sorry. This is my 7th idea for a story I have so far 3 stories for Death Note 3 for Black Butler and of course 1 of Blue Exorcist. I may not publish one story of Black Butler since I have an idea of it but not a storyline for it, that story is my fourth idea by the way. I might add stories in different order than when I think of them because I don't know how to start them so again sorry if that happens it might happen very often.

I have the book for the Demonic Flora as one of my stories and they also have the pictures of them as the cover picture so you don't have to guess what they look like.

My ideas for stories are in this order 1) Family Nightmares 2) Twins Envy 3) Ryuzakis' Guilty Shinigami 4) Blood Gem Curse 5) Double the Reason, Double the Fear 6) Higher Ups, Team Up 7) Demon But Human 8) Multifarious Demon 9) ninth story idea (I don't know what to name it actually) 10) Fates Hand Has Been Dealt, is it a Mistake or Reality


Chapter one: Realization

I just found out I'm a demon. I guess I always knew from what I couldn't remember, but I hoped I wasn't I knew deep down that I was, but I didn't want to believe it, never wanted to believe it. "Excuse me Rin, you have cram school most of this week, follow me please" I heard my legal guardian say from his dog form "ok that makes things a lot easier, thank you" I said as I followed him, he led me to a double door and gave me a key to try and open the door with so I did and it opened. "This place is so big, is this the cram school?" I asked him as we walked through the halls to a door that was quite possibly my cram school classroom "yes this is the cram school, I give that key in your hand to the people here who are the teachers/exorcists in this specific school, now if you don't want to be late to class open the door" he said answering my question also telling me that I can open it without the key since all the students are already in there. I did as he said and walked in as I did I felt the fear roll over me as I looked at the cram school students that are now my classmates, they may have been looking at me strangely but that was not at all the reason I was scared of them. I was scared of them for a different reason than they would be of me.

"Hello class my name is Yukio Okumura, I'm an exorcist, a student, and your teacher for this class" my brother said shocking me because of what he said (the rest follows the anime until) "what just happened?" I asked my brother when hobgoblins started appearing from within the walls "you really are an idiot, there mad because you made me knock over the blood that they are wanting very badly, why are you even here?" I heard my brother ask making me freeze where I stood. "Is it to avenge father's death or redemption for yourself? if either it would be better to kill yourself" my brother said making me slightly angry with what he asked "none of what you said is true if you weren't so blind you would know my ulterior motive other than the reasons I'm about to tell you are, which by way the reason I want to become an exorcist is for dad and to protect people other than watch them die" I said as I unsheathed Kurikara to protect my brother.

I saw my brother flinch when I lunged towards him "don't be cruel brother, I would never hurt my own blood even back then" I said after I sliced the hobgoblin that was trying to hurt my brother. I sheathed my sword and headed to open the door for my classmates so they would know that it was safe to come in, "what happened in here they all asked in unison "just a fight no big deal" I said with a shrug as I stepped aside to let them in "it seems so" I heard Shima I think his name is say from behind who seems like his friend I think his name was Suguro. 'Must be nice to have friends' I thought as I headed to sit down in my seat again. Every day I was scared of the kids in my class, but I never showed it, I paid attention in class and worked as well so I could please my brother even though he would be better off if I died, oh well at least he would be happy I joined I don't have much skill other than cooking, and I was quite correct since I still got bad grades. I made a few friends in class I was very, very happy about that and on the plus side I forgot why I was scared of them in the first place. Towards the end of the year Yukio had a camping trip planned for us to sharpen our skills as a team, though I was the only one other than Shura, my sword fighting instructor, that even knew that part of my brothers lesson.

(Continues like anime until) "Why do you always do that? Your brother and friends worry about you so stop being so reckless it'll get you kill someday!" I heard Suguro yell at me after he got me away from the protector of this forest, a giant moth demon, "we're friends?" I asked very confused at what he just said "of course stupid" I heard him say as he slapped me upside the head. 'If what he said is true that we're friends than I really don't want to lose them as friends, this is the first time since I was very young that I was actually happy, I finally have friends. They'll change when they find out what I am though' I thought sadly as I carried the lantern demon back to camp "you guys are done already? I thought at least one of you would've shot your flare gun for help" I heard Shura say before she downed a can of beer so she could grab another one out of her icebox. "I'm not that useless Shura" I said before I heard snickering coming from behind me "oh be quiet you three" I said to make them be quiet to which they complied probably much to their displeasure of course.

"Hey you, come here for a bit I need you for something, yes you little girl who else would I be talking about?" I heard a strange but familiar voice coming from behind us after I saw Shura bound up with a start and start to splash holy water on everyone but me which I was thankful for, if not more comforting the holy water activated the protective circle around us. I turned to who the voice was coming from and not to my surprise at all I saw Amaimon but what did surprise me was Sheimi walking right up to him "Sheimi what are you doing? Get away from him" I yelled to try to get her attention but got Amaimons instead "oh sorry but she cannot at all hear you at the moment, but I can if you want your darling friend back you're gonna have to come get her Rin" Amaimon said shaking her slightly as if to gesture that her safety would be my prize, her safety is a prize but so would everyone else's. "Hey don't just stand there here!" I heard Shura yell before I caught the Kurikara she threw at me, when I caught it I ran into the forest and saw that Shura was busy with Amaimons pet.

"Let her go!" I yelled to Amaimon as I chased him through the forest to a rather large opening forgetting that Suguro and the others hate when I play hero and normally run after me for it, I remembered that when I saw a flare from a flare gun fly past my vision blocking my view of Amaimon and Sheimi for a moment. I turned my head to where the flare came from and saw another flare from Konekomaru that he accidently set up, stupid why did they follow me I know it's stupid for a human to head into battle with a Gehenna king but still. The flare that Konekomaru lit went straight for Amaimons head which made the top of his head look like a piece of broccoli which Shima so idiotically pointed out while he was laughing, the next thing I knew Shima was side kicked into a tree, Amaimon broke Konekomarus arm and he had Suguro by the throat. "You were laughing at me to weren't ya?" I heard Amaimon ask him as if he thought he misheard what Suguro said "so what I wanted to help that idiot over there as well as Sheimi who you took for no reason" I heard Suguro growl through his teeth.

"You guys are idiots there's a reason I don't fight in front of you why did you have to do such a stupid thing?" I asked yelling it loud enough to get their attention "we're idiots you're the one that always runs into trouble without thinking you never think" I heard Suguro answer "I do think, and since you're in trouble I'm saying sorry and hope that you'll forgive me and keep your promises of staying by me no matter what" I said as I started to unsheathe Kurikara to unleash my full powers on Amaimon. "If you want me come and get me you idiot!" I yelled as I unsheathed my sword "goody it's time to play" Amaimon said as the others stared at me with shock "than come at me, no one harms my friends, I never forgive them when they do" I yelled as Amaimon started to lunge at me (the fight is the same as the anime, I'm bad at fights and arguments just read chapter one of Twins Envy and you'll know what I mean, plus I don't like breaking rules or laws such as plagiarism) as I lost control outside the forest I heard the Paladins voice saying to bring me to the Grigori for questioning, ah shoot I'm dead, oh well better than being ignored again especially by my new friends.

Yukios' POV

"What the Gehenna just happened teach?" I heard Suguro ask me as I held Rins' Kurikara in my hands "the Grigori are going to be deciding Rins' and Mephistos punishment" I said looking at the Kurikara in my hands "what was with those flames? And with Rin?" I heard Sheimi ask from beside me "he's most likely gonna be executed for being the son of Satan" I said knowing that would answer her question. "Why is he gonna be executed for something he can't control? And how could you sit here and let that happen? Do you at all care what happens to Rin?" I heard her ask "of course I care bout what happens to my brother, he had a hard enough life even before he found out bout being Satan's son" I said a frown forming on my face as I said the words. "If your brother is the son of Satan aren't you his son too?" I heard Suguro ask from the other side of Konekomarus hospital bed "yes I am but I was too weak to be able to gain Satans blue flames" I said as I placed Kurikara on the bed behind me "that explains why I've been so scared of Rin since he came to school" I heard Konekomaru say before Suguro said "that also explains how a dimwit could get into this school because he's the son of Satan a monster to be used as a weapon"

Are they even remembering the promise they made to my brother or did they just forget it because he showed them that isn't fully human but demon as well, wait he said monster did he forget he's also human "you guys are idiots, he's not his father he's Rin he saved us many times, did you forget our promises?" I heard Kamiki ask which surprised me to say the least she never showed any emotions except anger and irritation with others except Paku. "We made that promise to Rin not to Satans son, are you an idiot" Konekomaru said making me flinch that he said that when they did make that promise to the son of Satan did they just forget that because my brother and the others kept it a secret from them? (In this Rin defeated Amaimon without his sword and in the fight it also didn't break either) A month after Rin returned from the hearing.

Rins' POV

I was freed from the Grigori on the condition that I would be able to become an exorcist and not executed until I pass the exorcist exam in six months, if I lose control before then, or if I give up on living, the last one will probably happen first since when I walked into my cram school class everyone started to avoid me and whisper when they thought I couldn't hear them. "Why is the son of Satan even training to become an exorcist if his father is a demon and he is as well?" I heard Shima whisper to Suguro and Konekomaru "I don't know but the thing I don't know is why he would have the idiotic dream of beating his father when he's one of the demons we should exorcise?" I heard Konekomaru answer with his own question, "maybe he just wants to make fun of you Bon" I heard Shima answer seeming to have started to direct his attention to Suguro who has the same dream I do "probably so it's not like he would have another reason to claim that other than to do just that" I heard Suguro answer back breaking me at what he proclaimed without asking me the reason for it. I stood up seeming to scare everyone at the force I didn't mean to use as the chair slammed into the desk behind me with a loud bang, I flinched when I saw their reactions "may I ask why you just don't ask me instead of talking behind my back, I would gladly tell you why even if-" I was cut off by Suguro throwing something at me.

"Why would we believe a word that you would ever say you're a demon nothing more than I lying demon who loves to twist people's emotions to get what you want" I heard him yell as Yukio entered the room, "Rin why aren't you sitting down in your seat? Sit down so I can start my lesson" I heard my brother say as he set his stuff down on his desk "sorry Yukio but I'm leaving start without me" I said as I left the room to head to my empty dorm "oh no you don't you're going to stay here and learn" I heard Yukio say as he grabbed my arm to pull me back into the classroom he stopped trying to pull my arm when he seemed to notice the tears falling down my face "let go Yukio" I said keeping my voice calm but it didn't sound calm since I slightly choked it out. When he let go I walked down the hall and started looking around to see if anyone was around and when I noticed no one was around I ran as fast as I could to my dorm but stopped in the woods that led to my dorm when I saw what seems a lot like a Gehenna hound on the pavemented walkway. "What do you want to be burned back to Gehenna you stupid dog? What do you want?" I asked the dog who stopped to look at me with what seems like a confused glare "you seem so broken in heart and soul my young prince, you seem to be more human than demon now did you know that?" I heard the demon dog ask which made me freeze in place "what are you talking about I'm human not demon" I said my voice sounding very strange even to my own ears "you're even sounding more like a demon, you should go to your father's side, he can make you forget your pain" I heard him say as he stepped closer I didn't even make a move to step back I just stayed where I was.

"And how could he make me forget my pain?" I asked the Gehenna hound 'am I really giving this some thought I mean seriously I know I'm broken but still why?' I thought as I stared at the demon dog "you could become full demon instead of half demon, you could forget everything your 'friends' have done to you because you wouldn't have any memories of them, my young prince" I heard him say making me wish I knew fully how I could become fully demon just to forget what my friends did to me, I never forgot their promise to me that night but they did, how could I ever think they would still be my friends after they found out, I never changed when they found out I never even showed my demon side around them I just stayed me and they forgot their promise. "How would I become full demon? I'd rather forget than live in solitary again" I asked the demon not caring anymore I'm tired of listening to silence and comments, and name calling I thought died a long time ago

"you'd have to be executed by the Grigori to become full demon my prince as well as entering the door of demon instead of heaven, if you enter the door of heaven you'll become an angel with every memory you ever had of being called a demon and every memory since then, it's more a Gehenna than Gehenna itself for half demons" the demon hound said making me want to open the door right now instead of when I die "though the one thing I don't know, my prince is how you're gonna contact the Grigori to get to the execution if you choose that route instead of talking to everyone like a human would" the demon hound said making me smirk a little "how else, I'm going to contact my brother to ask the Grigori for such a task, he would love to see such a sight it would be like a movie for him" I said in response to what the demon hound said.

After Rins talk with the demon hound he headed to his brothers office to ask the question he discussed with the hound, "oh baby brother why are you here? Are you wanting to hang out with me? I'm very sorry but I'm a bit busy at the moment I was about to head to a hearing with the Grigori so you're going to have to wait a bit to talk to me" Mephisto said as he was grabbing his fluffy pink umbrella. "Actually brother that's what I came here to talk to you about" I said as I fully entered his office "oh really what do you want to talk to me about before I head there?" he asked me sitting back down in his chair "I was wondering if you could ask them to have me executed" I said looking down slightly as I said it. "Wha-what? Why?" he asked seeming to stammer at his words rather than just ask it without any emotion "because I don't want to see more people scared of me or to remember what happened in my past that they reminded me of, either way when I get executed I get a choice and I'm going to make the one where I become full demon instead of reliving my life in heaven" I said looking at my brother who has a shocked expression on his face. "I don't want the others to know what I chose until two years after it happens though since my brother would probably notice by then, but if Shura notices before then tell her and if she doesn't remember show her" I said still looking at a shocked Mephisto "ok then what do you want me to tell the Vatican about your reasons then?" he asked me "tell them anything that they'll believe except about what I said my reasons are, and tell them not to tell my brother or anyone else outside the Grigori, make sure Shura isn't there when any of it goes down, and make sure I don't have a funeral" I said to answer his question.

"Okay brother I'll tell them your decision, I'd stay out of sight until then so you can stay here until they come to get you for your execution, either that or you can stay on the roof of your dormitory till then, your choice I won't make the choice for you though" my brother said as he stood up and put a hand on my shoulder in what seems like understanding gesture. Than he disappeared in a cloud of light pink smoke, I decided to head back to my dorm and wait for the Paladin that I knew was coming to pick me up for my execution, "Rin what are you doing up here?" I heard my familiar Kuro ask me from the door that leads inside the dormitory "nothing Kuro just waiting for Angel to pick me up, nothing to worry about" I said knowing full well he knows what I mean and that it was probably a mistake to tell him that. "Why Rin I thought you were going to wait for six months until your execution or at least pass it before you were to get executed?" Kuro said with what seems like crocodile tears forming in his eyes "Kuro I'm not gonna actually die, I chose to do the execution to protect my friends because I still remember the promise they made me a month ago, a Gehenna hound visited me today and said I could forget all of my past failures and living nightmares if I choose to be full demon when I get executed by the Grigori" I said knowing that won't make him stop crying.

"So you won't die fully just your human side will?" Kuro asked me while trying to dry his eyes it seems "yes Kuro, I would never leave everyone so easily that would be way too hard on me, my brother, and yourself" I said as I picked up Kuro and helped him dry his tears as he curled into my shirt from on top of my lap. "So please stop crying I don't want my last memory of seeing you as half human to be of you crying that I just couldn't bare" I said making Kuro look up at me from his curled position on my lap "ok Rin but I don't want to see you die that's way too hard on me to know another master died" Kuro said to me making me remember who the old man died trying to protect "yes and I'm sorry about your old master it's my fault he died in the first place" I said letting a tear fall as I hugged Kuro. "It's not your fault Rin, he would've done the same for Yukio and others as well" I heard him say as he licked my face once with his small sandpaper tongue "I know but I won't be fully dead just my human side will be, and I'm pretty sure you could visit me in Gehenna at any time don't you think? And you could also become Yukios' familiar as well to remind you of me and Shiro" I said seeming to remind him that I'm not fully gonna die.

"Rin Okumura it's time for your execution, we agreed to what you asked of Mr. Pheles, we won't tell anyone of what is going to happen to you and we won't give you a funeral or have Mrs. Shura present for either so let's go have you said good bye to your familiar yet?" I head a stern voice say from behind me "will you actually allow me to Mr. Angel?" I asked him as I felt Kuros' nails dig into my skin "of course we're not that cruel to a familiar that already lost a master" he said scuffing at me. "Goodbye Kuro remember what I told you okay" I said as I hugged my only friend for the last time for a while anyway "Don't go I know I'll see you soon but I don't want you to go just yet" Kuro said balling a bit as he said the words "I know Kuro but I have to go I will always remember you and love you as well don't ever forget that ok" I said as I set my familiar and friend down on the roof top of the dormitory. "Are you done yet?" I heard Angel ask from behind me "yes I am, now how will I get to where I'm going to be executed?" I asked knowing my voice sounds eerily calm for someone who is about to be killed "why are you so calm demon I mean seriously you're about to be executed for Pete's sake" Angel said putting his hands on his head in the gesture of wanting to pull his hair out, "if you want me to complain you should've given a better statement to the Grigori when my brother was on trial the day I lost control, rather than beat yourself up here and now" I said giving him a slight glare in the process.

"Fine you're right I should've but I didn't since they already made up their minds now here" he said giving me a key with the word Grigori the Vatican on the handle of the key "okay so I'm guessing it works like a regular key here and it leads me to the Vatican headquarters or a Vatican cell for me to stay in as you decide how I'm going to be killed" I said and he seemed very surprised at what I said "how are you so smart you could've passed the exorcist exam on the first try if you just kept being that smart" he said proving my point. "Because I gave up I don't want my brother to have nothing while I have brain and brawn, that's just a cruel thing to do to him" I said as I inserted the key into the door that leads into the dormitory and opened it when it turned in the lock to unlock the door. I stepped inside to be greeted by a white and creamed colored room with a torture wheel and a table with a bunch of knives, I laughed softly and said 'this is how I'm gonna die just great what I wonderful way for a demon to die, on a torture wheel with wholly water soaked knives' I laughed softly again as an exorcist that was most likely gonna start the torture led me to the wheel and strapped my limbs on it so I was hanging a few inches off the ground.

It wasn't exactly good torture but it didn't hurt much either, I was spinning so I barely felt the knives as they were hitting my chest, arms, and legs sometimes my waist or near my head I felt a lot of blood rolling down my body and I stopped spinning once Angel decided it wasn't as fun as he thought it was to see me tortured and decided to just chop my head off instead. "This is getting boring let's just kill you and get it over with" I remember him saying just before he actually killed me "when I died and saw the doors I stopped right in my tracks forgetting that my father had died as well as my mother I saw them next to the gate that leads to heaven 'what do I choose now that stupid Gehenna hound said nothing about my family members seeing me choose a gate, what do I do?'


A/N: what will Rin do? will he choose the door leading to an afterlife with the mother he never knew and his father that he feels guilty for what happened because of him? or will he choose the door that he said he would with the plan he had told a few demons about? if anyone actually reads this answer what you think in comments before reading chapter three if I'm even able to put it up yet. thank you to anyone that actually reads this.