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Hello! This is my first SM fic so please don't be too hard on me =P. I was wondering what it would be like to see a much darker side to Sailor Moon and how this would affect not only her but those around her. She is very OOC but I wanted it that way. She seems to be having a sort of identity crisis. Other than the changes in Serena, I have taken another couple of creative liberties. I don't really want to point them out (although they are pretty apparent) as I find that overanalysing takes away from the fic. Of course, feel free to Just go along with it and enjoy!

Also, I decided to use all the Japanese names except for Serena. I've always preferred Serena over Usagi.

Thanks!!

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"Sailor Moon, Sailor Mercury!", the Senshi screamed in unison.

To me, their shouts sounded as if they were muffled by a thick wall of glass. The latest youma du jour was vastly more powerful than any others we had faced so far. It moved like the wind and threw blasts of energy which seemed as if they could melt diamonds. I looked to a spot about fifteen feet away from me where Sailor Mercury's body lay inert. Judging by her scorched uniform, she had obviously pushed me out of the way and taken the blow herself. I reached for the back of my head with a shaking hand. Blood. My vision blurred and my head whirled as I took in that metallic scent that never failed to make me sick to my stomach.

I heard more screams, Jupiter, Venus and Mars had just been taken out by the youma. It was up to me now. As I stood up, I heard a small voice at the back of my head, the same one that had been there since I had become a Senshi.

' What have I done to deserve this?'

The youma hurled another ball of energy towards me. I couldn't bring myself to get out of the way. Maybe I wanted it all to end.

The energy never made contact with me. Like clockwork, a beautiful red rose had stopped it.

'The last of my savours', I thought bitterly. Because yes , I had become bitter. Very bitter.

"Do something Sailor Moon! You must fight this youma with everything you've got! I believe in you!", Tuxedo Kamen yelled at me from the top of a tree.

"Oh well that makes everything alright , now doesn't it?", if he could have heard me he no doubt would have flinched at the sarcasm spilling from my mouth.

I looked the youma dead in the eye. I hated this thing. I hated it for what it had done to my friends. I hated it for what it was trying to do to my planet. I hated it for what it was making me do.

I could feel my hate for it rolling off my body in waves. I concentrated these feelings into the silver crystal. It started pulsing and grew hotter with each pulse. The heat blistered my hands as it shot out towards the youma.

It never stood a chance.

I let my eyes trail from fallen scout to fallen scout. Some of them were already starting to stir, they'd be fine. Accelerated healing had its many benefits. In the minutes it had taken me to defeat the youma, their massive burns had faded away into tiny blisters.

I let out a breath I hadn't realised I was holding, thankful that they were alright. Regardless of how I felt about being a Sailor warrior, I still loved these girls wholeheartedly.

I felt weak and I knew I had to get out of the battle site. With a quick leap towards the sky, I was soon hurdling over rooftops.

That was when I blacked out.

'Guess I should have walked...'

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It was dark. Pitch black. It was as if I were floating. I hadn't felt this calm since...Before she took me over.

I could feel something, no, someone, trying to pull me out of this blissful state of nothingness. The stronger they pulled the more everything hurt.

I tried to resist. I really did. I gave it everything I had.

This someone was persistent, very persistent. It even felt as if this someone had convinced my subconscious to betray me, as it seemed as if it were pushing me out with just as much force as someone was pulling.

The intense pain I had been trying to escape came over me full throttle. I know I opened my mouth, but I wondered if my intended scream ever did come out. I clutched at whatever was supporting my weight. I grabbed something thin and soft, something I recognized as being a bed sheet. I remember being mildly surprised. I had expected the cold, hard surface of a roof.

When I felt I could better manage the pain, I cracked open one eye, then the other.

I looked to my left; a nightstand devoid of any belongings whatsoever, a door which lead to god knew where, a painting from an artist I should of recognized but didn't.

I slowly craned my neck to the right; a large patio door which could be seen through gossamer curtains, beyond the door was a small balcony.

'I'm in a bedroom.', I thought to myself. Serena Tsuniko would have panicked. Thank goodness I'm not her anymore.

I looked up to find myself face to face with that domino mask which, through time, had become entirely familiar and all the while shrouded in mystery. Tuxedo Kamen, my personal walking contradiction.

He stared. I had no idea how long he had been doing so. Nor did I really want to find out.

Through my agony, I managed to pick myself up from off the bed.

He stared.

I started walking towards the patio door.

He stared.

I spoke, "I realise that you saved me tonight and for that I am grateful. Now if you'll excuse me-"

He cut me off right as I was sliding the door open.

"Wait!"

I turned to face him and arched one perfect eyebrow.

"Sailor Moon..I..What did..? How..?", he paused his stuttering and stared at me for another minute, searching for the words he needed to say, "I've never seen such power. Who are you?"

If anyone could of seen through my mask, they would of seen the gleam of unshed tears.

"Who am I, you ask? I wish I knew. I never asked for this power. It was simply thrust upon me. Destiny they told me. I call it condemnation. I am condemned. I've been sentenced to a life filled with sorrow and sacrifice."

He furrowed his brow, "I never knew."

I felt a sad smile tug at the corners of my lips, "No. You wouldn't."

I watched as he came closer. Suddenly his hand was over mine. It wasn't unpleasant.

Just then I realised something, "Don't you care?"

He looked at me, confusion marking his attractive features, "About?"

I bit my lip, "Now I know where you live."

He smiled, something I seldom saw him do, "Maybe I don't care. Maybe I trust you.", he moved his piercing gaze from our intertwined hands to my eyes, "What would you say if I revealed my true identity to you?"

"I'd call you a fool!", I snapped at him and dropped his hand as if it had turned to flame.

"Really? I'm a fool for trusting you? Trusting a girl in whom the entire city of Tokyo trusts to keep them safe?", I watched as his body seemed to glow with all the colors of a perfect sunset and realised he had already made up his mind.

I was prepared to be burdened with this new piece of information. I was not prepared to see Mamoru Chiba standing before me.

I kept my face impassive as he looked at me expectantly. Expecting a reaction when I had none to give. I had to stay neutral, it was the only thing that kept me sane these days.

'If this is sane, then maybe I should welcome insanity'

I offered him a small smile, knowing that I needed to acknowledge that this had been more difficult than he had let on. I knew little of him, but I could tell he did not normally let people in.

I walked over to my exit point, "I don't know who I am either.", I heard him say.

Before running off into the night, I turned to him with my lips curved upwards, "I do."

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By the time I got home, I was certain of two things; the Senshi were not to know of where I had gone nor Tuxedo Kamen's identity.

'Mamoru'

Our last run in, quite literally, had been a little over a month ago. He had been a part of Serena's life, not mine.

The Moon Princess Serenity did not have time for such trivial things as petty arguments between teenagers or arcades. I had youmas to fight , a Dark Kingdom to take down...

'...friends to put in danger, people to disappoint.'

Before my identity as Serenity had been revealed, I had always clung to the hope that Luna had made a giant mistake. That I was not meant to be Sailor Moon.

As Rei had pointed out many times, I was far from being qualified for the position.

Then came the day when we had finally reunited all the Rainbow Crystals. The fact that the silver crystal only responded to me had been indisputable proof. Not only was I indeed Sailor Moon but I was also the beloved princess we had been searching for.

Although every other member of our close-knit group had rejoiced at this discovery, it had only brought one thing to my mind.

Serena Tsuniko was never supposed to have existed. I had spent my entire 16 years living a lie.

Ever since then Serenity had taken me over completely. Serena let her. Serenity was everything she wasn't ; intelligent, graceful, powerful.

'Serena was everything I'm not; carefree ,honest, kind'

I knew I hadn't always been like this. Back on the Moon Kingdom I had been a perfect combination of Serena and myself. Yet something had made me into this. The memories were all so foggy. I knew I was missing something obvious. Something I needed, that I couldn't live without.

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Well that's the first chapter! I'm currently writing the next one in Mamoru's point of view. Please review to let me know what you think and/or to point out any spelling mistakes I may have missed (there is bound to be a few!).