I was dreading going to school, but I didn't want to see my mother either, I was so angry at her for ringing up Miles' mother, she had no right. I was at school early but the janitor let me in. I automatically went to the music room and started playing my cello, it seemed like the only way to make everything go away, my fears and feelings, not to mention the constant nightmares that I had been experiencing. As I played I couldn't help think of the last time I was playing, when Miles' busted into my house and started yelling at me, I continued to play, eyes closed as the tears were running down my face, why doesn't he understand, that I'm only worried about him, I don't have the feelings I used to anymore, I just know that something is up with him. Then I remember after he left, Zig walked in and made the hurt go away, his warm embrace and comforting words always made everything ok. I stopped and opened my eyes, I heard clapping and turned my head to see a figure in the door way…
0⃝0
I heard the front door shut quietly, I got out of bed only to see Maya with her backpack and cello case walking away from the house. I quickly checked the time thinking I was late, only to find out I had two hours before I even needed to be a school. I quickly changed and got my breakfast to go, hoping I could catch up to Maya, her cello case makes her walk slower than usual. I reached the front steps of Degrassi only to find no Maya in sight, I checked the door which was surprisingly open at such early hours, only to find the janitor mopping the floor with headphones on, luckily I could get where I think I needed to go without being seen, as I was approaching I heard the start of a sad melody, I stopped in the doorway as soon as I saw her, a smirk came to my face, then I saw tears streaming down her face as the notes went deeper, sharper, shorter. Then the melody became soft again, gentle and warm. Then as it came to an end I could help but clap, the smirk still on my face.
0⃝0
"Zig, what are you doing here?" I said as I rested my cello on the chair beside me, wipeing the tears from my cheeks.
"Well, I heard you leave the house, so I just thought I'd make sure that you're ok" I knew she wasn't ok, that's why I followed her, I was afraid of what she might do.
"I'm fine I just needed more time to practice, yesterday I got interrupted and..." I sigh and fiddle with my hands.
"Well I don't think you need any more practice that was amazing" I stepped forward, know leaning against the teacher's desk, knowing not to get to close.
I looked up from my hands, Zig had his arms crossed, "Thanks" I replied in a mouse like voice
"I mean I'm no expert …" I didn't meet her eyes, I thought maybe I made a mistake, she wanted to be alone right now and I just barged in here like the doofus I am.
"No, thank you Zig, I guess I'm just nervous… I didn't want to face my mum this morning and I thought practising would be a good enough excuse for her."
"What are you nervous about?" I said, looking at her this time, her gaze was fixed on her hands, she was fiddling with them like she normally does when she's anxious or nervous, I thought it was cute.
"Today, I mean the thought of seeing Miles and that disgusted look on his face, he thinks I'm some love sick puppy trying to get his attention, I just know him better, I wasn't saying that stuff to my mum to get him in trouble I was just so worried about him, I wasn't saying he was going to hurt himself, I just…" I took a deep breath trying to calm myself down "I just know that he is not okay, I've tried to get him to talk to someone but he just keeps blowing off what I'm saying, But it doesn't have anything to do with feelings, I don't feel that way about him, the Miles he is, isn't the one I loved, he's changed but that doesn't change the fact that I was once he's friend." I was crying again, I hated it, I made myself stop before I looked up at zig.
"Well your right" he said as he uncrossed his as and pushed himself away from the desk.
"I am?" I said surprised that he didn't say something snarky
"Yer, but you should just try to not worry about him Maya, whatever problems he is facing are his own, and if he said he's fine then I guess you just have accept it, even if you know he's lying"
He was now standing halfway between the teacher's desk and the first step that was the first row of seats, I was sitting as the end of the second row, so he was still pretty far away.
"You think I should just give up?"
He stayed silent, which gave me my answer
I was angry once again, as I stood from my chair, my hands balled into fists "What if I gave up on you Zig? Huh? Where would you be? And..." I stopped a lump developed in my throat "and what if I didn't accept that Cam was fine when he told me, he might still be here" I dropped to my set once again, I couldn't stop the tears this time, they came rushing out. I felt warm arms around me, I turned my head, Zig was hugging me.
"I can't make that mistake again Zig." I said as I turned into his hug, and hugged him back.
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