Looking for Info on beta reading and a beta reader for this fic please PM or review if you have info or are interessed. Disclamer; Very Sadly i don't own NCIS is i did Ziva for example would not have stayed behind and would be in love with Gibbs as that is my favorite pairing followed by Tiva but i am not postive what paring this fic will be leaning towards Zibbs.

Deadly Silence.

Lots of things are considered to be deadly. The obvious things like Guns, Knifes and bombs things that she had used and killed with but that never killed her. Others are less obvious like cars, electricity and water again things she had used to kill with but they had certainly not eradicated her. Now silence would kill her, slowly and painfully, the one thing that is never considered deadly.

Pain, in every inch of her blood covered, bruised body. But pain has lost all meaning, now that pain is all she can remember, it wraps around her smothering her. That and one word it repeats itself in her mind never deteriorating keeping her sane to a point, "Silence" ..."Silence"... "Silence." Ziva knew from her training that getting captured equals death, helping them equals a traitor's life, telling them what they want to know equals a quick and less painful death. Silence however equals a slow agonizing death and yet she says nothing, listening to that repeating word doing as it says.

Taunting is the next tactic used to get her to break the silence after pain does not work. Words spoken in deep, scratched voices which throw her damaged mind into the abyss of pain, they speak about how weak and pitiful she is her mind answers with that word, "Silence". Men with dark eyes leading to dark souls speak with quiet, dangerous voices saying that the people she protects are bad, evil people, twisting everything she knows. Her mind reacts more to this, she wants to scream that they are wrong but she does not, "Silence" repeats louder and their images pass though her mind, this is one of the few times she allows her self to think about them. His face passes in front of her closed eyes, his anger and pain that she of all people betrayed him after he had helped her so many times. His face strengths her silence but weakens her own belief in herself, why does she even deserve to live? She has killed so many people, family even. She betrayed those who loved her. She is a traitor to a cause she once believed without question, Mossad. She has no one to grieve for her, she even begins to doubt that people will even bother to retrieve her body for she knows they will not retrieve her alive and she begins to think that it is for the best.