A/N: I think I might make this a short-series? I think I might have a loosely connected chapter related to this? I think I want to see these two sugar buns angst? What do you all think?
Disclaimer: I own nothing except my OCs. Everything else belongs to Yoshihiro Togashi-sensei.
Enjoy~
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If Not, Then Always
Ch. 1: Silence
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Gon calls out to silence and pretends that someone is there to respond..
His eyes open, his head surveys the hospital beds of bloody things and broken people, and his best friend is nowhere to be found.
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Killua looks white-washed and weary against his colored hands.
He tries to speak, tries to say his name. Gon, he whispers, bones grinding against his hands. They fall under the pressure of his still-warm body and ocean-blue eyes - the ones that shine like the sunrise but Killua'snotokayanymore. Gon doesn't know what to do. Hey - Killua, tell me what to do. You're supposed to know.
He's never questioned this. Out of the two of them, Killua is the most well put together, wiry limbs and mind organized in a patchwork of efficiency. The one with the back-up plans, the doubts and the unwavering belief in him. But now Killua is bleeding. Killua's hurt. Gon got them into this. Killua's suddenly not -
Gon breathes.
They don't have a back-up plan for this.
In the end, Killua smiles as he closes his eyes, and Gon lets him. He has to let him. Their bodies are stuck together in the middle of inked-out backgrounds and corpses, blood following the pathways of skin-toned veins and tear trails. Something swallows him whole.
Gon calls out to silence when his best friend stops breathing and pretends that someone is there to respond.
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The waves of wrinkled hands and kind eyes of Whale Island welcome him home.
Gon's eyes instinctively search the crowd for sapphires and pale skin. Before his mind catches up with his body and tears him away from that thought, Aunt Mito is there and Aunt Mito wraps her arms around his small small body and Aunt Mito whispers welcome back.
Later, Gon will cry into her lap and tell her about the boy with sapphire eyes and how it was always always always his fault.
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A/N: Found this child buried in my notes and decided it was good enough to publish. If you like angst and want to see more of my HxH fics, I have a oneshot series called Build Me A Tower and Never Let It Fall (I take prompt requests regarding the hxh cast), and an OC story called Cacophony.
*Inches closer to you* Ah, I also have a tumblr for my fanfiction: pandaffmusume. *runs away*
Anyways, I hope you all liked this fic! If you have any comments on it give a review or even send me a PM ;)
Til next time~
