I saved every letter you wrote me

From the moment I read them

I knew you were mine

You said you were mine

You couldn't be mine

You remember what you said to me

That night you first made me feel alive?

You said,

"You have stolen my heart, my love."

I swore I'd do what I could to survive.

With each correspondance, your words left me senseless

Your sentences left me defenseless

You built me palaces out of paragraphs

You built a dream world

I long to re-read what you wrote me

I lie in a pool of my own blood

The fault is all mine

Now I can't rewind

Dear god, I was blind,

Now my world seems to

Blur

Blur

My father took time, but he wrote you

Dear god, I wish I could've wrote you how

I thought of you

The minutes I died,

The seconds I died

Do you know what I would've said

Had I had the chance to say goodbye?

I'd say

"There was no one else, my love,

No one else (but those so to survive)."

God, Your words, had I some of your eloquence...

In sentences, you wrote of passion

You, never paranoid of any backlash

I should have told you...

You, you, you…

I'll soon be erased from the narrative

To future historians, I'll be a few mentioned lines, "too soon for him to die", so here's my goodbye

Promise me you won't cry?

I watch the world

Blur

Watching it blur

You have all the right to my heart

You take up all space in my head

Who cares if they know what I meant?

Remember the memories

Forget all the times that I might have denied you

You fill up the holes in my heart

In you, I am no longer dead

Please don't trap yourself in your head

With only the memories

Of when you were mine

Don't let it all blur