Disclaimer: The usually boring citations… (Pecker wrote that, anyway you know the drill)
Mild slash in later chaps, Don't like it don't read it.
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(When this began)
I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
(I was confused)
And I let it all out to find
That I'm not the only person with these things in mind
(Inside of me)
But all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I've got left to feel
(Nothing to lose)
Just stuck/ hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own
He sat on the crumbling building in front of what use to be Samos's hut. Can't be, can't be, it isn't real! But it was and the life he'd known was gone. Crumbled and decayed before his eyes. Jak laughed hollowly, not that he could return anyway. Too much blood stained his hands. Not all of it was evil. He'd taken the lives of innocent people. Trampled them beneath his feet to destroy the one man he ever hated. He didn't even have the excuse of blaming it all on the dark eco. No, he'd killed the innocent without having the beast raging through him. Simply people caught in the crossfire.
I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real And I've got nothing to say
I wanna let go of the pain I've held so long
(Erase all the pain till it's gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm close to something real
I wanna find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong
I can't believe I didn't fall right down on my face
Pain, anger, rage, all of it clamored inside him to be let loose. To brake free and destroy all who'd wronged him. But that could lead to more loss of innocent lives. Funnily enough he didn't care. Only the knowledge that doing so would make him no better than Baron fucking Praxis kept him from letting Dark Jak have his freedom and the thought of accidentally hurting Dax; The only living thing left that gave a damn. Jak clenched his teeth, tilting his head toward the sky. The last good thing he'd fought for was gone Washed away by time and industry. What's left? All that was left was the burning rage inside. The anger pulsed inside his chest in time with his heart. Or what remains of it, he thought bitterly. Nothing more than a shriveled organ inside his chest pumping tainted blood.
(I was confused)
Looking everywhere only to find
That it's not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
(So what am I)
What do I have but negativity
'Cause I can't justify the way, everyone is looking at me
(Nothing to lose)
Nothing to gain/ hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own
Everything that ever mattered is gone. Even Daxter. Because Jak had wanted time alone, He was gone. He wasn't there, just like… Keira. She abandoned him, her and Samos both. Because we don't matter to them. it whispered. Jak shook his head, No that wasn't true. Yes it is, why else would Samos forget you. No, something happened to him!The voice continued as if it hadn't heard him. Keira's forgotten you too. You'll see. NO! You're a monster.
It wasn't true. He repeated it like a mantra, over and over in his head, it wasn't true, it wasn't true. It was a desperate attempt to block out his darker self. They hated you, feared how easily you controlled the eco; that you'd become the next Gol. They were proud of me, of Daxter. We beat them together. Jak snarled, I'M NOTHING LIKE GOL! Fool! They were only hiding their true feelings. LAIR! Am I?
I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I've held so long
(Erase all the pain till it's gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm close to something real
I wanna find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong
I will never know myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel anything else, until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything till I break away from me
I will break away, I'll find myself today
You're a monster. It hissed don't deny it. Why else do you let me loose so easily? Jak shook his head vehemently. It was done out of the need for survival. Long suppressed Images started pouring through his head, no doubt supplied by Dark. A KG standing guard, Jak transforming, ripping through the elf, alarms going off, a red haze of killing joy as more KG swarmed the area. A young woman cowering as Jak advanced on her, claws drenched in blood. Citizens screaming in fear as Jak, surrounded by the KG transformed, ripping and rending he slaughtered all there, including citizens stupid enough to think hiding against a wall would save them. Jak shuddered as he could no longer avoid the truth. Oh god… how did Daxter stand him? he was a monster. Yes. He enjoyed it, all of it. He couldn't separate his alter ego from himself any longer. They were one and the same. I am everything inside of you.
He killed because of the rage, because he loved it. It was a balm on the empty husk that used to be his soul. It helped ease the pain of what Praxis put him through. "So it all comes back to him." this he said aloud. "I hate you. I hate you!" Jak stood abruptly. He screamed all the pent up rage in to the sky, headless of dark's laughter and the dark eco coming alive in his veins. "Jak." One word said with all the calm in the world, the total opposite of the tempest coursing through him. In his current state it was all it took to send him careening over the edge.
I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I've held so long
(Erase all the pain till it's gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm close to something real
I wanna find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong
In full dark mode Jak slammed himself into the intruder. Caught of guard by the sudden attack Torn lost his balance, sending both of them tumbling over the edge of the ruined building. Lucky for them they landed on solid ground instead of the electrified water. Dark Jak snarled rolling them so he was on top. Grinning at Torn Jak dug his claws hard into his shoulder, so blood welled up and pooled beneath him. While his other drew back preparing to strike.
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm somewhere I belong
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm somewhere I belong
Somewhere I belong
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Next chapter soon. Next chap will be normal, no song fic. Although I will have part of the lyrics in the beginning.Review please! Like right now.
