Hello guys! This is my new story.

It will be a collection of ByaxRen oneshots.

This story will be set after Soul Society Arc.

I hope you like it!

Disclaimer: I DO NOT OWN BLEACH. Tite Kubo is the rightful owner.

Summary: Renji finally confesses his feelings for Byakuya.

Chapter 1: Confession

Renji Abarai was awoken suddenly by the sound of his alarm clock blaring in his ears. Renji groaned and turned to annoying machine off. He really didn't want to go to the office today. Not that he wanted to go to the office on any day, really. But today was worst than all the other days. Renji had a killer hangover. He went out with all of his friends and got completely hammered. And now he had to suffer the consequences. The joys of his life.

Renji sighed and got out of bed. He went through the tedious process of taking a shower and getting ready. After that was finished, he walked out of his apartment and headed to the Squad 6 barracks. As Renji was walking, he noticed that the weather was exceptionally nice today. Renji couldn't help but to stop and admire the beautiful weather. Then out of nowhere, a cherry blossom landed on his hand. Renji smiled at it. It reminded him of his Captain. The almighty and powerful Byakuya Kuchiki. Renji shook his head.

'Now is not the time to be thinking about that. I have to get to the office. Taicho will kill me if I'm late again.' Renji thought and continued his walk.

The walk was surprisingly short, in Renji's opinion. He was greeted by many of the 6 divisions officers as he made his ways to his and Byakuya's office. When Renji reached the office, he shocked to find that Byakuya wasn't there yet. His captain made sure to be on time for everything. It was like he had OCD or something.

'Hmm, I wonder where he is. He's never late.' Renji thought. He hoped that nothing was wrong. But just before Renji could really worry, Byakuya walked through the door.

''Good morning Taicho.'' Renji greeted.

''Good morning Abarai-fukutaicho.'' Byakuya replied and took a seat at his desk. He quickly got to work. Renji sat down and followed suit.

''I see that you finally managed to show up on time, Abarai.'' Byakuya commented. Renji smiled sheepishly.

''Yeah. But I'm surprised that I got here before you. Did something happen?'' Renji asked.

''Nothing really. Family matters.'' Byakuya said and didn't elaborate.

''Oh, okay.'' Renji muttered.

Silence quickly ensued after their little conversation. Renji hated the silence. It made him feel like he and his captain were miles apart when in reality, it was only a few feet. But somehow Renji knew that he and his captain would always have that distance between them. And knowing that only made things harder for Renji. Because he had somehow fallen in love with cold man. Renji didn't even know how or when this happened. When he first joined the 6th division, he hated Byakuya and would do anything to surpass him. He still wanted to surpass him, but the hate that he held for him disappeared. After Rukia's failed execution, Renji no longer hated Byakuya. Instead, he respected him. I mean, he always respected him, but it was a different type of respect that he held for him. He understood why Byakuya did what he did. He promised his parents that he wouldn't break any more rules and he tried to keep that promise, even if it meant watching his sister die. Renji could understand the need to keep a promise to someone. And he could understand how hard it was for Byakuya to just stand there as his sister was about to be executed. Renji got that, he really did. Renji supposed that that was the time when he started to fall in love with Byakuya.

Everything else that happened in between only fueled Renji's love for him. But Renji knew that they could never be together. Byakuya was a noble and Renji was nothing but a Rukongai dog. And Byakuya was his captain and a man. Soul Society didn't frown upon gay relationships, but they didn't jump for joy at the idea either. And sexual relations between a superior and their subordinate was forbidden. Renji knew all this and yet, he still ended up falling in love. He tried so many times to deny it, to tell himself that it wasn't true and that he would never fall for his captain, but that only caused him pain. So he accepted it. He was in love with Byakuya Kuchiki. A noble man, captain of a division, and the adoptive brother of his best friend. To bad that Byakuya would never love him back. Or at least, that's what Renji thought. Too bad that he didn't know how his captain really felt about him.

Byakuya had feelings for Renji as well. But he was too scared to tell Renji how he felt. He was scared of what his lieutenant would think of him. He was scared of what everyone else would think of him. He was scared of losing his title as Kuchiki clan leader. The elders weren't very happy that Byakuya wanted to marry Hisana. They only accepted it because Hisana was female and would be able to give them a heir. But she died before that could happen. And if they found out that Byakuya was in love with Renji, they would never accept it. Renji was a man and if Byakuya was to have a physical relationship with him, than he couldn't produce a heir. The elders would do everything in their power to break them up and Byakuya couldn't put Renji through that. So he told himself that he would never tell Renji how he felt. Even if it meant being alone forever. Byakuya was prepared to sacrifice his happiness if it meant making sure that Renji wouldn't get hurt.

When it was around midday, a Hell Butterfly entered Byakuya's office.

There will be a captain's meeting in ten minutes. All captains are to attend.

The butterfly gave Byakuya the message and left. Byakuya sighed. He hated having to go to the captain's meeting. It was so boring. The Head Captain would drone on and on about the same thing. Sometimes the meetings would last for hours on end. And Byakuya could only listen to so much without feeling the need to bang his head against a wall. But captain meetings were apart of the job, so he had to go. Unlike Captain Zaraki, Byakuya actually did what he was told.

''Huh, I didn't know that there was going to be a captain's meeting.'' Renji said. Byakuya nodded in agreement.

''I wonder what it is about.'' he whispered. Then he stood up.

''Well, in any case, I expect you to continue your work while I'm gone. Is that understood, Abarai-fukutaicho?'' Renji nodded.

''I understand. You have nothing to worry about, Taicho.'' Renji replied. Byakuya nodded and left the room.

Renji watched him go before turning to the stack of paperwork on his desk. Renji groaned. He hated paperwork. He never understood why they had to sit at a desk, filling out papers, when it was their job to fight and protect people. Personally, Renji felt that paperwork was a complete waste of time. He'd rather spent his time training. Suddenly the door opened and Rukia walked.

''Hey Rukia.'' Renji greeted. Rukia smiled.

''Hello Renji. Where's Nii-sama?'' she asked.

''Oh, he had a captain's meeting to go to. You just missed him, actually.'' Renji answered. Rukia frowned.

''Oh, okay. I guess I will just leave these release papers on his desk.'' Rukia said. She placed the papers on his desk and turned to face Renji.

''So, how's it going?'' she asked. Renji shrugged.

''Good. Although, I do have a killer hangover at the moment.'' Rukia laughed.

''I bet Nii-sama was really upset with you for being late.''

''Actually, I got here before he did.'' Renji told her.

''Really? Wow, I never thought I'd see the day. Nii-sama is never late.''

''Yeah. I wonder why though.'' Renji muttered thoughtfully. Rukia shrugged.

''The elders probably kept him. Those old men could talk for hours. I wonder how Nii-sama deals with it. I know that I couldn't sit in a room for hours listening to people criticize my actions.''

''I guess that's why he's the leader, huh?'' Renji mumbled. Rukia nodded.

''Well, I have to leave. It was good seeing you Renji.'' Rukia waved and left.

''Good to see you too, Rukia.'' Renji whispered.

About half an hour later, Byakuya came back to the office. Renji glanced up at him.

''You're back already? I thought that the captain's meeting would last longer.'' Renji commented.

''You and me both.'' Byakuya agreed. He sat down and got back to work. Renji couldn't help but stare at him.

His captain was so elegant. The way he walked, talked, and even the way he fought. Everything about him screamed elegance. His hand writing was absolutely perfect. Renji loved the way his hands glided over the paper, it was as if his hand was flying. He was so magnificant and beautiful. He was so, so beautiful. His creamy, pale skin, his long ebony locks, and his deep, dark eyes. Everything about him was beautiful. He was perfect. Absolutely perfect. Renji shook his head and groaned.

'I have got to stop thinking like that. Or else I'm going to make myself hard. How embarrassing would that be.' Renji thought.

''Is there something bothering you, Abarai-fukutaicho?'' Byakuya asked.

''Huh, what? Did you say something?'' Renji asked. Byakuya sighed.

''Pay attention when I'm talking to you. I said, is there something bothering you?'' Byakuya repeated. Renji shook his head.

''No, nothing's wrong. Why are you asking?''

''You seem distracted.'' Byakuya replied. Renji winced.

'He probably noticed my staring. God, I'm such an idiot.'

''Nothing's wrong, Taicho. I don't feel good, that's all.'' Renji lied.

''Oh well, if you don't feel well, why don't you go home early?'' Byakuya suggested. Renji stared at him, shocked.

''B-But why?'' he asked.

''You won't be able to do your work if you aren't feeling well, Abarai. I thought that was obvious.'' Byakuya answered.

''Oh, I guess your right. But I'm fine, you don't have to worry Taicho.'' Renji assured. Byakuya nodded and continued working.

They stayed in the office for a few more hours before going home. As Renji was walking home, he couldn't help but think about what would happen if he told Byakuya how he felt. Renji scoffed.

'That would be a disaster. He'd probably kill me and spit on my remains.' Renji thought.

'But, then again, he wouldn't do that, right?' Renji shook his head.

'Why am I even thinking about this? He's never going to accept my feelings. There's no point in thinking about anymore.' Renji sighed. He couldn't believe how cowardly he was being. He should just Byakuya how he felt. That way, if he was rejected, he could move on instead of being miserable. Renji's eyes shone with determination. He was going to tell Byakuya how he felt. And he was going to do it tonight.

' I mean, the worst thing he can say is no.' Renji thought.

He closed his eyes and sought out Byakuya's spirtual pressure. With one last nod, Renji headed in his direction.

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Byakuya was standing in front of a cherry blossom tree in his garden. The stars and moon were out, making the night look even more beautiful. Byakuya sighed contently. He loved it out here. He loved the peace of it all. Not a single sound could be heard. It was absolute silence. And he loved it. No one was telling him what to do or how to act. He wasn't forced to do anything that he didn't want to. He could just be by himself. He could be at peace with himself. And that's what this silence brought him. Peace. It brought him a reprieve from everything that he was feeling. And he was glad for that.

Byakuya's temporary peace was interrupted when he sensed Renji's spiritual pressure coming towards him. Byakuya sighed.

'What does he want?'' he thought irritably. Renji was going to get it for disturbing him. Byakuya turned when he sensed that Renji had stopped.

''What do you want Renji?'' Byakuya asked him. Renji said nothing. Instead, he walked up to him and kissed him.

Byakuya's eyes widened in shock. He was about to shove Renji away, but than he realized what Renji was doing. So, Byakuya closed his eyes and kissed him back. They stood like that for a while, just holding and kissing each other. Eventually, they pulled away. Byakuya stared at Renji, shocked.

''W-Why did you do that?'' Byakuya asked, panting. Renji shrugged.

''I did it because I love you.'' he stated bluntly.

''You what?'' Renji smiled.

''I said I love you. I love everything about you. I love your hair, your eyes, your skin. There isn't one thing that I don't love about you. You are perfect. You are powerful, smart, cunning, loyal, and so much more. I love you, Byakuya Kuchiki.'' Renji whispered. Byakuya deadpanned.

''You joking, right?'' he asked. Renji's smiled dropped.

'I should have known.' he thought.

''Why would you love someone like me?'' Byakuya questioned. Renji looked at him.

''What's not to love? You are wonderful. I thought that I said that before. But the question shouldn't be why I love you. The real question is, do you love me back?'' Renji asked hesitantly. This sounded so much better in his head.

Byakuya looked. This was what he was waiting for. So why does he feel so nervous? He wanted this to happen. Byakuya took a deep breath.

''Yes. I do love you Renji.'' he admitted. Renji grinned.

''Really? You really mean it?'' he asked. Byakuya glared at him.

''I wouldn't say it if it wasn't true, Renji.'' Byakuya pointed out. Renji pulled him into a bone-crushing hug.

'Yes!'

''Let go of me!'' Byakuya snapped. Renji quickly let go. He smiled sheepishly.

''Sorry.'' he muttered. Byakuya waved the apology away.

''It's alright. But, what are we now?'' he asked Renji. Renji smiled.

''We're a couple now. I thought that was obvious.''

''But, are you sure?'' Byakuya asked. Renji nodded.

''Of course I'm sure. I love you Byakuya and you love me. So, what's stopping us?''

'A lot of things, acutally.'' Byakuya thought, but he didn't say it out loud. Instead, he smiled and kissed Renji. Renji kissed him back.

And they stayed like that. Kissing each other under the starry night sky.

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