I do not own Twilight. I only own the basic plot I have worked out.

Also, to my great dismay, I do not own Jon Bon Jovi or his band or any of his great works. This, I might cry over. Please excuse the tears.

ENJOY!


"Shoot!" I saw the thin trickle of blood go to the tip of my finger once again. Why, oh why was I such an accident-prone klutz? It really did not make any sense to me at all why I was

still allowed to roam this world freely. I hurt myself enough-not to mention my parents were over protective enough-to keep me inside a little bubble. My life has always been like this.

Concussion after concussion, broken ankles and wrists; I was a pathetic excuse for a seventeen-year-old girl. My last name is Swan. Swans are supposed to be graceful, right? I am

the exact opposite. What a cruel trick of fate!

I ran my injured finger under the cool water of the tap. Soon enough the water ran clean and my newest flesh wound was on its way to healing. It stung slightly; of course, they all do.

The day I don't hurt myself will be the day my pulse runs weak and my breathing stops. That sounds morbid, but true. I used live in one of the hottest places in the United States. The

Valley of the Sun. I lived in Phoenix, Arizona.

Suddenly, missing Phoenix, I had a flashback.

Renee's wedding was in a few short hours. I was not looking forward to the afternoon. In fact, I was dreading it.

I liked Phil well enough. He is nice, but part of me was definitely missing not having a man around. I really liked the Bella and Renee show. Now it was going to be the Phil and Renee show with

Bella as a guest star. Which is how it should be when you get married, right? Your husband takes priority. Besides, I will be going to college in less than two years. At least I knew my mom

would be taken care of.

I slipped on the deep purple dress. It really was not my style, but mom loved it. It was knee length with several crisscrossing spaghetti straps and an open back. It was actually really pretty.

Except on me. Normally the dress flatters the girl. I couldn't even flatter the dress. I was ok looking, sure. I was far from special looking, and that really could not be helped. I had light, pale

skin. Brown hair and brown eyes. I was average height and slender. There probably was not one feature I liked about myself. My lips were too full for the rest of my face. Although my bottom lip

was probably always swollen because I chewed on it all the time. Bad habit. Bad habit! I would have to work on that.

"Bella! Are you ready yet? We have to go! The wedding is in an hour!" Renee called down the hall. I groaned internally.

I cringed at the memory of the wedding. I had tripped almost four times that day. I also stabbed myself in the hand, which produced blood, with a plastic knife. How ridiculous can one

person's luck be? Hmm…would my luck change for the better or worse on Friday the Thirteenth? It was hard to imagine my luck getting much worse. Injuries every other day. Not to

mention humiliation in between. I was a walking catastrophe.

Suddenly I realized that it was five minutes until I had to leave for school and I was still in my pajamas with my hair a mess. Fabulous. Fourth week at Fork's "high school" and I was

going to be late. I pulled on the first shirt my hands touched and threw my hair into a high pony. I pulled on a comfortable pair of jeans and ran. Slipping on my parka and boots as I

bolted out of the door.

I had already caused enough trouble at Forks to last a lifetime, I did not need to add being late onto the list, everyone had to be making. I had already injured myself and half the

people in my gym class. I had already almost gotten ran over! Luckily, Edward Cullen was "standing right next to me." Whatever! He was standing next to his stupid shiny Volvo! He ran

over to save me! I kept telling people he was standing right next to me, but it was a huge lie. He wasn't. He was just really fast and he had a secret he didn't want me to know. Yet, I

knew bits and pieces of it. I will figure it all out someday. If it is the LAST thing I do.

He still had not spoken to me and now I really did not care to speak to him. Well I do, but I can't help it, so I won't get my hopes up.

"Bella! I thought you weren't going to make it today! What took you so long?" Ugh! My new keeper, Mike Newton, asked when I jumped out of my car.

I shrugged. What did he care? I started to walk towards me first class. Then as an afterthought, I decided to answer him. "I overslept. I'm here on time." I smiled.

"Oh. Well-um- I, uh, can you-eh, uh-want…"He started to stammer. I wonder what he was getting at. He wasn't normally this bad at speaking. Getting the hint that Jessica was head

over heels for him, yes. That I seriously was not interested in being anymore than his friend, yes. Speaking, no.

"Just spit it out, Mike. What do you want me to do?" I giggled. I grimaced inside. I really did not want his attention. Jessica was practically planning their wedding; I did not want to get

in the way.

Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Alice and Edward Cullen and Jasper Hale. She was dancing a fairy dance. It suited her, the little pixie she was. I really liked Alice Cullen. Everyone

thought she was weird, but she did not seem to care. She never paid any heed to the gossip about her. She kept dancing. It was almost as if she just could not stand still. Jasper was

smiling at her. Well, adoring is a better description. His eyes followed her every move. Love radiated all around them. This was the first time I had ever seen Jasper smile. His smile was

nice and his love for Alice was overwhelming.

Then there was Edward. The handsome, Greek god. Standing there staring off into space with an angry, annoyed looked on his face. I wanted to ask him to stop avoiding me, but I

was still just as angry with him as he was apparently at me.

"I wanted to ask you if you could help me with the English Essay. I am not doing so hot in that class at the moment." Mike finally broke me out of my trance. He was doing just fine in

English. I looked at him with a raised eyebrow. I quickly composed myself and smiled lightly.

"I would love to help you, Mike, but I don't think I have the time this week and it is due on Friday." I informed him, quickly thinking of good things to say to get out of it. I would have

helped him if I was sure he did not have an alter motive. Which I was positive he did.

"Oh, alright, Bella. Well time to get to class." He said sadly. It was just then that I realized that I was on the outside of the English building. The bell rang and I quickly went in.


The morning classes passed quickly and before I knew it, lunchtime had arrived. I really did not want to sit with Jessica and her friends, nor Mike. I decided to stay outside for lunch. I

would see Edward in an hour at Biology, so it was not like I wanted to go see him. I sat under a large pine tree and began absentmindedly making shapes in the moist ground with my

finger. I began to think of the worst thing possible, Edward Cullen. I was obsessing over him and it was getting annoying.

"Hello Bella, are you not going to lunch today?" A high, sweet sounding voice startled me. I looked up, even though I already knew who it was, and stared.

"I'm not incredibly hungry and I have a head ache." I replied. It wasn't a lie.

"Sorry to hear that. I am not sure if we ever actually met…" She mumbled something like Edward is going to kill me for this, "I am Alice Cullen." She sat down about five and a half feet

away from me.

"Nice to meet you Alice." I smiled, I really did like Alice and now she was talking to me. Maybe Edward…no I had to banish that thought immediately. I held out my hand and she took it.

Even through her glove I could tell her skin was much colder than normal. Hmm…her too. "Aren't you going to lunch?" I asked and I mentally added, "Not that you eat anything."

"Nope, not today. We are having a half day today. Starting the weekend early. Supposed to be nice out tomorrow." She practically sang after a minute. "The boys are already gone. So

is Rose. I stayed back for a few. I wanted to ask you something. A favor, really. You can say no, but I hope you will do this one thing for me." She half pouted.

"Uh, sure?" Surprised. Shocked. What on earth could Miss Alice Cullen want from plain old me?

"Oh, goodie!" She squealed. I was taken back by that too.

"Yes?" I asked.

"Just please, please forgive Edward for his rude behavior. He has been ridiculous, but that is going to change. Also, do me a favor and have fun in the sun this weekend, 'kay?" She

spoke very quickly and then her eyes went unfocused.

"Alice? Alice Cullen?" I asked, unsure of what to do. She was in a true trance or something. It was a little, no a lot, scary.

Finally she snapped out of it and grimaced. Then she caught sight of me and smiled.

"Sorry, I was thinking about something. I do that sometimes. Anyways, I have to go" She said and I thought I heard her add because he is coming to rip me apart. Then she was gone.

Walking quickly and in a dance like fashion. She looked like a model. She had a black mini dress with yellow leggings and yellow five inch heels. I would die if I wore shoes that high.

Even with five extra inches, I think I was still taller than she was. She was so tiny. Well maybe not, we might be the same height now.

This was new. This was strange. She wants me to enjoy the weekend, I can do that easily. If it really is sunny, I will be soaking up the sun everyday! Oh, but the Cullen's are leaving

on a Wednesday afternoon. That was not strange per se, but it made me sad. Very sad and I don't know why.

Wait! Alice Cullen just spoke to me! Ha! That was the first time any of the other Cullen's or Hale's had spoken to me. Alice would smile and wave at me from time to time, so it wasn't

like I could say the first time they acknowledged my existence. I really, really liked Alice for some reason too. There was like a magnetic pull toward that family for me.

She wants me to forgive Edward. I think it would be hard not to, given he ever spoke to me again. Yet that probably was not going to happen. Better not give any hope to this

situation, or I'll end up crying. When he saved me, I thought we might become friends. I was so stupid, demanding he tell me what was going on. Why couldn't I have just let it go? I

could have weaseled it out of him later. But no, I did demand and now we were on worse terms than ever before. Might as well fall into a hole and die waiting for him to talk to me.

"Where were you at lunch? I didn't see you." Mike said when he entered the Biology building. I had already sat down and was doodling on my notebook. I looked at my absentminded

drawings and realized I was drawing a pattern of hearts. Oops! I was thinking of my absent lab partner. I looked up at Mike. He was waiting for an answer.

"I wasn't hungry and it wasn't cold or rainy outside, so I enjoyed the fresh air. I hear it is supposed to be warm this weekend, I sure hope so." I smiled brightly at the thought of the

sun. I needed sun. Lots of sun. I really hoped Alice was right.

"The weather man said it was going to be cloudy all weekend. Maybe stormy. Who ever told you that was wrong." Mike said, he sounded stubborn.

"I think my source was pretty reliable, actually. How about this, if it is sunny then it is and I'll be happy. If it is not, well then it's not." I stated.

"Where's Cullen? He was at lunch. Only the little one was missing." He looked at me pointedly. Why did he think I knew anything? Of course, I probably knew more than most people. I

shrugged.

"Alice was with me during lunch. I don't know where they went, but I guess it is camping or hiking. They seem to do that anytime it is even remotely nice out." Why did he care? He

looked at my heart pattern and smiled. I really hope he doesn't think I am drawing them for his benefit. No, I was thinking of Edward…, which is really bad.

Class thankfully started then. The rest of the day went quickly. I hurt myself in the first five minutes of gym and was excused. I went home early. I had already done all my homework.

My essay was done and Charlie wouldn't be home for another three hours. I turned on my radio and listened to the first station I found. It was an old '80's rock station. Some songs I

loved, others I hated. I listened to them all.

I turned on my dinosaur of a computer and waited for it to load. Renee had sent me four emails in two hours, while I was at school. I had to write back quickly.

Mom,

School like just ended. I am doing great. It is somewhat warm today. If Forks can ever be warm. It is supposed to be Sunny-I think- this weekend. I am getting pretty good grades. There isn't

much more to tell you. Um, you know when I told you that Edward Cullen saved me from being squished by the van. Well I still cannot convince Tyler that it was not his fault and he does not

have to repay me. Ha! I thought I had let him off the hook easily. I just deemed it an accident. Edward had said, "No Blood no foul." He let the kid off easier than me. Shocker huh?

Hope you're well. Glad to hear Phil got the job.

Bella

I sent the email quickly. I did not want her to call Charlie. Suddenly a song I knew by heart played. It was "You give Love a Bad Name" by Bon Jovi. My mom used to sing it when she

was feeling sad. I turned it up while padding towards the kitchen. I was in the mood for Mushroom Chicken Risotto, but I was not old enough to buy some of the ingredients. So I made

Lasagna instead.


The weekend passed slowly. It was indeed very sunny. In fact, it got to be around eighty degrees on Saturday. Yet part of me, and I was totally unsure why, wanted it to get cold

again. Dreary even. Was it because I knew the Cullen and Hale kids would be out of school if it was nice out? Was I really that obsessed with Edward that I was willing to give up the

sun? The heat?

Monday came and I got to school early. I was happy when I realized it was going to rain. Hopefully Edward-eh, the Cullen's and Hale's- would be at school today. My perspective on life

had gotten brighter since my little chat with Alice. I hoped that she was subtly telling me that Edward was going to actually acknowledge my existence again. Maybe he would talk to

me. Maybe we could become friends. My hopes, which I had been repressing, swelled and soared. That was until I got to school only to see that the sliver Volvo was missing. I was still

early though.

I sat under the same pine where I had spoken to Alice last week. I pulled out my worn copy of Sense and Sensibility by Jane Austen and began to read. About half way through one

page, I felt someone watching me. I looked up and around. There were a lot of boys staring at me, but I was used to those stares. They should not have pulled me from my book. No

this was a different feeling. I felt like someone was watching me and perhaps reading over my shoulder. I looked around again. No one.

I had gotten the feeling all weekend that someone was watching me. I had even woken up one night to the same feeling. It wasn't a scary feeling. It was different. It was almost as if

an angel was watching over me. I had heard of guardian angels, but I doubt that was what this was. I wasn't afraid though and I did not think it was a stalker. Well, I hoped it wasn't

a stalker. That was all I needed.

"Hi, Bella. Reading Austen, huh?" I heard a high perky voice.

"Good morning, Alice. Yeah, Austen is one of my favorites. How about you?" I glanced at her as I closed my book. This was the second time she came up and spoke to me.

"Uh, I like Austin. I had a question for you though. Did you enjoy your weekend?" She asked sweetly.

"Yeah, I really did. You were right, it was really sunny." I was stunned that she even cared. "Did you?"

I heard her mumble, Except for the fact that I was in hiding from Edward all weekend and I should not be talking to you now. I probably was not supposed to hear that. She smiled brightly

and said clearly, "Yes! I love hiking. We went to Canada and stayed in a Cabin. It was so much fun and the Cabin was like a fairytale. Then on the way back we went shopping! I love

to shop. Would you like to come sometime…uh later?"

She seemed to be unwilling to add the later part. By her tone, it sounded like she had to wait for Edward to allow her to go shopping with me. Huh, how strange. I might be making a

mountain out of a molehill though.

"Sure, Alice. That would be nice. I can't anytime incredibly soon. We'll have to see what works, okay?" I wanted to let her off the hook.

Her eyes went unfocused and then she smiled. "Yeah, so see you later. Lunch, maybe." Then before I could respond, she was walking quickly towards worried looking Jasper. I thought

I heard her mumbling something about "ridiculous notions" and a "Future best friend" and "meddling brothers". I wrote it off as typical Alice. I never could completely understand her

meanings behind things.

I stood up to go to class and tripped over the root of the pine tree. No blood, luckily enough. I did tear my jeans and my book was now very muddy. Stupid balance issues. Maybe I

have an inner ear problem. I may want to get that checked out someday. Or maybe fate just hated me. Mud covered and annoyed I sulked off to my first class.

My luck went from bad to worse today. Every class had a new hazard or accident. English I tripped into my seat and banged my knee on the desk. Spanish I fell out of my desk and hurt

my wrist. Trigonometry I stabbed my hand with a pencil when I got frustrated with a problem, causing a throbbing pain. No blood yet. Government we had a surprise speech and I

almost fainted. Public speaking seems to be a no for me. I did not get to go to the nurse though. Which suited me just fine. It was lunch now and I was afraid of the turmoil I could

cause there.

I decided I was too sick to eat. I wasn't really sick, I just didn't want to trip and have my food fly in the air and land on Jess. I really didn't want to choke. I got a water and sat down. I

wasn't really paying much attention to those around me. I purposely sat next to Angela and another quiet girl so I wouldn't have to talk much and I wouldn't have to listen to gossip.

Then a small pixie-like hand caught me eye. Alice. She was waving franticly at me. I waved back and she motioned for me to join her.

Edward wasn't anywhere to be seen. Jasper and Emmett seemed to be in a deep conversation. Rosalie was, well being Rosalie. Alice was sitting at a different table than her siblings,

which confused me. I said goodbye to Angela and her friend and walked towards the excited girl.

"Hi, Bella, I told you I would see you at lunch. Why don't you sit with me today? Why aren't you eating?" She spoke really fast; I barely caught what she was saying.

"Sure, I'll sit with you. I'm not eating because I am having a bad day so I am not very hungry. Why aren't you eating?" I answered.

"I can't eat a lot of this stuff, so I don't. I am allergic to a lot of different foods. I just make sure I eat a big breakfast and have a snack when I get home. I think you should eat though

Bella. Here, I'll get you something." She was gone before I could protest. Within two minutes, she was back with a salad and pizza. The salad looked like a piece of art instead of food.

How did she do that so fast?

"Uh, thanks. Here…" I reached to give her some money.

"Silly Bella, consider it a gift. I don't want your money. Just eat." She giggled.

"So…where's Edward?" I asked after finishing the salad.

"Uh, he had to go to an appointment. He'll be back in time for Biology though. I'm sure you miss your lab partner. Oh! Lab is so much fun today, you'll love it!" She finished with a

squeal. I was confused as to what lab it was.

"What is it?" I couldn't help myself. I knew she took the same biology class we did only earlier.

"Plant Cell Osmosis Lab. It was fun. You'll like it. It is very interesting too."

She seemed so sweet and convincing. Maybe I would like the lab strictly because Alice thought I would. Before long, the bell rang and I got up to go to Biology. In a course of two

seconds, several things happened at once. Alice's eyes glazed over and her face went blank like it had last Wednesday. I tripped myself and fell over the back of the chair, to which I

heard a loud crack. I looked up only to see the face of the one I dreamed off nightly. Edward had a look that was both murderous and pained.

Salve,

Ok, so it was really long. It was like 13 pages long on the Word Processor. Sorry? Again, be brutally honest when you review. That's how I roll. :)

Oh! "You Give Love a Bad Name" is one of the best songs. I had it on repeat the entire time. I think I annoyed my sister. (Maybe she'll get her own apartment!) Anyways, I recommend you listening to that as well as Bon Jovi's "It's my Life" and "Bounce".

Eh, I'll update someday...I'm not giving you any promises other than I will update, I swear! It may be a few days...2 weeks tops (I hope).

BTW...if I write anything extremely scientific and/or medical it is probably the gospel truth (or in the case of Plant Cell Osmosis Lab, that was something I did in 10th grade Bio and enjoyed. Then again I'm a geek) I am majoring in BioChemistry (yes, yes, I'm crazy) and I am in the Pre-med program! Yay!

Until we meet again,

Catalina Mae.