BPO ( sorry chapters 1-8 are all on same page I didn't figure out how to make it each one till later)Thanks for reading. Here we go….
Here I lie in the grass of our meadow again. Only a few days till my 18 th birthday. I have asked no one to get me anything but I think I know that they still will. All I really want is for Edward to give and let us be together in every way. It's warm today that is why Edward brought me here so I could soak up as my sun as I could. He is my whole world I love him so much. I love Charlie to but that is different. I am ready to give up everything so I can be with Edward forever.
Chapter 1
Today is my birthday and Alice is planning a party for me and he told me to be nice and let everyone have their fun they haven't had a birthday for a really long time, and Alice just loved any reason for a party. Charlie & Renee got me a camera and a scrapbook .I woke this day like must but I remembered a really bad dream I had, had last night and it scared me .I didn't want to be old and die .Edward stand by me and I looked like my Gran, I will not have it .
He has to change me and soon. Today at school went by in a blur .All I could do was think about Edward my Edward and what I was going to ask for from him tonight. Alice must have seen what I was planning and she told me to tread easily that Edward would never do that and to be patient and in time he will come around.
Gym was next I am glad this is the last year I have to take it. At least I have class with Alice and Edward so I know that I will have a fair chance of not getting hurt or hurting any else for that matter. I took out a few girls the other day that was to close when I hit the beach ball for our beach day clash. What a bad day that was. It was sunny and they didn't come to school that day.
I always hate those days the most. Mike and Jess and Ben and Angela were all still here and I was glad for Angela and Ben .Some days she was my saving grace. School is over and Edward is driving Alice and me to their house for my "party". I can't wait to get this over. Everyone was there even Rose and Emmett came home for it to my disbelief.
Rose still doesn't like me much. I am not sure why she is so beautiful so I know it couldn't be that I am just so plan. Long brown hair and chocolate brown eyes yes I am small built but nothing special about me other then my love of my life Edward! Emmett now I loved him and he me .He was like a big brother I never had and I am very glad to see him.
All his jokes and all I missed. Jasper he still tries to keep a way is sometimes I feel like we are bonding. He is so smart and just by listening to him speak I have learned so much.
Alice got the cake ready and everyone came in to watch me blow out all my candles, but before she wanted me to open my gifts. I love this family my future family so much and the only true gift I wanted was to be one of them to be a vampire. My favorite little pixie here bouncing up and down I couldn't break her heart so I put on my happy face and went to. Rose handed me a box from her Emmett and Jasper. It had a big red bow on top and it felt light so that made me happy. I opened it and got a small paper cut on my finger in the process.
This made everything gone wrong and fast. I saw Edward get into his defensive stance and Jasper being tackled to the ground. Then I was knocked over into the cake and a glass table that cut me in my arm. I cried out put not for my pain but for the family that I love so much. Leave it to me to bring even a party my party down and fast. Carlisle had Alice get his bag and yet again like most time he was bandaging me back up. We talked a lot but he let me in more this time about what he feels and how he thinks Edward thinks about God and not being good enough and not wanting to take my soul.
My soul I asked , I would give him it if I could he is my life my breath, my world .When Carlisle was done Edward took me home . I asked him to stay and he did but I don't think he really wanted to be here with me. I felt more alone now than I ever had. I fell asleep when Edward hummed me my lullaby. When I wake up the next day he was gone.
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Chapter two
Edward was acting so different when he showed up to get me for school today. I ask him if we could just skip it and go to our meadow. Of course he said, he almost always gave me my way. I thought this would be it the time I would ask for him to be with me in every way. I wasn't going to take no for an answer today, not after last night. I needed him now and I feel like he needs me also. The flowers were so beautiful this day .I had brought a blanket for us to lie on.
Edward had opened my door and carried me all the way to the meadow .I laid down the blanket and sit down on it. Edward still didn't seem right but I pushed that way and went on with what I wanted, NO what I need from him right here, right now.
I told him and he didn't say no. He started to kiss me then it turned deeper and deeper and I knew it was going to happen. He kissed down my neck just to stop for a minute and then he kissed down to my jaw line. I started to wrap my hands into his bronze hair to pull him closer into me. The next thing I know he has my shirt off and he ask if he could take my pants off also I told him yes with my eyes and started to take his off also. I had to stop to breathe and take all of him in.
God he was so beautiful. And he has here and he was mine all mine. I slid my hand down over his chest and asked him to go ahead. He was so soft and so gentle with me. I was in heaven, this was true bliss. I think we did this over and over for the next few hours. Till my stomach made a noise and he knew it was time to go. Forget food I could have lived on him forever and ever.
Edward was up and dressed like he had never had his clothes off. He kissed my forehead and I was on his back and we where back to the car in less than a few minutes.
EPO
If I had a beating heart it would have broken into piece seeing Bella like this. She looked so sad and I know I have to tell her that my family and I are leaving her for her own good. The look in her eyes I know she needed me this way and I know it was every wrong and selfish but I am a selfish man and I need her just as much right now. God, Bella is so beautiful. I wish she could see herself like see her. This is going to be harder for me to leave after this but I hope it makes things a little better for her.
She needs to move on and be happy and safe and as long as I am here see will never be safe not truly. So I gave in and gave her everything she wanted except changing her. We fit together like it was always meant to be like that. Once just wasn't enough, I not sure forever would have been but I had to do it .I had to walk away and now I had to tell her.
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Disclaimer :I don't own anything Twilight SM does.
Chapter Three
BPO
Yesterday was the best day of my life. I can't wait for Edward to come back today to pick me up for school. He smiled my favorite smile but it wasn't quit right. He still looked sad somehow his golden eyes just didn't shine like they always do when he looks at me. Bella, he said I think we need to talk. Can we please take a walk? What about school Edward?
He said it could wait, we missed yesterday and day wouldn't be any different. I reminded that he was smarter than I am and this is my first time in school but then I thought that maybe this could be like yesterday and I wanted him again like that. Always like that. I smiled to myself thinking about the way he felt and his smell and touch. Bella, please this is something we need to do. It is important .So I followed him into the woods he asked me to stay out of.
He looked at me as we walked just a little farther but I could still see Charlie's house. Edward turned to me and held me by my face. I almost thought I was going to fall down if it wasn't for him and his hands on my face. Then he spoke. Edward said something I never thought I would have ever heard him say. He told me that he and his family, my family was leaving today now. They were all gone but him and he was here to tell me and say goodbye.
I told him I will come too. I would follow him, them anywhere. Then what he said next hit me so hard I think he ripped my heart and lungs out of my chest. On the ground has my heart still beating but I wasn't sure how. I tried to sound strong not to let him see me fall apart, but my eye gave me away. The tears fell and fell and I couldn't stop them.
I ask him if he didn't want me and he didn't love me and he said yes to both. My world just fell apart right at the moment. I'm unsure how long we stood there but then I ask him why he was with me yesterday and he said it was a mistake and we shouldn't have .This hurt even more then his other words did to me. I felt sick more sick then I ever had before.
EPO
SO now was it I had to tell her and so I did. Bella we are leaving and you are not coming with us. My family is already gone and I here to tell you goodbye. No I am truly sorry but you are not coming with us. Bella, I don't love you anymore and I don't want you anymore. I am no good for you and you are worse for me."I cannot be something I am not any more, Bella "It's over .I sorry about yesterday it should have never happened it was one of the biggest mistakes I have ever made when it comes to you.
I just thought of myself and how much I wanted it to happen more then you I think. I wanted you to be my first but now I see that was so very wrong of me and I am sorry for that.(I hated lying like that but if I make sound like it is all my fault maybe it will help her hate me and move on.)Bella that's it, this is goodbye. This will be both of our clean break so we can heal.
Alice said she is sorry but Jasper needs her and she will not be coming back either. To you it "will be like I never existed."Then I ran, ran as fast as I could, I almost turned around. The look on her face killed me, if I was a live to kill.
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Chapter four
The next morning when I woke up I knew it was real. Not just a bad dream, like I had had so many times before. The sun was out today. I think just to mock me in some way. The birds outside singing the happiest little bird songs while here I sit on the edge of my bed with my heart still laying somewhere on the forest floor. Now there is a Hugh hole where it should be. To think just two days ago in my –our meadow I was the happiest person in the world in love with her vampire. The way he touched me was the best feeling I have ever known.
It made my skin feel like it would melt off me with pure bliss. His kisses were not held back, not like usual when he kisses me. I knew he loved me in every way that day. At least that is what his body told mine. We were one person that afternoon with two souls but one body. My heart beat fast for both of us because I knew his couldn't beat. None of that matters just us and this time we had. Now here I am all alone and he said that perfect day was a mistake. It will never be that never to me. I have two choices now.
One I can sit here and fill sorry for myself and my own self pain that I will never let anyone see. I think that I have done my own fair share of suffering for the short amount of time I have been here in the earth. Then there is option number two I can try to pull it together and ask for help and lean on my true friends. I think I am going to choose the latter one. I don't want anyone's pity or to feel bad for me. I don't want anyone to feel anything for me that they didn't all ready feel. So I got up got a shower with way to hot water and my favorite strawberry shampoo. I tried to wash yesterday away, but it wasn't going anywhere it was mine and I owned it.
After I was dressed I went down stairs to find Charlie still home. He is such a great dad always thinking of me even if he never says it. Morning Char I mean dad. Why are you still home? Are the fish not biting or something today? No, Bells you need me and after all I am your father and this is my job. My very most important job that I will ever do. I smiled a small smile to show him I was ok (at least on the outside) and I loved him.
Today dad I am going to call Angela and see what she is doing. I need some girl time anyway. I don't think you want to hear about me and Edw- him anyway do you? I will Bells if that is what you need and want from me. No, thanks dad I just want to eat my breakfast and call Angela. Angela, its Bella can we do something today? I need to talk to you about things, yeah I know this is bad and I hate it but I am strong and I WILL MAKE IT.
Thanks see you then.
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Chapter five
I met Angela at her house. We talked for hours. I told her everything about him and I everything except the fact that my one and only true love was in fact a vampire. I could never tell anyone that fact. I would never put (my) his family in any kind of danger even though they left me. She couldn't believe that I had given myself completely and totally to Edward. Ben and she have not taken that step yetShe said she wanted to but Ben wasn't ready. We decided to make some cookies for her little brothers.
The smell of them baking made my mouth water. I don't really like cookies I don't know what is going on maybe I will have a few. I thanked her for everything and we hugged then I went home. That night I dreamed of my life and what it would have been like if I was with them. Then the dream turned kind of dark and I was chasing this little bronze haired child with bright green eyes. He was calling for me and I couldn't get to him. Someone I didn't know but was sure was a red eyed vampire got to him and ran away with him. What was left of my heart felt like it broke more at that moment!
I woke up and couldn't go back to sleep. Why bother any way it was almost time to get up for school. How would today be? My first day without him without them. Raining, oh great! Just what I need today. The sky mirrored my soul black and grey with no sun in site. I wrapped my arms around my chest to help hold myself together. I got up and got a shower and made a fast breakfast. Then I remembered my homework I haven't done because of all the events from the last three days that I have lived through. So I quickly got it out and wrote my essay about Romeo and Juliette.
I was glad that I had read this story many times before. I love books .in my truck and off to school I go. When I got there Angela and Ben was waiting for me. Mike and Jess ran up to us, she was smiling (her evil little snake smile) from ear to ear. Mike elbowed her and told her not now with a sharp tone (he was truly my friend also), but she didn't listen. Bella the Cullen's leave on Friday and today we get a new student well two that is. Kori and her brother Andrew Michaels.
I heard they are as beautiful as the Cullen's are and that they are from somewhere cold I think Greenland. Jess thanks but I don't care right now!! Mike smiled at me and gave me a hug and his eyes said he was sorry for her action. Jessica made a face and then pulled Mike away. Today went by so painfully slow. I didn't even look at anyone unless they spoke to me first. At lunch time I got some food that I didn't plan on eating but if I didn't act "normal" I would hear about it I'm sure. I sit down at Edward and my table out of habit only to be met by two pair of beautiful golden eyes looking at me.
I never thought I'd see those eyes again. Who in the world you are, I barked at them kind of rudely. I knew as soon as they spoke with their bell like voices who and what they were. Hello, my name is Kori and this is my brother Andrew very nice to meet you, and you are?
I cleared my throat and said Bella. It must be fate my destiny my Cullen's Alice ,Jasper, Emmett Rose and Edward, they all left me but here right in front of me are two new vampires and they came right to me.
He was right about me you knew being "a danger magnet" but them being here felt so right to me kind of like a summer home .Not your real one but a nice new one. I smiled my biggest smile and said how very sorry I was for being so rude and ask them to sit down. This became an everyday thing Kori and Andrew became friends with all my friends.
Angela, Kori and I are together all the time. We even went shopping, Kori reminds me so much of Alice my little pixie old best friend that left me almost three months ago. I thought to myself man how much vampires like to shop.
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Chapter six
It is summer break now so most night I stay at Kori and Andrew's place .I always felt like it is old times and I just can't leave that [art of my heart behind. I know it is not fair to them of all accounts but I have been nothing but honest to them. I woke up today and felt very sick. I ran to the bathroom that only I used most of them time and hugged the toilet with all that I had.
I was here for what felt like hours. Andrew came to see if I was ok. Kori had gone to hunt. They hunt a lot with me being around and Angela and Ben. They still didn't know they are vampires and they will never know. Much safer for them that way. They didn't care for Jessica so much so her and Mike didn't hang around us much. You see Andrew and Kori they are both special they have gifts kind of like the ones my Cullen's have.
Kori she can put thoughts into others minds and also make them do things she wants them to do. Andrew his is like Alice's and Edwards together. He can hear your mind past or present if he chooses and he can also see the future as it will be and it doesn't change. Andrew came in and picked me up off the floor and asks me if I was better. Then he asks me if we could talk a little. This made me scared I loved them but not that way and I was hoping this wasn't that.
Andrew was being a little shy and that was very unlike him, but he couldn't read my mind (just like Edward couldn't) but he could see my future .Did you and Edward he paused to make sure I was ok with him asking about Edward. Did you and he have sex?
I looked in shock; I think my mouth hit the floor. How could he know this I left that part out and I also would have called it making love at least it was for me. I said yes we did one time well a few times that day I chuckled under my breath but I'm sure he heard me having vampire hearing and all.
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Chapter seven
KPO (Kori)
I went out to hunt and have a few minutes for myself. I love Bella but she is lots of work, she is always finding trouble. I ran down a few elk not my favorite but it worked and once I was full I reached into my pocket for my small blue cell phone. I had to call it had been three weeks since I called last and we have been here over four months now. I knew they would be waiting for my update. I kind of felt bad for not tell Bella up front that we had been sent here to watch over things.
Namely her and Charlie. I flipped my phone open to make my call, Hello I heard after only one ring. Hey it's me, Kori I just wanted to let you know everything is going as well as it could be. Bella has her moments but she has always welcomed us in with open arms. She misses you so much I can see it in her face. She still lights up if anyone says anything about any of you. Bella stays with us most of the time and don't leave on the weekends.
Yeah she and Andrew have bonded better than I thought she would to him after all that has happened with Edward. Then I heard a growl from the other end of my phone. Please don't be mad you said you wanted us to make her happy and to keep her safe that we are doing. She is easy to love like family so it is something I will do for as long as needed. Did you tell him we are here?
BPO, APO
Andrew why do you ask about that? Well Bella I have thought I heard his mind many times over the last few weeks maybe month. You can hear Edward?
No Bells honey I'm sorry I mean you're and his son's you are carrying right now. I have seen you with him and thought I was seeing sometime in the future. I just didn't think it was the close future. I also didn't think Edward could father a child but as I see and hear he has and can.
Edward doesn't know about him yet maybe you should try and find him and tell him. Honey I just want what is best for the both of you. I mean you and the baby. Bella I love you like you are my family now and I will always be here for you both.
Andrew are you sure but before he could answer I was hugging the toilet again. Thank you Andrew I smiles and he handed me a drink of water and some crackers. What a great friend you are to me and I love you like you are family also. I was so happy about the new and that Andrew only loves me like that.
I can't love anyone ever again Edward has my heart and always will. Wow, a baby I should go to the doctors but I know Andrew is right he always is. I got up and got a shower and brushed my teeth .I wanted to call Angela she needed to know. She has been a rock for me over the last four months.
I hope she will come with me when I tell Charlie. Then I remembered Kori was hunting and didn't know yet about my son, my son.
A(ndrew)PO
I hated not to tell Bella we knew who she was before we came here. She would just die if she knew we know the Cullen's. Also that Kori and I were asked to come here. I do see why they all love her so much. She is really a great person. Bells would have made a great vampire (I only wish Edward would have seen it) too bad we can't change her after the baby comes. I know it will be a fight but I will however if it means she will get to stay alive (how funny she would be a live but not really) for her son. Beside she will be a great little sister for our coven.
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Chapter eight
Kori, Bella called I just have to have her hear me I want to tell her the good news. Kori, Andrew said in a low voice that Bella could not hear. Kori Bella is having a baby, his baby you should let them know they may want to come back for her. Thanks Andrew Kori thought I will and I know they will want to know is Bella taking it? She is over the moon happy to have a part of Edward with her. She never said that but I can feel it. She loves him so much I don't know how he can stay away from her. Does he know we are even here yet? Andrew I will be home soon we can talk then.
KPO
Yea I am here sorry Andrew was telling me something that you need to know and so does he. Andrew doesn't understand how Edward can stay away from her. No he is not in love with her, he just loves her and well her baby. Are you still there did you hear me? Bella is having a baby .She is a little over four months right before we got here by days. He said it is Edwards she has not been with anyone else. I can tell you she doesn't see anyone else even when they are looking right at her.
Yeah, we have chased Jacob Black away on more than one time. He thinks we are hurting her and making her stay around us .He just don't get that she doesn't love him or want him. Don't growl at me, I didn't tell Edward to leave. I know you didn't want to leave either but he made this choice and you followed .I was just here to pick up the piece that is what you ask of us wasn't it? Now we love her and we are not leaving her or her baby.
They will need us and Andrew said if the baby kills her he will change her. She is someone he doesn't want to live without. Bella reminds him of his younger sister before he was changed and will not lose her again. Well come back then, No Andrew don't even know who ask us to come here he just did because he hated Greenland and penguins.
I will tell him if you want but the less he knows that better I think he wants to tell Bella the truth .Yes I told you they are that close. Ok, I will call you in a few weeks when I find out more about the baby. Bye Rose by Emmet take care till later. Then I shut my phone and ran home. Sorry Bella I got here as soon as I could what is going on?
BPO
Kori, I am going to have a baby a son. Andrew saw him and can hear him. Even though Edward left me he left me with the best part of himself a son .Now I will always a part of my family ,I sorry I didn't mean you guys aren't family you are but I mean them the Cullen's .Esme would have loved him so much. I know she would have. They all would have well maybe not Rose she hated me.
Rose thought I would do or say something to bring unwanted attention to them but I didn't and I never would have, I loved them all even her .I miss them all so much ,of course this brought on the tears that I try so hard not to show. I need to go home and tell Charlie about the baby. I also need to figure out what I am going to do with my life.
I can't just stay here forever; I need a job and a future for my son. So I got into my truck and went to pick up Angela and off to tell Charlie. Angela ask what am I going to do .I told her I think I am going to go to college for a literary degree so I can get a good job to raise my son. She ask how I knew it was a boy, I said just a felling then smiled because Andrew had told me he was a boy. She laughed and asks if I had any name and I told her I have one for a son but I had to think of one for a girl. She said you can always call her Angela Alice or Angela Rene. By this time we were at my house .Man I hated to do this what if Charlie thinks he did a bad job as a father or something.
This was all me, well all me and Edward but he wasn't here and I had to tell him. In the long run he would be happy he would have a grandson he could take fishing and stuff. I sure hope my dad had some food I am starving .I smelled the eggs he was cooking when Angela and I walked in. Hey dad, can I have some of those also they smell great.
He got out two more plates and made Angela and I some eggs and toast. Dad I said between bites I need to talk to you about a few things and Angela is here to make sure you are alright and I am still alive after I talk to you. He set up a little straighter in his out worn out chair and gave me his attention.
Dad I started off a little scared, I want to go to the community college here in Forks. That wasn't so bad he smiled at me .I want to take English literary classes maybe be a teachers ad or something. Bells that will be great why would I be mad or kill you over that I would love to have you close by me. You haven't been here that long and I well I missed you when you weren't here. Well dad there is more I need to tell you can you please stop cleaning your gun and put it down. So I started off you know how much I love Edward, No dad let me finishes first then you can speak.
Well a few days before they left Edward and I went to our spot and we made love and I just found out I am almost 5 months pregnant with his baby.
Breathe dad breath, you are going to be a grandfather and we are going to need you. After his face turned back to white from the deep purple and he took his hand away from his gun he was going to be ok with this. So dad now you can ask me whatever it is you need to know I will tell you anything you ask.
My dad started off by asking me if I knew where they and he meant Edward was at. Of course I don't dad, he don't love me and doesn't want to be with me any more they left remember. Then he wanted to know if I was going to try to find him. He said Edward should be told. I told him I would be fine without him (this made my hole open up and almost consume me with grief )I have you and Angela and Ben and Kori and Andrew he is being great dad I am lucky to have such great friends.
Andrew even said he would help anyway he could for me or my son. Then he asks you having a son? Well that is what I think dad. I hope it looks just like Edward and not like me I am just so plain. Bella you better never put yourself down in front of me again Angela and my dad yelled at the same time. You are going to be better off now any ways Angela said with a smile trying to make me believe it .what will you name him Bella my dad ask. I think Mason Anthony Charles Swan.
What if it's a girl Bells? Angela laughed and answered well of course Angela after me one of her best friends ever. Charlie thought that was funny also. That was that, my dad was told and I was allowed to walk away .Charlie was hopping for that grandson.
He was already talking about fishing poles and where he wanted to take him. Off to the local community college to in role. I put in a request for financial aid for a single mother to be. Then I called my doctor to set up an appointment with him to confirm what I already knew to be true.
I'm having a baby. …………………………
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Disclaimer I don't own Twilight SM does. I just want to play in her world for a while. Hope you enjoyed my story so far please read on and review. Thank you.
