Have you ever fallen' for your best friend? You want something so much that it hurts. You know that you can never be with her. The reason why is because you feel for them in a way that is wrong to some people. She is taken and technically so is you. You love your husband but there is a part of you that wants her. You think that one day the feelings will go especially since you know that she will never want you. They don't, they just get worse what do you do. You think and hope that eventually the feelings will dull and you want have to think about again.
All you think about is your skin against hers. How soft she is. You can't help but want to touch her. The kiss is just as soft. Nothing like a man. At first you expect it to be rough and demanding. Then it changes, it becomes slow, soft, sensual. You want more you just don't know how to tell her. You don't want her to run away. As you kiss her you know that your want is going to come to the surface as you push he up against the wall. As the kisses get more rushed and demanding you struggling to breathe and to stand. Your legs start to feel like jelly but you don't want to stop; you don't want the connection to be broken….Then you wake in a cold sweat and realize it was all a dream. Everything was so real and in that moment you know you have a major problem.
You have seen her in your dreams. You felt her, touched her and kissed her. You have made love to her. All in your dreams. Your skin still tingles from the effect of the dream. When you close your eyes you can see yourself touch her. You fingertips run down her curves like whispers over an ear. You hear her breath catch in her throat when you skim her arms. You open your eyes and your back to reality. Your problem has just got worse.
You wake up sweating you can't believe the dreams have gotten worse. Now not only are you dreaming about the sex but also the life you could have. You know the dream the wife, 2.5 kids, white picket fence kind of dream. You can still remember it so vividly.
"Hey babe, I'm home." You say as you come home from a hard day of work.
"Be right there, give me a sec." She says from the kitchen. You flop down on the couch expecting her to be there in a minute. What you don't expect is the little boy to come running up to you.
"Mommy!" he shouts as he jumps up onto your lap. Then you realize that you are not as surprised as you thought you would be.
"Hey, buddy how was school?" You ask as he gives you a big bear hug.
"It was great. I got to hold a tarantula." He says with this huge grin on his face.
"And now he is supposed to be doing homework." She says as she comes into the living room. She gives a smile and you can't help but feel the warmth spread all through you.
"Yes mama." He says as he jumps off your lap to go up to his room to work on homework.
"Your too hard on him." You say with a smile on your face.
"I'm too hard on him. If I wasn't you would let him do his homework at midnight like you did." She says as she bends down to give you a kiss.
You can't help but moan into the kiss. Everything about her is what you want. You love the way she is with him and love the way she is with you. She has no judgment towards you. It is perfect.
Then you wake up and you can't help but be a little disappointed that it was just a dream.
I want you to myself. I want you, all of you. Not an hour here or an hour there. Not time that is spent around a ton of people. I want you and I want you to want me. I want to take you out and be able to hold your hand and you not pull away. I want you to be proud of being with me. I don't want to hide in the background. I don't want to be that person that is hidden away for your pleasure. I don't want to be there for the amusement of other people. I want to be the person who helps you heal. I want to be the one to chase away all your fears.
Have you ever wanted something that hurts so badly? I feel that way now. I know that I want you but he has you and it hurts.
You dreamed of her again. She was just as beautiful in your dreams as she is in real life. The thing is everything you do in your dreams is just a tip of the iceberg of what you would do in real life with her.
