Why weren't you there?
Snape/Lupin
Chapter one- Turn a blind eye.
"Oi, Snivellus, how'd you like me to turn you into a flobberworm?"
Severus Snape walked on, keeping his head down, eyes fixed on the uneven pave-stones beneath his feet.
"Snivellus! Prongs just asked you a question, I suggest you answer it."
Snape continued walking, praying silently that for once, just once, they'd let it go. Maybe this time Potter's cronies would let him cross the courtyard without hexing him.
"Levicorpus!"
Snape felt his legs fly out from under him as he was jerked upside-down, his head narrowly missing the floor. Perhaps not...
"Potter! Stupe..."
"Expelliarmus!" Yelled Sirius
Snape's wand flew out of his hand before he had chance to complete the hex, and fell onto the hard stone floor. A shower of blue sparks erupted from the tip.
"Wormtail. Pick it up." Ordered James, and Peter Pettigrew hurriedly scrambled across the stones and grabbed the fallen wand.
"At least" thought Snape as he hovered upside-down in midair with his robes covering his chin and nose "at least I've got trousers on this time" He shot a pleading look at the quiet boy standing behind Sirius Black, begging with his eyes for him to do something. Sirius saw the look and frowned, turning to the boy behind him.
"Hey Moony, why is Snivelly looking at you like that?"
Remus Lupin tore his eyes away from Snape's, and gave Sirius a bored look.
"Dunno mate, maybe he expects me to help him." He replied, looking disinterested.
"Yeah, maybe he thinks you care about him."
"Maybe he wants you to be his friend!" squealed Wormtail.
"No, I've got it" A spiteful look came into James Potter's eyes "He wants you to be his Boyfriend!"
Sirius let out a bark of laughter, and Wormtail erupted into a fit of giggles, and fell to the floor. Lupin gasped in shock, but quickly covered up his surprise with a splutter of laughter. Snape looked horrified, and shot a hurt look at Lupin, who was still laughing with Sirius. Lupin returned his gaze, silently apologising, and hoping that Snape would understand.
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"But why!" Yelled Snape. "Whywon't you do anything about it? You always come to me afterwards, apologising, pleading, kissing, but you never do anything to help when it's happening! Sometimes I doubt that you care about me at all!" Snape turned away.
"That's not true! Of course I care Sev, it's just that…oh, you know what Sirius would say!"replied Lupin, grabbing Snape's hand and pulling him back.
"Bollocks!" spat Snape "Bollocks to what Black says, and Potter too! Remus, I don't get how you can hang around with them!"
"They're my friends, Sev!" Cried Lupin
"Some friends!" Snape shouted back "You can't even tell them you're gay! Remus, you're not supposed to be scared of your friends. And friends don't try to kill your boyfriend!"
Lupin looked at the enraged boy in front of him, suddenly furious.
"Now that's not Fair Severus! You know that was a mistake, Sirius never intended to try to kill you."
"But he almost did, whether he meant to or not. And I hate owing my life to Potter! I would rather have died!"
Snape stepped towards Lupin, fists tightly clenched. He stared into the other boy's eyes.
"You don't mean that." Said Lupin, looking away.
Snape sighed, and relaxed his hands. "No. You're right, I don't. I wish He had died. And Black too." He grabbed Lupin's shoulders "Because then, you wouldn't need to be afraid. Neither of us would."
Lupin gasped, and Snape realized he had been squeezing his shoulders harder then he intended. He relaxed his grip, and pulled his lover into a hug.
"I'm sorry" he said tenderly "I'm just frustrated with Black and Potter, and I'm taking it out on you."
Lupin kissed Snape on the cheek. "I don't want to loose you." He whispered.
In the shadows, just behind Remus Lupin, a small brown rat scampered off to report his discovery to his two friends, waiting for him in the Gryffindor common room.
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I may continue this, I may not. Depends on how long my inspiration stays around for. It eats reviews (Hint hint =p) and doesn't mind constructive criticism.
