~Just a short Janto fanfic i wrote a while back after completing torchwood. this episode made my cry so i was like "lets make it even more heartbreaking". this is my first Janto yaoi and i wrote it a long time ago so i apologize for grammer mistakes and spelling issues and im sorry if it sucks lol~
jack is a difficult person to deal with. he is very secrative, always hiding something. i guess that is what drew me to him in the beginning, that mysterious aura he emits. Plus, he is etremely atractive.
i wasn't gay at first, but then i met him. oh that coat of his fit him so well. even now, as i cling desperatly onto life in his arms, i admire the way the thick wool suctions to his tight form. it makes him look important. and he is important. at least to me. i need him, i love him. jack never told me that he loved me. i always knew deep down that i probably wasn't the one he loved, but i still had hope that maybe, just maybe, the man i loved, the man that i shared everything with, could return my feelings.
Feelings. Jack isn't very open about those. but sometimes, when we are alone together, i can see into his eyes. i can see the fear, he longing, the sandess and the joy that he constantly masks. Even though when i first met him, i had lisa, some part of me yearned for him, longed for the softness of his lips and the touch of his skin on mine. it was only after lisa had died that i finally got to enjoy that sensation.
i have always been jealous of gwen cooper. i'm not stupid, i can see the way Jack looks at her. but right now, as i look into his remorseful eyes, i see that she meant nothing to him. Gwen has Rhys and Jack had me.
As i lay on the floor of the room containing 456's cage, i can see the truth, the he did love me, he always had. I can see ever emotion he ever felt twards me. My vision begins to fade, "I... I love you, Jack." it is all the words i have the strength left to say. I am in so much pain, and yet there is this silent numbness that has begun to creep over me. I wanted to mask my pain, but i didnt know how well i was. I don't want jack to see me this way...
Then it hit me like a brick in the face. I was dying. This is it... I'll never see Jack again. I'll never feel his warmth. Tears began to fall down Jack's face. I focused on them, watching the salty liquid drip down his face, leaving wet streaks in their path. It is so cold and numb. I felt Jack's lips on mine. I manage just enough strength to smile one last time before my body falls limp. My vision fades to darkness, and then i died...
