Author's Note: So this is the new edited version of the Preface :) I hope you enjoy it and give my story a chance. I would like to thank my wonderful beta Madame Apathy for her suggestions and comments aswell as the general beta-ing :D.
Disclaimer:I owe nothing, SM does.
Preface
"You promised! In Phoenix, you promised that you would stay-"
"As long as that was best for you."
"No! This is about my soul isn't it? Carlisle told me about that, and I don't care, Edward. I don't care! You can have my soul. I don't want it without you-it's yours already!"
"Bella, I don't want you to come with me."
"You…don't…want…me?"
"No."
Bella's eyes snapped open, her heart pounding so hard she could hear it. Helplessly she tried to calm her elevated breathing –as she did every single night. Every single night since that night…
Grudgingly, Bella got out of bed and started to get dressed. Her hands seemed to know what they were doing-like this was nothing more than routine. And in all fairness that was exactly all it was…routine.
The tiny bit of her brain which governed the movement of her hands and body to do these simple tasks was not enough to distract her. The rest of her mind was encased in a cell of pain and heart ache. Which seemed strange to Bella because she felt she had no heart – not anymore.
Bella walked out into the hall and something caught her eye – her reflection. She stared at the clean, reflective glass in disbelief. The girl didn't look human. How ironic since the reason he claimed to leave her for was so she could stay human. But his leaving had made her into a monster; into something in-human.
Her skin once radiant and flushed was now blotchy and pale, her eyes were now dead. No sparkle. No emotion. They were just black and dead. Almost like vampires…
That was why Bella had avoided her reflection, not because she looked bad, but because she liked it. It reminded her of the animal that had made her into this-this thing. Because she knew, no she believed-that what happened that day was the result of the animal inside the man she so helplessly loved.
She hated it. But the it she hated, with just as much passion as she loved him with, was ultimately part of the same man. But oh did she wish she could change that. She wished she could rid him of that monster.
She had become tired…so very tired of these feelings. She was slowly losing her battle with the gaping hole in her heart. Maybe she should give up…
But she couldn't. She wouldn't.
For six months now she had kept up the battle and she wouldn't give up. Because she had the greatest warrior on her side to battle against the despair that threatened to drown her, and that warrior was hope.
