Title: Five Times

Author: scgirl_317

Genre: Romance, with a plentiful helping of Angst

Summary: There were five times Lee Adama lost Kara Thrace, and one time he didn't. Series of episode tags spanning all four seasons.


Search and Rescue

Tag for "You Can't Go Home Again"

Shot down.

Those words repeated in his head, over and over like a broken record. Shot down, but not destroyed.

Not destroyed.

That meant there was still hope. This was Starbuck after all. She had pulled off crazier stunts and lived. If she survived this then that meant she was running out of oxygen. Time was running out. He wasn't leaving until they found her.

His one consolation, when he actually stopped to think about it, was that his father was as driven as he was to rescue her. Despite Tigh's grumbling and the President's gentle prodding, he refused to jump the fleet.

Lee was no better, and he knew it. The pilots were starting to cast glances at him that were usually reserved for the mentally unstable. The constant rotation of SAR birds was wearing them down, him doubly so, as he appointed himself double shifts. And the constant flight was doing nothing to help their fuel reserves. Tylium wasn't exactly an abundant commodity, and yet, the Adamas were spending it like it was going out of style.

They were teetering on the edge. He knew it. Everyone else knew it. But there was nothing he could do about it. People were starting to cast sideways glances in the corridors, whispering how the Adamas had lost it over Starbuck. He knew they thought he was crazy. He knew they thought his father was crazy.

He didn't give a flying frak what they thought.

He refused to give up until they found her, alive or… Nope that was it. She was alive, and he would continue to believe so until he was presented with her corpse.

Racetrack took pity on him and suggested he try to get some rest. He proceeded to tell her to frak off and get her raptor in the air before he had her locked in the brig. He would have to remember to apologize for that, later.

All he could think about was finding Starbuck.