Sorry for any spelling or grammar mistakes. English isn`t my native language..
Pale,nearly white skin, long fingers covered in red. I slowly lift it to my face...I haven`t looked in a mirror for so long... fingers touch the skin, red, butterfly shaped spot appears on my cheek... I want to run, to scream, to crash everything, but all I can is paint...paint it red ...draw the wings that can`t fly...butterflies that are soulless. Tears roll down my cheeks..the red paint drips down my neck. I don`t care. I am something despicable now...a traitor.
I want to forget, to pretend that it`s not true...that I haven`t betrayed the dearest one in my life... I am too tired to think or feel anymore..my eyes are closing,crismson butterflies fly around me... the floor is cold.
Footsteps coming closer to my room wake me up...Is it him? Has he come to punish me? To say that I am worthless and than leave me behind..
"Soubi! Soubi!"
It`s his voice ..the voice of my sacrefise. It hurts, but I still open my eyes. Did this really happen? why are the walls red? All those butterflies seem to be bleeding in the air..
"Soubi please, you should get up..what happened? why do you look like this?..the walls.."
He looks scared and it is only natural..I must look horrible. As ugly as I am inside..
"Forgive me.." It sounds so broken from my lips, I tremble and he holds me.
"Soubi is this beacuse of Semei? what are you aplogizing for?"
He doesn`t even thinks it`s my fault.. I feel only giultier now..
" Ritsuka ..I have betraid you..a traitor.. he is right"
He slaps me suddenly ...I slowly open my eyes to see his beautiful ones filled with tears..
"You`re stupid Soubi!..so stupid!
why do you have to belive everything he says?.. you really can`t trust me that much?"
He is looking down at my red hands, then into my eyes..his gaze is warming me.
"Ritsuka..."
I am hugged suddenly and I can`t help, but relax against his little chest..His heartbeat calms me down..His little fingers are combing through my hair..sometimes I can`t believe that he is so gentle with me..That he isn`t afraid to touch something as filthy as I..
"Soubi.." He says after a long silence
"Even if you betray me someday...I will forgive you"
Two burning drops roll down my cheeks and wet his shirt..the walls are turning white..red butterflies dissapear.
want a bloody cookie?...
