Bright lights. Loud talking. Suddenly everybody was looking at me. I just came out with it. I'm gay I blurted out. All except four wore shocked expressions.
I nearly ran but I was too scared. Somebody coughed. " Um we'll be right back after these commerical messages. Stay right here and don't go nowhere." The camera turned off. Silence.
" So...is it true?" I couldn't say a word and Gusti said it for me. The way that yes sounded was almost a bit too happy for me but obviously not for the inteveiwer because he pointidly ignored his face.
" Yeah. Okay. Well I have to go talk to lighting about the way my face looked. I'll be back. Don't move."
Gusti, always the comforting one, put a hand on my back and rubbed small circles all over. When the interveiwer came back from wherever he was Gusti's hand went from my back to my hand and he squezzed tight. He did'nt let go even when we went back on air. " We are back with Tokio Hotel and we have just heard some news that is sure to rock the fans. Bill is gay and he is sitting here to answer some of you most pressing questions."
" Bill how long have you know?" Not understanding his question I asked him known what. " Know that you were gay." " Do you really want me to answer that?" " Yes I do."
" I think that what Bill means is that it was always there and he knew it, he just didn't know what to call it at the time." Smiling for the first time that afternoon, I tried to answer the question the interveiwer had given me. " It was a couple years ago when I really started to look around me." Gusti smiled, or his lips turned slightly up and then went almost instantly back down. But I think that he smiled.
" So Bill any boyfriends?" Roxas, who had his hand over his eyes with a look of complete boredom, laughed really loudly. " Sorry, keep going." " Yes I do." " Who is the lucky guy?"
" Gustav Schafer." This once again rocked the crowd. " Wow. I would not have guessed that. But the hand kinda gave me a clue."
" Ok people that is all for today leave comments online telling me what you thought of the show. Tune in tommorow for the interveiw with Bushido. Good day Deustchland!
