chapter 1
its been months since edward left and i am still alive and human lately i have discovered that i feel betre when i sing. i have written a couple of songs and tonight i hope i will be discoverd by a scout this is my first gig i waited to be called on stage " and now for our listening pleasure i present Bella Jackson" i ran out on stage with a big smile plastered on my face "are you guys ready to rock tonight!" i began to sing one of my favorite songs going under i wrote this a week after he left i began to sing
Now I will tell you what I've done for you -
50 thousand tears I've cried.
Screaming, deceiving and bleeding for you -
And you still won't hear me.
(going under)
Don't want your hand this time - I'll save myself.
Maybe I'll wake up for once (wake up for once)
Not tormented daily defeated by you
Just when I thought I'd reached the bottom
I'm Dying again
I'm going under (going under)
Drowning in you (drowning in you)
I'm falling forever (falling forever)
I've got to break through
I'm going under
Blurring and stirring - the truth and the lies.
(So I don't know what's real) So I don't know what's real and what's not (and what's not)
Always confusing the thoughts in my head
So I can't trust myself anymore
I'm Dying again
I'm going under (going under)
Drowning in you (drowning in you)
I'm falling forever (falling forever)
I've got to break through
I'm...
So go on and scream
Scream at me I'm so far away (so far away)
I won't be broken again (again)
I've got to breathe - I can't keep going under
I'm Dying again
I'm going under (going under)
Drowning in you (drowning in you)
I'm falling forever (falling forever)
I've got to break through
I'm going under (going under)
I'm going under (drowning in you)
I'm going under
the song ended and the crowed went wild screaming encor encor i sang another song and thats how Bella Jackson became famous i went off stage a scout was there waiting for me "miss Jackson i think you were great and i would like to hear you in a studio" befor he could say more i piped up "yes! i would love that" he handed me his card and left i was so exited but now it was time to go home and to go to bed wich means nightmares and tears i got out of my chevy and let myself inside. charlie had died recently of a heart attack so the house is completly mine i draped my leather jacket over the couch and climbed the stairs to my room i got myself undressed and sat up trying fight the urge to go to sleep but i soon gave up and laid myself down and let the pain tears and nightmares engulf me
