I dont own Star Trek or Rent. This storie is based on the deleted scene goodbye love. All mistakes are mine.
James Kirk walked to sick bay, It was the last place where he had to go in order to make his last papers valid under federation law. He was leaving to take command of an intrepid class space ship during a two year mission in the gamma quadrant. That was exactly what he needed, the adventures and new challenges he would face in those unknown territories, away from federation diplomats, Klingons and of course a quadrant away from his terribly annoying ex-boyfriend, the former first officer commander Spock, who now was, thanks to Jim the second science officer onboard, but honestly the Vulcan deserved all of Jim´s hate.
With those thoughts in mind he entered sickbay, holding in his right hand the padd with the orders that would give him freedom.
McCoy was waiting for him.
"Jim, are you sure of this?" The doctor asked as soon as James handed him his new orders.
"Yes"
"Are you doing all of this just to scape…?"
"Don't you dare to lecture me, Bones" He hissed "There is nothing left for me here and you know it"
"What about Spock?" McCoy screamed, almost turning red from the anger, his whole body tense
"Spock had his chance and he ruined it"
There was an awkward silence, both men stared at each other, both way too stubborn to admit defeat, until Bones finally signed his papers, resignation clear in his eyes.
"He still loves you, you know?" The doctor said staring at the wall "He has lost a lot of weight in the last few weeks, he isn't sleeping. Are you really angry or scared because he is sick?"
"He did look awful yesterday… "
"Spock is running out of time, and the one person who should be there for him is leaving to chaise adventure around the galaxy"
"Look I have to go" James replied "Goodbye Bones"
He walked out of sick bay to find Spock standing outside; he looked so thin that Jim thought he might vanish into the air, his brown eyes looked so tired and sad…
"You heard?" He asked hesitating for a moment.
"Every word" The Vulcan replied, his voice merely a soft painful whisper "I understand James, you never asked for this responsibility now I know I am nothing but a burden to you"
James kept walking toward the turbolift, listening to the Vulcan´s soft movements following him to the transporter room.
The turbolift raid never felt so long and awkward, the silence was unpleasant but James wasn't sure if he wanted to speak, not now that he had managed to keep himself angry with the Vulcan for so long. He knew that if he stayed longer than necessary he wouldn't have the strength to do it later.
The transporter room was empty, Spock took his place behind the console and began entering the star base coordinates.
"James I came here to tell you something"
"You know I have to go"
"That is not what I had in mind" Spock said, his voice so sad it almost broke Jim´s heart "Goodbye love…"
"Energize"
Spock stayed alone in the transporter room, staring at the space where Jim was only moments ago.
"Goodbye love" He said "Hello disease"
