Hey. So I'm back with another story!

Everything is pretty much back to normal with me so I thought I would upload another story along with updating my stories..

This story is kind of based on the song "How do you get that lonely" by Blaine Larson. The song is about suicide but when I watched the music video, it showed all of the loved ones of the guy that committed suicide driving to the funeral and it got me thinking.

This story is also mildly based off of some things in my life. But they are things in the past so let's get on with it!

Enjoy!

Disclaimer: I don't own anything but my own ideas, a new TV and some pretty picture frames.

BPOV:

I ran. I just ran. I didn't look back and I didn't think. My mind was blank. Fog. That's All I saw for what felt like an hour. When I finally stopped I had to remember why I was here. Oh yeah. I couldn't deal with this right now. Why would he do this to me?

I woke up to light shining on my face and a blanket on top of me. Where am I? I quickly tried to remember where I had ended up last night. I remember crying myself to sleep and the soft grass beneath me. After that I have no memories of what had happened.

I started to panic when I heard a door handle turn and a door open. I looked quickly around the room and it looked oddly familiar. Almost like…ALICE'S! I was brought out of my thoughts when Alice entered the room just like expected.

" Hey, Hunny. How do you feel? Did you sleep good? Do you want any water? Or food?" Alice quickly said but soon stopped when she saw my face. I felt tears well up in my eyes but I wasn't sure why. I looked away so Alice didn't see.

"What happened, Alice? I don't remember anything. Why am I here?" I was almost afraid of the answer so when she opened her mouth to talk I looked down at my hands.

"Bella, do you really not remember anything? Anything about your mom or dad? Michael?" She was talking quietly and it made me wonder wh—

Memories of myself running out of my house and my mom yelling to me to come back and my dad chasing me. They all came back. One part especially.

"Alice? Did…Where is… Alice is Michal alright? Where is he?" Even thought I thought I knew the answer I didn't want to believe it. Alice quickly walked over the bed, where I was now all the way uncovered and pulled me into a hug. Her embrace was filled with love, sadness, and pure agony.

"Oh, Bella. You want me to start from the beginning. Nothing will make much sense to you if I just tell you." She cradled my head against her shoulder and I nodded my head.

" Well, last night we got a call from Renee. She said you had run away, she sounded like she was crying and we could hear Charlie in the background. She didn't say what happened, she just asked for us to come help find you. We were driving around town and I finally saw you curled up on the grass in front of greenwood cemetery…" She paused and waited for everything to soak in before she started talking again. Silent tears rolled down my face as she talked about the cemetery.

"We called your parents and I told them you would just stay with me. They were fine with it but told me to have you call them in the morning. They're devastated, Bella. Last Night when we were talking to your parents, they told Carlisle why you had run off. Bella, Michael died last night." It was true. I had remember correctly and now my brother was dead. Why would he do this? The image of the rope hanging from the ceiling will forever stay in my mind.

"Alice? Can I just go back to sleep? Call my parents and tell them I'll call them later. Thank you." She nodded and left silently leaving me alone to cry myself to sleep again.

I woke up again and then sun was setting. Earlier came crashing down on me and I remembered I had to call my parents. I look around and couldn't find my cell phone so I reluctantly got up and made my way downstairs.

"Alice, when do you think she'll come out? She's been in there for several hours since you left her. Maybe you should go check on her." Esme's soothing voice floating through the air and I quietly stepped into the room.

Carlisle sat in his big leather chair with a look of concentration on his face, Esme and Alice we sitting side by side on the loveseat and Alice's brother, Edward, who I only ever saw but once or twice due to the fact that he's never home, was sitting on the long couch in the back of the room with a look of concern etched on his face also.

"No, Esme, it's fine. I'm up." I forced a smile and looked down at my feet while everyone else looked at me. The first thing I saw was Esme's feet near mine and then I felt her arms embrace me.

"Oh, you're up. How are you feeling, Bella?" She pulled back to look at my face and silently waited while I thought about her question.

"I'm…okay. I just didn't know where my phone was. I need to call my parents, if that's alright."

"Of course, Bella. It's in the kitchen with your coat. Do you want me to get you anything?"

"No thanks. I'll just go call my parents." I went to turn away but Carlisle started speaking to me.

"Bella, you know if it's too hard to go back home or if it's too soon, you know you could stay here with Alice. Friends always make everything seem better." I smiled at his offer and then imagined walking though the front door of my house. If you went down the hall and to the left, Michael's room would be right there. It's hard to miss. I started to tear up again and then quickly answered.

"Thank you, Carlisle. That's very generous. I might take you up on that offer." I then went to the kitchen to retrieve my cell phone.

"Mom, I know you want me home, but it might be good for you and dad to get out of the house for awhile too. I just can't go back there yet. I can't get the image out of my head."

"I know, Hunny. But I just can't leave. You can stay at Alice's but I still want to see you. We get through this together. Alright?" Renee's voice was gentle but firm and all I wanted was to jump into my fathers arm and curl up just like I used to do when I was younger. I heard footsteps behind my and they were definitely heavier than Alice or Esme so I quickly ended the conversation with my mother.

"Look mom, I'll call later. Tell dad I love him and I'll see you guys soon. Bye." I closed my phone and slowly started to turn around.

Edward was standing near the fridge and just barely looking at me.

"Was that your mom? Are you going to stay here?" He fired off questions, and though he seemed nervous, he stopped himself and shook his head, " Sorry, that was really rude. You don't have to answer."

"No, it's alright. Yeah, that was my mom. I think I'm going to stay here for awhile. I don't think I can go back there yet."

"Oh, cool," He actually seemed satisfied but started talking again, "So, I don't know if you'd be up to it but Alice and I were going to watch a few movies tonight while Carlisle and Esme are out. Do you want to watch them with us?" He seemed hopeful but was probably just trying to cheer me up.

"Um, I don't know. I guess I will if you guy's don't mind me." I smiled at him then he grinned at me and said,

" Cool, they're leaving in an hour and we're going to order pizza."

"Sounds good, I'll just go up and take a shower then." I silently cursed at myself for saying that last part. Did he really need to know you were going to take a shower, Bella? You probably grossed him out.

I quickly took a shower and went downstairs where I heard Alice and Edward in the living room and Esme and Carlisle's car backing down the driveway. I walked into the living room and saw a pizza sitting there on the coffee table and some drinks next to it.

"Hey, Bella. Guess what we're making Edward watch?" Alice was gentle but still excited as she made me guess.

"I don't know, a chick flick?" I saw Edward cringe at the mention of Chick Flick and I knew I had to be pretty close.

"Close! Fried Green Tomatoes! Don't you love that movie?"

"Alice.. Don't you think that's a little mean? We could watch an action movie or something. I wouldn't mind. I saw Edward look at me from the side of my eye and he smirked.

"It's okay, Bella. I don't mind. It's not the first time she's made me watch it with her." I laughed awkwardly and eyed Edward's hand patting the spot between him and Alice on the couch. I slowly walked over and got comfortable when I saw Edward's shoulders relax. Alice took a piece of pizza and played the movie.

I was hardly paying attention to the movie but I tried to. Somehow, I finally got my mind into the movie and it was right at that one part. The train tracks. At first I didn't see or hear anything. Then I saw Edward leap forward for the remote and Alice spit out the soda she had in her mouth. I fought hard to keep the tears inside but one silently escaped down my cheek.

We sat there for a minute, Edward still standing up holding the remote with the movie stopped and Alice just sitting there looking at me. I contemplated playing it off cool or just letting it all out but Alice started talking first.

"Sorry, Bells. I kind of forgot about that part. We can watch a different movie if you'd like. Or we could go up to bed." I decided not to ruin the fun for them and reasoned with myself that I was just being a baby and the worst part was over.

"No, it's really okay. Lets just finish the movie. I'm fine. Really." Alice agreed and took the remote from Edward but Edward didn't look convinced at all. He must have seen my face and decided not to push it because he came and sat back down. This time he sat a little closer to me and lightly put his arm around the back of the couch effectively putting his hand on my shoulder too.

Alice put her hand on my arm and lightly leaned against me while Edward rubbed my shoulder with his hand. It was oddly comforting. The last thing I thought before I felt myself fall asleep against Edward's side was…I will never forget him. Everything I do will remind me of him no matter how much time has passed. And then I let myself drift off and let Edward hold me.

So I know it was short but it's only the first chapter. It's not supposed to be long. If you like this story, go look at my other ones! I Know there are probably a lot of mistakes in this but I can't bring my lazy fingers to go back and fix everything.

So, Review please because I want to know what people think of the story I came up with in two hours.

Until next chapter(which will hopefully be soon) Bye!