Molly

I knew things hadn't be right with Charles since that last tour. I know he was struggling in trusting his decisions and doubting himself. I tried, I really tried to get him to seek help but he shot down every time telling me I didn't know what I was talking about, didn't know what he'd been though. He wouldn't let me in & became increasing distance and cold. I tried everything I could think of, even suggesting he left the Army and when that had no effect, I said something I will regret for the rest of my life. I said if he kept going as he was then I wasn't sure I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him. I meant it as a threat, stupidly secure in the belief that he loved me, I never once thought that he would tell me he agreed we should split up! I was so shocked, so heartbroken that I didn't know what to say let him end the call. I never thought he would end our marriage over the phone.

I planned on leaving it whilst he was tour and speaking with him face to face on his return but it turns out he had other plans. He rang me the next day to say he thought it would be better if I wasn't in the house when he returned, that I move out. When I tried to speak to him, ask where this had come from, he delivered his bombshell – he had feelings for another woman! What the fuck!

I guess I always knew deep down that I wasn't good enough for him but he had made me believe I was. He was so far out of my league, I hadn't believed that he could truly love me but his repeated declarations broke down all my walls and I eventually believed him, trusted him. I should have trusted my instincts. I know the truth now, he doesn't love me. I was what all his officer friends had said I was, an infatuation. Everyone said our relationship started off too intense to last but I believed him when he said the feelings were there from when he first saw me at Brize, not just a result of me saving his life. Now I just don't know.

What am I going to tell Sam? He was meant to be staying with me next weekend! God I love that boy like my own, I hope Charles lets me stay part of his life.

I wonder who she is? God how long has been cheating on me? I'm soo stupid! He can't have met her on tour so I'm presuming it's someone he's met during his rehab. I bet she's more like Rebecca, smart, well educated, nothing like me. That will please his Dad, he was always pleasant enough but I always suspected I was not want he really wanted in a daughter in law but I will miss his Mum. She welcomed me with open arms, said I was the daughter she never had. I don't think I can face telling her I've let her down, broke my promise to always take care of her son.

Author's note:

Thank you for reading, this is my first fanfiction but the last series didn't sit right with me at all, as I am firming camp Charles & Molly, so this is my way of putting that right.

I think as confident as Molly has been once Charles ends things, all of Molly's insecurities about her background & upbringing would resurface and she wouldn't fight for him with help.