And it´s better if you do
(Snape x Lily x Bellatrix)
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Severus had just entered the castle. His pulled his cloak around himself to keep warm. He just had to get away to think. Why did he feel this way for her? He longed to be near her but knew it was absolutely impossible. He hated feeling this way. Then he saw her. Lily Evans was coming from a hidden corridor. She looked positively beautiful. Severus loved the way her red hair shone in the moonlight and how her brilliant green eyes twinkled when she laughed. When she saw Severus, she quickly walked toward him. She stood in front of him positively radiant. They began to walk together and talk:
-Lily: "Hi Severus. How are things going with you?"
-Severus: "Fine, just getting ready for exams. And you?"
-Lily: "Oh, nothing. Do you want to go to the Owlery with me? I need to send off a letter."
-Severus: (beaming) "Oh, I'd love to."
Severus was happy to spend this time with her. She made his heart flutter when she was near, but he knew she didn't feel the same about him. He would never tell her of his true feeling. Never. His heart couldn't be broken again. He couldn't take that kind of pain anymore.
They made it up to the Owlery in quietness. Lily found an owl and stroked it thoughtfully. Severus loved that about her. She showed compassion for everyone. He stood back while she tied the parchment to the owl's leg and off it flew. They both watched as it flew away. The moon and stars overhead were so clear and beautiful. They turned to one another. Lily's cheeks were flushed and her hair was flaked with snow. Severus began to speak:
-Severus: "It's lovely out."
-Lily: "Yes it is."
There was a long pause in which Severus tried to strike up the nerve to ask Lily out. He was soo nervous! But he had to do it. He cleared his throat:
-Severus: "Lily, I was wondering if you wanted to go with me into Hogsmeade tomorrow."
-Lily: "Oh Severus! I already agreed to go with James. He asked me yesterday. I'm sorry."
Severus was crestfallen. James always got his way, no matter what.
-Severus: "It's perfectly fine. Go-go with James and have a good time. Have a good night Lily."
Before she could say anything else, Severus was gone from the Owlery. He didn't want to talk to anyone when he got to Slytherin common room. He gave the password and the portrait hole opened to reveal the dark dungeon. It was as if Bellatrix Black was waiting for him. She came sat near him and started to chat. Bellatrix felt his sadness and wanted to help him get through anything he was going through.
-Bella: "Severus, you seem quiet. So you wanna go take a walk on the grounds tomorrow?
-Severus: "No, thanks, I've got much to do tomorrow in preparation for the exams."
-Bella: "Oh Severus! You should come out tomorrow! It's going to be nice out and you do need a break from all that studying."
-Severus: (getting up) "I'm just too busy Bella. Maybe another day perhaps?"
-Bella: "Okay, goodnight Severus."
-Severus: "Goodnight."
Severus left the common room and headed upstairs to his bedroom. He didn't feel like doing much tomorrow. He only wanted to sit inside and sulk. He changed into pajamas and got into bed. He began to think of Lily at once and felt infuriated that she would be going to Hogsmeade tomorrow with JAMES POTTER! He threw his pillow on his nightstand, which broke the water pitcher. He quickly ran over to repair it. "Reparo." he muttered. Looking outside at the moon, he found his favorite star, Vega, and sighed. He'd never get the one he loved. Severus got back into bed and fell asleep, only to be interrupted by dreams of Lily.
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Everyone from Slytherin House went out that day, leaving Severus alone. He studied a bit, only to become bored with it. He finally went to the library where he met up with Lucius Malfoy. Severus hated Malfoy but put up with his ignorance. He didn't stop to chat, even though he heard Malfoy calling his name. "Madam Pomfrey will surely scold him." thought Severus with a chuckle. He sat in a secluded area and took out his wand. He used it to trace "SEVERUS & LILY" over and over until he grew tired. Unknowingly, Bellatrix was nearby and she witnessed this. She couldn't believe it! HE LOVED LILY! She left the library unnoticed and headed to Slytherin common room. Her heart felt as if someone had ripped it out of her chest. She sat in an armchair to calm down. She began to cry softly. A few minutes later, Severus entered the common room. Their eyes met momentarily and for that brief second, Severus read Bella's mind.
Severus saw that she was in stricken with pain. He wondered what was wrong but was in no mood to contemplate. He spoke a word of greeting to Bellatrix and continued to his room. Once there, he tried to shake the feelings of love. Lily didn't like Severus. She preferred that prat James. Just the thought made him sick to the stomach! Yet, he couldn't stop thinking of her. He sat on his bed until dinner. He'd see her then, at least.
Now in her room, Bellatrix looked at her reflection in the mirror. She didn't understand. She was pretty. What was it that Lily had that she didn't?! She wanted to scream her soul out, but she got control of herself. She would just confront Severus about this at dinner that night. Where did his heart really lie? And why did he like a mudblood in the first place if he was a pure blood? She wanted answers fast. She just had to know the truth. With that, she dried her tears and left the room, heading to the Great Hall for dinner. As she walked down the corridor, she saw Lily and James walking together. She gasped then smirked. "Great," she thought. "Lily likes James and he and Severus are enemies! If Severus knew how Lily felt about James, he would stop fantasying about her." She continued to walk to the Great Hall feeling her spirits lifting a bit. She took a sit near Severus.
Severus had to get to the Great Hall. He wondered what was Bellatrix up to. He didn't see her when he made his way from the common room. He felt sorry for her because she always seemed to be either angry or sad. "She was either PMSing or Bipolar." thought Severus. She needs a bit cheering up. That Lestrange guy seemed to like her, but she would always say she liked someone else. Who that was, no one knew because Bellatrix kept to herself. Any who, Severus spotted Lily and he also saw James. They were laughing. Lily gave him a quick hug and took her sit near friends. It was opposite him! Lily glanced up and spotted Severus. She gave him a quick smile and continued her conversation. Severus glowed inside.
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Lily had a great time with James that afternoon. They walked to the Three Broomsticks and had a couple of butterbeers together. Yet her mind kept wondering to Severus and what he doing. She felt bad that he had to stay all alone. "Poor thing," she thought. Fortunately, James kept her busy. He liked to talk and soon Sirius Black, Remus Lupin, and Peter Pettigrew joined their table. They were a noisy bunch and it didn't take long for their topic of conversation to fall onto Severus. Lily sighed. "Here we go again." she thought.
-Sirius: "Did you lot see old Snivelius today?"
-James: "As a matter of fact I did. He was walking toward the library. Greasy haired git." Peter laughs.
-Sirius: "What's his problem anyway? Always walking around sulking. Does he ever cheer up? I'd cheer the chap up one good time." Sirius laughs like a bark
-Remus: "Boys, that's quite enough."
-James and Sirius: "Okay…father! (Both laugh)
-Remus: (sarcastically) "Ha ha very funny you too."
Lily grew quite tired of them making fun of poor Severus. He was a sweet person with a kind heart. They didn't understand anything like that. A half hour later, it was time to make their way back to the castle for dinner and Lily couldn't be more happy. She walked slowly along the path to the castle with James. They began to talk.
-Lily: "I had a wonderful time today James."
-James: "Really? Me too."
-Lily: "Yeah, thanks for taking me out with you."
-James: "Anytime Lily. I was wondering if you wanted to come over for the Christmas. You know, and meet my folks? I've told them about you."
-Lily: "Wow! I'd love to James. That'd be wonderful." She gave him a kiss on the cheek.
-James: "Well it's set then. Let's get inside before we freeze to death!"
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Lily was happy. She did like James, but his arrogance was annoying. She would be meeting his parents on Christmas! She couldn't wait to tell her friends! Lily and James continued to walk and Lily glanced back and saw Bellatrix behind them. She had a look of awe on her face. Lily didn't have time to think of her. They made it into the Great Hall, where Lily gave James a quick hug and joined her friends to tell them the news. She glanced up and saw that Severus was sitting at his table and she gave him a quick smile. He smiled back and she saw a faint twinkle in his eyes. She also saw that Bellatrix was sitting next to him and wondered if she liked him. It surely did seem that way. "People in love," Lily thought with a sigh.
Severus was happy to finally get something into his aching stomach. He hadn't eaten all day and really felt hungry. He started to eat some mashed potatoes when he looked up at Lily. She was eating the same thing! She, too, glanced up and caught his eyes again. She smiled and ate a big spoon full and crossed her eyes into a funny face. He chuckled to himself. "She looked beautiful even when she was looking funny," he thought. He began to think about her more and more. She was funny, smart, beautiful, and compassionate. He liked those qualities in people, especially in her. He looked up to the ceiling in the Great Hall and watched as the snow fell. How he would love to kiss her in the moonlight while snow slowly covered them. It was romantic. He looked around himself and surveyed. He wanted to be there, next to Lily, not next to Bellatrix. He, then, glanced at her and she was sitting there with a distant look in her eyes. What was she looking at? What was she thinking about? She glanced at him and smiled. Bellatrix was beautiful too. She had shiny black hair and warm brown eyes. He continued to eat. He decided he'd take a stroll on the grounds tonight.
Bellatrix couldn't help but think about Severus and Lily. She couldn't believe that he felt that way for a mudblood! She sat down next to Severus who was looking at the table where Lily was sitting. "Typical," she thought. She knew he would be looking at her, looking for her. She tried to push the thought out of her mind, but she couldn't. She started to eat, while glancing at Severus. He was still looking at her! And they were both eating mashed potatoes. She watched as Lily made a funny face and heard Severus chuckle. Then Lily glanced at her and then back at her plate. Lily smiled to herself. "OH NO!" Bellatrix thought. "Does she know I like Severus?" Bellatrix sighed. She couldn't possible know. Bellatrix looked off into space, thinking about how her life would be with Severus. She sighed again and Severus looked at her and she smiled. "HE LOOKED AT ME!" she couldn't believe it. But she still had questions to ask him. But did she really want to know the answers?
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At the end of dinner, Lily began to walk toward Severus, but before she got there, James called her back. He wanted to know if she wanted to study with him tomorrow. Lily tried to keep her eyes on Severus, which was difficult because he was walking quickly toward the oak front doors. She told him yes and gave him a quick hug and kiss on the cheek. He smiled at her and walked away. Lily hurriedly moved to the oak front doors and looked out front. Severus was already half way across the lawn! "Damn," she thought. Lily closed the doors behind her and went down the steps. She called after Severus. She wanted to walk along side him. He was beginning to become her best friend, someone she could go and talk to. She wanted to talk to him now. "SEVERUS!" she yelled. He stopped by a weeping willow and waited for her. She ran to catch up. By the time she caught up to him, she was out of breath.
-Lily: "Severus, hey… whew… I'm out of breath!"
Severus just had to get some fresh air. He also wanted to out and look at the stars. It was his only way to calm down and relax while thinking of Lily. He also wanted to get away from Bellatrix. She was acting really weird. She kept dropping her fork and Severus would pick it up and hand it to her. She would take it with a nervous giggle. Why was she acting like this? Maybe it was her hormones. When dinner was over, Severus quickly got up and headed toward the oak front doors. He glanced at Lily for a second and saw that she was talking to James, again. He hated James soo much, but he would go out into the cold air and relax, get it out of his mind. Severus glanced back at the table and saw that Bellatrix was still sitting, looking down at the now empty plate. "Was she still hungry?" he thought. "She could always go to the kitchens and ask the house elves for more. Poor Bella." He was outside now and he took in a deep breath of night air. It cleared his senses-a bit. Lily was still on the brain. He started to walk across the grounds until he heard someone calling his name. "SEVERUS!" He turned around and his heart started beating fast. Lily was calling him. He stopped walking and waited for her. She ran the rest of the way and was out of breath before she even reached him. He smiled at her and waited for her to catch her breath.
-Severus: "Are you okay?"
-Lily: "Yeah… I'm just catching… my breath."
-Severus: "How was your date with James? Did you have a good time?"
-Lily: "It was okay. He asked me out and to meet his parents for Christmas."
-Severus: "Oh." He turned away.
-Lily: "Severus, what's wrong?"
-Severus: "Nothing." He turned and faced her.
Bellatrix was still sitting at the table when Severus got up. She just acted like a total idiot. She kept dropping her fork and laughing nervously. Why did she have to make a complete idiot of herself in front of him? She watched as Severus walked away from her. She watched his gaze go to Lily and saw that she looked at him too. Did they have a secret connection? Bellatrix looked at the table and sighed. She would never love anyone more than she loved Severus, but he didn't love her. So what's a girl to do? She sighed again and decided to go and talk to Severus. She saw that Lily had just left out the doors also. She had to see what was going on. By the time Bellatrix made it outside, she saw that Lily and Severus were talking already. She hid behind a weeping willow. She wanted to know…
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Lily wanted to know why Severus sounded so sad. They were facing each other. Severus' hair fell into a curtain in front of his eyes, concealing them. Lily wanted to know what caused him this pain. She stepped closer to him. She pulled his hand into hers. They were warm.
-Lily: "Severus, what's wrong?"
-Severus: "Nothing Lily. You and James are great together."
-Lily: "Oh, that. Thanks… I'm just concerned about you."
-Severus: "No need to be Lily, I'm okay."
But Lily didn't believe him. He still seemed sad. She had to look into his eyes. His hair was always in the way. Lily stepped closer to Severus and brushed the hair from his face. His eyes were shimmering with sadness and despair.
-Lily: "Severus, tell me what's wrong. Tell me what's on your mind."
-Severus: "I can't Lily. I just can't."
-Lily: "YES YOU CAN JUST TELL ME!"
Severus couldn't believe that Lily was standing and talking with him! She took his hand into her hands. Her hands were warm to the touch. They stood there together. He felt warm inside, yet so cold. He didn't want to hear about James. They were dating, he was sure of it. Lily was going to meet his parents for Christmas and they would all be happy. His heart fell with despair. He didn't know how to react. What could he tell her? That he loved her? That he would love no one but her? No, because he knew she didn't feel the same for him. He knew it, and he would not make a fool of himself.
Bellatrix was so cold and lonely under the weeping willow listening to Severus and Lily talk. She watched as Lily took Severus' hand into her own. Oh how Bellatrix loathe Lily! She couldn't stand her. And she would soon be breaking Severus' heart and Bellatrix would be there to pick up the pieces. She laughed to herself at the mere thought. Bellatrix had to keep focused. Lily was telling Severus about James asking her to meet his parents during Christmas. "Poor Severus," she thought. He was sadder than ever now. She didn't like him looking like that and wanted so badly to make him feel better and happy. SHE WANTED TO BE THE ONE TO CHEER HIM UP! NOT LILY! Again, she had to focus. Lily brushed Severus' hair from his face. She couldn't see his eyes from where she was standing. Lily asked him to tell him what was wrong with him and he said he couldn't. Bellatrix hated her.
-x-
Lily just wanted to know how he felt.
-Lily: "YES YOU CAN SEVERUS!"
Severus had to tell her.
-Severus: "I love you Lily. I've always loved you!"
Bellatrix gasped. She knew he loved her. She was heartbroken.
Lily stared into Severus' eyes and saw that this emotion was true.
Severus looked down into Lily's eyes and they were shimmering. He leaned in to kiss her. He had to kiss her. She wanted to kiss him, too. Lily leaned in, too. But all of a sudden…
Bellatrix couldn't take it anymore! It was as if they had eyes for no one but each other. They were about to kiss. She didn't want him to kiss Lily. SHE WAS A MUDBLOOD! She started to cry. She loved Severus and wanted to be with him. She ran from behind the weeping willow. She had to stop them……………
:) THE END!!!
YAY! I have changed this story up soooo many times until I got to this and decided to keep it just like this. This is my first story and it took me FOREVER to write! I hope you like it. I know I do. I promise something will happen between Severus and Lily, or Severus and Bellatrix, or even LILY AND BELLATRIX? Ohhh j-k I may do it like a soap opera! LEAVE COMMENTS! MUAHHH! –melissa from japan-
