October 31
Lily,
I don't really know how to say any of this. But I guess I'll just flat out say it. I'm sorry. I'm so so sorry Lily. I was a fool and a horrible sister. I don't know why I was so freaked out by you being a witch. I wish I could take back this past decade. I've screwed up so many times. I lost my sister and my best friend. Is there any chance you could ever forgive me?
I know it's a long shot but I can't live with this anymore. It's not your fault mum and dad were killed. That man, whatever his name is, he's a murderer. It was never your fault. And I'm so sorry I ever blamed you.
And I'm sorry I didn't invite you to the wedding. I was going to but Vernon...he said it was a bad idea. That you might screw up my special day. I was afraid Lily. So I believed him. I've always been afraid. Afraid of risks and changes. Afraid of losing you. Afraid of you getting hurt. Afraid of you leaving me.
And I let all of that happen. All of it. I lost you, I hurt you. I'm such a horrid sister.
And I'm sorry for not coming to your wedding. You had the decency to invite me. And I tore the invite up. I tore up the invitation to my own sister's wedding up! Lily, I am so sorry. I'm such a horrible person. I really hope James makes you happy. It seems that he does. I hope he treats you well, better than I ever did. I hope he makes you smile and makes you see how amazing of a person you are.
I want you to meet Dudley. We never gave him god parents and I don't care if Vernon approves but I want you and James to be the god parents. I want him to know his darling Aunt Lily and Uncle James. I've taught him your names. Vernon didn't approve, but I want you back in my life. So slowly I've added you back in.
I don't know where you live but I got in contact with Severus Snape and he gave me your address. He told me about what happened when you were fifteen. I'm so sorry Lily. He was a complete arse. He was begging for your forgiveness. And for my forgiveness. He said he never meant to hurt you. I told him that I wasn't the best person to talk to. And that we haven't really talked since you got your letter. It's been over nine years. And I'm done holding grudges.
Truth is, I've always been jealous. Remember when we were really little and used to pretend to dress up and be witches. You actually got to do magic. I was so jealous. And I was stupid. I took it too far. I don't know why I did that.
Lily, I miss you so much. I want you back in my life. Please forgive me for everything. I'm living at Number 4 Privet Drive in Surrey. I don't mind if you reply by owl. Just please...please answer me Lily. I'm so sorry. I miss you so much.
And I really would love to meet Harry and James. I wish I could have been a bigger part in your life. You've moved on from me. You've grown up. And your life seems so brilliant.
I miss you Lily.
I'll love you always.
-Petunia
The letter wasn't delivered to the small house in Godric's Hollow until the morning of November 1st. It was too late. Lily and James Potter were already dead. Lily would never know just how much she meant to her sister. And Petunia hid her growing depression with bitterness. No one ever knew of the letter. The friendship the two sisters had shared, the memories, the loss, the sorrow, the good times and the bad, the fall out, and the attempt to make everything better, were forgotten. And Petunia was alone.
A/N: So what do you think? Review please! xx
