Forever and Always


I lay on her side of the bed . It is so cold and so lifeless. It just reminds me more of her . I breath in her scent and tears well up in my eyes . I have cried so much over her . I have cried for the loss of my only true love .

I wish that she was complaining about how I needed to change before our family grows bigger .

I wish that she was laying beside me , whispering in her sleep about something stupid .

I wish she could be here with me holding eachother , and watching life with me .

I wish that it had not been raining that afternoon .

I wish it had not been so dark .

I wish it had been me .

I wish she was alive .

I close my eyes . I see and hear it every time that I blink .

I hear the tires skidding on the rain flooded road .

I hear the car wrap around an oak tree .

I see blood dripping down her face .

I see the gashes and the blood .

I see her face full of pain .

I see her slowly die .

I remember waking up in the hospital , forgetting for a second what had happened . I look around and see my father and my younger half-brother sitting in yellow chairs . I shift slightly , and gasp in pain . They look up and see that I am awake .

I ask where she is .

They look away from me . I demand an answer . They still stay silent . I yell for an answer . They finally look up , but not because I yelled for them to answer me . They look up because my step-mother walks in the door . In her arms I see a small pink bundle . She walks over to me and places the bundle inside of my arms . I look down .

I see two amber eyes staring back at me . I touch two pointed ears on the top of her head . Her hair is a raven black with silver streaks . She has her mothers face . Her little hand has sharp claws at the end of each finger .

Where is she I ask again in a low voice as not to scare the little girl . I know the answer in my heart because I kow that they would nevr take a newborn away from her mother . They answer and it breaks my heart . I ask how . They say that she lost to much blood . I silently cry .

I have lost the mother of my only child .

I have lost my one true love .

I have lost my mate .

I turn over back to my side of the king sized bed where we created our daughter . I let the tears fall from my eyes . There is a knock at my door . I say come in . My step-mother walks in with a baby bottle and little Rin in her arms . I sit up in bed and allow her to place Rin in my arms . I them cradle her as I give her the bottle full of milk . She eats gladly .

I glance around at my room and see the photo from prom night . We were high school sweethearts . I had the prom king crown and sash on and she had the prom queen crown and sash on . We were happy and together . At the bottom it reads ,

Sesshomaru and Rin

Forever

and

Always

How I wish that were true I whisper and turn my eyes back to the last living breathing part of the one women I could only love .


Disclamer : I do not own any of the charatres from the Inuyasha manga !

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