One day, you know it's all over.
One day, all the earthly things has passed away for you.
Joy, pain, laughter, tears.
There is contentment and peace on the other side.
No heaviness of the body, no drunkeness of this life.
Is that what i want?
No i do not long for humanity any longer.
But why am i seeing scenes flashing by? Those things long gone.
Surely, i desire no more of these.
Yet, before i fade away into the dust
Let me recount
The endless sorrow
Endless love
Endless rain
This story is mine, yet i do not know how to begin. How to truly recount and retrace those steps. Memories gather too much dust, and slowly turn to ash themselves. I have no need to blow them away from my mind, time does the job well indeed. In its gentleness, it ebbs the seasons away,as human life turns into a soft decline. The innocence of childhood, the madness and joy of adolescence, the passing time of adulthood and finally, the tranquility of old age. All of these, will be erased by time. Troubled memories, joyful days.Sweetness, bitterness, madness.
Is that what the normal life would be like? And the normal end? To live, and to be erased. At least, majority of mankind get to experience it. Live their life bearing fruits. Although their bodies may not endure, they have had many things to be turned into eternity. And in the course of their time on earth, they have the freedom to love who they love, to do as they please, to feel as they feel. Breathe, stretch out their hands, grasp their dreams and ambitions.
Indeed, the gods are generous to those they favor.
I was not among those beloved children.
I had never known the meaning of "simple childhood", and never will know old age. I lived my fair share of 17 years, only not as a human. What was I? One can never know. Perphaps i was a tool, a form of power? Men can only be puppets to fate; at least i was one.
Only now in the last moments of this life, do I recall fleeting scenes of strange times. Of father and mother. Of my infant years. Of the days when i knew no powers, nor demons. Yes, now i see..clearly, as if some veil was lifted and my eye cleared.
Only..they were quick impressions, and so far away now.
