AN: Ack. I need to stop writing angst fics...I try to write happy, and it escapes me.


I spent all those years away from you. Away at school. And I came back to you and I was happy.

"Olette!" I said, giving a big wave, looking at you, smiling, happy.

"Roxas!" You shouted, the smile on your face was so big.

Made my heart skip a beat. Or two. Maybe three.

We spent that whole day together, we went everywhere...The movies, the old pizza place on 13th street, the ice cream shop on 3rd. I think we even went down to the creek. You remember, right? We used to go there with Hayner and Pence and catch frogs, until our parents called us home for the night. And we sat up there on the clock-tower at sunset. The way the setting sun looked in your hair, I'll never forget it.

You looked at me, with that gentle smile on your lips and you leaned forward and I leaned forward...

And we kissed.

Was it your first kiss Olette?

It was mine.

The next day, it was raining. And you came over to my house, and I answered the door and you were soaking wet on the step. Still smiling.

How can you smile like that? All the time.

I let you in, and I made us some lunch. I couldn't cook. I still can't. I think I burned the sauce and the pasta boiled over. It was a pain in the ass to clean up. But we were laughing and that's all that mattered.

Your laugh and your smile. Heh. They're like a drug, you know that Olette? Once you get a taste, you just can't get enough.

I don't think I can ever get enough of being around you.

Do I have a problem?

We sat there after we cleaned up the kitchen, and I ordered out. Chinese. And we messed around and I couldn't use the chopsticks. You could, you tried to show me how but I gave up and used a fork.

We kissed at the door when before you left. And I walked you home too. The rain had stopped but the clouds hadn't cleared up. There were puddles of water everywhere. And half as a joke, I put my coat over one for you to walk over.

Like they did in those old movies.

"Roxas, you silly" you said, poking me on the nose.

I twitched a bit. Sensitive sinuses, remember? I think I almost sneezed too.

The weeks went by like that...And we were oblivious to the war going on around us. People out there were dying but me and you, Olette? We were happy. Happier than we'd ever been.

Why?

Because we were together.

And your birthday..I remember your birthday best of all. You turned eighteen and we threw the biggest surprise party for you.

You opened the door and all of us - Me, Hayner, Pence, Tidus, Wakka, Selphie, Kairi, Sora and Namine, jumped out and yelled surprise.

And you screamed.

But then you smiled and you ran through the door, and jumped up and threw your arms around me and I grinned.

There was something sad about that day though. I think it's because I had gotten that letter three days before.

The one telling me I'd been drafted.

And Olette, I didn't have the heart to tell you. I couldn't do it.

I didn't want to see you cry.

Maybe I should have told you then. Then, you wouldn't have been so upset when the day came and I had to go away.

It was raining again, your makeup was running. And I know it wasn't just from the rain.

And I saw in your eyes all the tears I could never cry and I knew then, I loved you.

"Roxas..." You whispered, burying your head in my chest and crying.

I lifted your head up, making you look at me.

"Olette, don't cry. This isn't goodbye, I'll come home and we'll get married..."

And you just started crying harder. And it hurt, it hurt me so bad. I didn't want to leave in the first place but I couldn't just say no.

I had a country to serve. It was my duty. I was proud to go, I didn't want to leave you. But I was proud for the chance to defend this country, to defend YOU Olette.

I know you didn't understand that then.

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Olette, God I wished I could have made good on that promise.

But.

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Olette, I'm not coming home.