Slow dancing in a Burning room by John Mayer
Before we could even begin we were falling
Falling too quickly for each other
Yet we still continued to slow dance in a burning room
Unaware of those around
Do you think we should have known by now?
We were going down
Do you think we should have learnt some how?
A/N: Please keep in mind that Draco and Harry are best friends. After I finish this one I might consider doing a prequel.
Draco's POV
We are sitting in the library when it happens. It's not surprisingly really in fact it is simply reality yet it upsets me so. I see her out of the corner of my eye and dread having to lose him again, each time is more painful than the last. I watch as his eyes leave me and follow her movement across the room. I know he is gone, he is no longer mine. It is a hidden love which I let myself be dragged into yet I bite my tongue and fake another smile.
I smile politely as she approaches.
"Hi", I say cheerfully while secretly biting my tongue.
Ginny looks at me momentarily; deciding whether or not to actually acknowledge my existence.
"Hey", she says not even bothering to fake politeness.
"Hi baby", Harry says.
I flinch slightly at the endearing name but cover by pretending it was a shiver.
She smiles sweetly before sitting in his lap and kissing him hello. I smile and pretend not to care. I block both of them out and drift into a world of my own.
We are constantly together, Harry is my best friend after all but how could he not feel anything? He must! Well he did a while ago. How could I let myself lose him so quickly to someone who doesn't even notice him, he is taken for granted and shoved to a side. I feel so helpless when all I can do is simply sit and watch hoping that he won't be hurt.
Do what is right or do what your heart tells you? That is the question constantly playing on my mind. How do you make a choice like that? Pretend I don't love him as much as I do. Pretend that it doesn't hurt me to see them together. Pretend that I am happy for him. What else can I do? He is taken now and I am not the type of guy to encourage cheating. People don't understand how hard it is to be in love with your best friend, the one person you have yet don't have.
"Draco...are you listening?" The sound of his voice drags me out of my daydream.
"Yehhh sorry, what's up?"
"Ginny was just saying goodbye, she has to go to Herbology".
"Oh...bye", I say while smiling my sweetest smile.
I envy the way he looks at her, such love, care, kindness and even lust. As I watch her leave I see his eyes return to me. Good old reliable friend, that's all I am. I am never the object of love and lust simply the fall back plan. Harry reaches for my hand and I pull away. Not this time, I think to myself, I bring this hurt upon myself.I move my hand away.
"I have to go", I mumble while gathering my things and leaving the library. As I walk away I feel my eyes blink back tears.
"It's just not fair", I whisper into the air.
I storm through the corridors almost running to my room. As I enter the common room I notice it is mostly empty besides one girl, Ginny. Just my luck, I think to myself, trust her to lie about something as trivial as class to avoid spending time with her boyfriend. She looks up realising she is no longer alone.
"I...", she starts to explain but I don't want to hear it.
"I don't care why you lied; it's none of my business", I snap before she can even think of an excuse and storm up to my private dorms. I slam the door behind me and throw my books on the ground. I can feel the air around me buzzing with my emotional magic but I just can't hold it back. I collapse on my bed crying until my eyes hurt and my voice is soar from sobbing.
An hour or so passes before I hear people entering the common room for the annual Friday night party. Another hour of sulking passes before I will myself out of bed and into the bathroom to prepare for the nights festivities. I perform a quick cheering charm on myself, hoping that it covers my true emotions, as I rummage through my closet looking for something fresh to wear. I shower and do my hair yet can't seem to make myself leave the room. I stand in front of my bedroom door debating whether to open it and return back to reality or instead hide from the world. Before I can make my own decision I hear his voice.
"Drayyyyyyyyy", his voice is slightly slurred.
I sigh knowing now that I have no choice and open my door to reality. I walk down to the common room to find the party in full swing. The music is blaring, people are dancing, drinking is happening and games are being played. I force a smile onto my face and try to listen for his voice.
"Harry?" I yell over all the noise.
I find him sitting in a corner with Ginny placed by his side.
"It's O.K. Draco your services aren't needed I can look after him", Ginny says smirking.
"Drayyyyy", he says again in a childish voice.
Ginny's smug look changes quickly to frown at her boyfriend.
"Yes love?" I say while smiling down at him.
"Come dance with me?"
I laugh a little not only at Ginny's appalled face but at the question itself.
"You must have drunk quite a bit to make you want to dance", I say while grabbing his hand and pulling him up to his feet.
Once upon his feet he eagerly leads me to the dance floor. We dance for an hour or so before the music changes pace and becomes slower. Slightly unsure of whether or not to continue dancing I begin to back away.
"Don't be silly", he says while grabbing my waist and pulling me closer.
I smile a true smile, happy to be with him. The alcohol has begun to wear off and he is back to his usual self before long. Our bodies move as one to the music and I find myself being dragged into a dream once more. I feel his gaze resting on me and smile before resting my head on his shoulder.
"I love you", he whispers in my ear.
I enjoy the feeling of his breathe on my neck before I fully comprehend what he is saying. I pull away from him slightly to gaze into his enticing emerald eyes.
"I'm sorry...what?"
He makes a move to pull me closer again but I hold him off.
"I ahhh need some air" I mutter quickly before turning and walking towards the balcony.
Why does he do that to me? Just when I think I am O.K. he says or does something that makes me believe I can have him. He makes it all seem so reasonable, so attainable when it is truly impossible.
I stand on the balcony alone; the party inside the common room continues to roar unaware of my missing presence. I stare at that stars above wondering why I let my mind play tricks on me. Silently tears begin to run down my cheek. I hear a soft creak behind me and find him standing in the doorway. I move slightly into the shadows hiding my tear streaked face. He closes the door behind him blocking out the music and instead creating a soft lull. I refuse to face him and turn to look out into the night covered grounds of Hogwarts. As I feel his arms encircle my waist I let out a breath I was unconsciously holding in.
"Hi", he whispers in my ear.
I lean back and gaze into his eyes. They belonged to me once. I can no longer control my heartache and as a tear begins to fall down my cheek I let out a small sob. His hand reaches up to brush away my tear while looking down at me endearingly. I smile, no longer in control of my own thoughts or actions.
"I don't want to lose you", I breathe into his ear.
"You will never have to", he whispers back while leaning in to softly brush his lips against my forehead.
I know he doesn't truly understand what I am saying but I still feel like I am about to faint just by hearing those words leave his mouth. Just as my knees begin to buckle he reaches his hand onto my lower back drawing our bodies closer. I rest my head on his shoulder nuzzling into his warmth. Our bodies begin to swing to the soft music drifting out from the party and I lose myself in the rhythm. I hear the familiar creak of the door and we both lift our heads slightly to find her standing in the doorway looking at us. I watch in horror as she slowly makes her way over to us, we still haven't moved.
