Chapter one/prologue.

Call all your friends

Tell them I'm never coming back

'Cause this is the end

Pretend that you want it, don't react


"Damon!" a petite brunette screeched as she lifted her skirts and ran away from him as he chased after her, he held onto his hat and she clutched the odd shaped ball in her hands and ran from the Salvatore brothers, Stefan was purposely running slow to let Damon catch his best friend, and between Stefan and his father… soon to be betrothed, but the pair don't know it and it is not certain and set in stone but it is likely.

Damon focused on her his blue eyes narrowing on the pretty girl and he caught up with her after letting her think she could beat him at running.

Carina's heart pounded in her chest, she could barely breathe because her maids tightened her corset too tight this morning and she felt her insides were being squeezed by some hand inside of her body.

Damon caught up in no time and grabbed her waist and picked her up, she screamed and dropped the ball, he laughed showing his bright and kind smile.
"And if this was a real game, I would have pushed you to the ground and lay on top of you" he said looking at her face and she laughed.

Carina Bird was a British lady moved to America for her family's business 5 years ago, she lived in a mansion not far from the Salvatore's and Giuseppe Salvatore invited them round for dinner, they accepted and she became great friends with Damon and Stefan, more Damon because of their close age.

Damon set her down on the floor, her light grey dress with a small hat that she threw off and let her dark brown curly hair fall down to her back, it was now wild with the wind and her blue eyes met his with the crinkles at the corner due to their smiles as they waited to catch their breaths.

But that was all before Katherine came.


The damage is done

The police are coming too slow now

I would have died

I would have loved you all my life


She rarely ever laid eyes on Damon, he would escort her to town every Saturday and they would visit the markets and she would visit their house every chance she got, but she saw that Damon and Stefan were both falling for 'Miss Katherine' as Damon said, jealousy stirred deep inside her stomach and she was sure her face turned green with envy each time she saw the beauty take her place… but Carina was sure that 'Miss Katherine' wanted more than a friendship with her friends and for some reason it infuriated her as she saw Damon compete for her attention that she would give to his brother Stefan instead.


You're losing your memory now

You're losing your memory now

You're losing your memory now

You're losing your memory now


The days passed as she sat alone at her house, her father and mother nagging at her to go out, her sister who was much younger named Alison, would bring her friends round and it was another thing for Carina to turn green at, she buried her face in books or stared out of the window waiting for Damon to get bored of 'Miss Katherine' and come and entertain her, but he never did.

She knew her time was running out, Damon was going to the war and her heart broke at the fact her friend is risking her life.

But then it was the day, Damon knocked on her door, one of her maids answered the door, she almost jumped for joy and ran to find Carina who was gazing out the window at nothing in particular with her hands folded under her chin.

"Miss Carina! Miss Carina!" the maid called running into the room, Carina rose.
"What is it?" she asked politely, hoping her mother was taking her dress shopping…. Not that she couldn't go alone; she just didn't want to be alone furthermore.

"Damon is at the door" she said and grabbed Carina's white gloved hand and they ran together, Carina couldn't believe what she was hearing and froze when she reached the door, her heart pounding like someone was prodding her chest with their finger, only for it to stop, the world to stop.

Then she could feel it cracking as it shattered, cutting her heart in half as Damon stood there in his army uniform, he was leaving…

"Damon" she said with tears in her eyes, he dropped his bag and hugged her.

"I couldn't leave you without saying goodbye" he said into her collar bone, her heart was sore and heavy.
"Damon" she whimpered as more tears fell, he pulled back.
"Oh no please don't cry for me" he said wiping them away.
"but you are leaving…" she said
"shh, I will be back, I will be a better friend to you when this is over, we will spend our time together like we used to" he promised, she smiled her blue eyes searching his much prettier blue eyes for the truth.
"You promise me?" she asked and he set her down, took her gloved hand in his and cupped it between his hands like he had caught a butterfly.
"I, Damon Salvatore, promise Carina Bird that I will be back and will take her out every Saturday and return to business as usual" he said and she laughed and nodded, he smiled with her and hugged her once more.

"I will miss you with all my heart" she said with a hand over her heart and he put his hand over his.
"and I too" he said and kissed her wet cheek and when she opened her eyes he was half way towards the carriage and turned for one last wave, she returned it and when he was gone the maid closed the door.

"Miss Carina has found her life time love" the maid said observing Carina trace her cheek where his lips touched, she snapped out of it and wiped her eyes.
"Nonsense" she snapped and stormed up to her chambers to cry some more over her friend's departure, she thought about what her maid told her, is it love? She would ask herself only to think coldly of it with 'absolutely not!'


Where have you gone?

The beach is so cold in winter here

And where have I gone?

I wake in Montauk with you near


She had heard news that Damon was back… but surely he would have come to her as promised and spent time with her… right?

Her family was invited to 'The Founder's Ball' by private invitation, they may not have been the founders but they still had close ties with them and were high up.

She was asked by George Lockwood's son Geoffrey Lockwood to the Ball, he was about 2/3 years older than her, he was incredibly handsome with brown eyes and dark brown hair but she just wasn't really feeling a connection with him, her father spoke with her about betrothal between the two, she declined it aggressively, but her parents pressured her into going with him to the ball.

She didn't even want to get married… ever; she wanted to be free and able to do what she wants, including riding her favourite horse 'Betsy' around wherever she wants to go.

She adjusted her gloves and her hair was pinned to the top of her head, the maids had taken about 2 hours pulling and scraping her scalp with pins and yanking her head around like a doll, she hated it.

She was also under special orders to look pretty with a lilac dress for 'pretty girls' and her mother pinched her cheeks lightly which made her yell and growl, they turned pink.
"You look like a true Bird now Carina" she said smiling, she only sneered at her mother who scowled
"How unladylike, never do that again" she said and she sighed and shook her head.
"Mother I can't breathe" Carina said adjusting her corset, her mother slapped her hands and shook her head.
"Leave it alone" she growled lowly, Carina rolled her eyes and walked down the steps where Geoffrey awaited her, all dressed up smart looking polished, his eyes met hers and he held the stare and she felt uncomfortable.

"Miss Carina you look absolutely beautiful" he said as a light red graced his cheeks, she resisted the urge to roll her eyes and run back up the stairs and hide under her bed.

Her mother passed her over to him and then they went to the carriage and were at the ball in a few minutes.

Geoffrey held out his arm and she took it and they walked into the busy place, teeming with people, the richest of Mystic Falls.

Of course him being a Lockwood meant he was extremely rich, but she wasn't that vain and wasn't his date for his money, no that is more like what her parents forced her to do.

She wanted love, not arranged marriages… real love.


Remember the day

'Cause this is what dreams should always be

I just want to stay

I just want to keep this dream in me


She felt flustered, Geoffrey just had tried to kiss her, she rejected him and picked up her skirts and left the room, walking down to the balcony, she knew her way around this house, she just needed to breathe and this corset was not helping.

"Curse these corsets, controlling parents ugh!" she hissed, she heard a low chuckle and saw Damon emerge from the shadows, he looked sad, rage boiled up in her stomach, she turned away from him and folded her arms over her chest in anger, he broke his promise to her and it broke her heart.

"I never thought I would see you with Geoffrey Lockwood" he said with disgust, she looked over her shoulder and glared at him.
"I am just as surprised…. But he keeps his promises" she hissed and turned around and tried to storm off but he grabbed her arm.
"Carina…" he said about to apologise when he saw the anger and hurt in her eyes.
"If you are about to utter an apology from those foul lips of yours then you should keep it in, I waited, and waited and waited and waited, but obviously 'Miss Katherine' is more important that I will ever be, even after 5 years… oh wait now it's 6 years, you missed my birthday, you also promised to be there, you broke so many promises, I have never once broke one to you" she said and he pulled her to his chest, she pushed him away
"NO! No you do not just get to hug me and make more false promises!" she said and pulled the pins out of her hair and let them fall to the ground.
"I am so sick of everyone! Always treating me like a possession, I have feelings!" she wailed and burst into tears and collapsed to the ground, Damon felt horrible, like a dozen horses had trampled over his heart and ran their carriages over it.

"Carina" he said lifting her chin up, he saw Katherine favoured his brother over him and the way they danced proved it to him, but what caught his eye made him more jealous, Geoffrey Lockwood and his best friend Carina dancing too close together for his liking.

And now here she was, a mess on the ground in front of him.
"I am so sorry, why did you not speak to me?" he asked his voice full of hurt.
"Because you didn't care" she sneered moving her head from his grip and wobbling it side to side as she spoke those words that cut him deeper than anything he had ever experienced, even his father's hatred for him didn't hurt as much as this.

"I love you" he said without thinking, she looked up at him in shock, he agreed with those words, he loved Katherine, yes but he loved this woman too.
"Yes I love you" he confirmed to himself and her, her eyes glistened.
"Damon" she said and then he crashed his lips onto hers, she responded when her mind registered what happened.

He smiled at her and leant their for-heads together.

"Do you mean it?" she asked
"of course, do you love me? If you don't I'll underst-" he said but was cut off by her lips kissing his.
"Of course I do you fool" she whispered and they continued to kiss, he grabbed her hand and they ran through the halls and up the stairs where he found the perfect room for some privacy.
"I have missed you so muc-" she said but he cut her off by kissing her with passion.
"hey don't think I am not mad at you" she hissed but he silenced her again and she felt dizzy as his hands reached behind her back and began to untie the strings of her corset, she then realized where this was going and her heart thumped harder, he kissed her harder each time a knot was undone until he pulled her corset from her, she sighed with relief as she felt the blood flow properly through her body, he pushed her onto the bed.
"Damon" she said and he looked up to her.
"I know" he said and she blinked sadly
"I will try not to hurt you" he said and kissed her neck before undressing, she ran her hands through his raven curls throughout the pain, he kissed her again and again to try and soothe it… they lay tangled limbs naked under the white sheets she clutched to her chest, just then she realized the situation, she lay awake sore and still bleeding… what had she done? She wasn't married! She was now impure! Damon snored softly from beside her and pulled her closer to him, she nestled her head into his shoulder, and she was scared now, what if he didn't want to marry her? What about Katherine? She would be disowned and thrown out! No one would want to marry her after they found out she had been de-flowered!

She was too sore to get up and she couldn't do her corset up alone, she needed her handmaiden but obviously couldn't go and get her naked, she just wished this was all just a dream, she was still mad and in love with Damon and this never happened… oh but it did.


You're losing your memory now

You're losing your memory now

You're losing your memory now

You're losing your memory


It had been 2 months since that night, 2 months and she had not bled since that night when it took place, her handmaiden noticed and so did she.

Now she was done for, she would be thrown out from the family and have a baby out of wedlock and become shamed for the rest of her and the unborn child inside of hers life.

Unless Damon agreed to marriage before she began to show.

Her parents wanted to meet with Giuseppe and inform him of the situation until they heard.

Damon and his brother Stefan was shot dead, their bodies however… gone.

Carina lay on her bed sobbing hysterically as another month passed and she was showing, she heard a bang coming from down the stairs, she stood up, she had stopped wearing tight corsets because she did not want to deform or hurt the baby inside of her, she was 3 months pregnant and 6/7 more to go, she heard her hand maiden scream and run into her room.
"Carina hurry! Witches! They have come to take you" she panicked and Carina stood shocked
"Pardon?!" she screeched and she was shushed.
"The father of the baby is a demon! They seek revenge!" she said packing her dresses for her, she heard footsteps coming closer.
"Hide!" her handmaiden Jane hissed to her and she ran to the grand oak wardrobe and climbed in and Jane closed it.
"Do not come out" she whispered
"no matter what" she said and Carina nodded, tears rolled down her cheek as she placed her hand over her stomach, she wore a light pink dress with a loose corset but still looked like it would usually look and it had little pink patterns all over it.

Her hair was up as her mother was going to take her into town that day and insisted she looked pretty and got out of the black mourning dresses she made herself wear for Damon and Stefan.

Just then the door burst open with a group of angry looking women came though, Jane whimpered as they charged towards her.
"Where is the girl?" they hissed angrily
"Leave Miss Carina alone! She has done nothing to deserve your devil's magic" she yelled and then she began to choke, blood poured from her handmaiden's mouth as the witch stood with her hands raised and Jane fell to the floor staring at the wardrobe, Carina covered her mouth as the tears poured out evermore.
"Lady Carina" she cooed as she stepped over her dead handmaiden.
"Come out come out wherever you are" another said, she kept her hand over her mouth as they neared.

They yanked open the doors.
"fool" one of them snickered as they grabbed her, she screamed.
"NO! NO LET ME GO!" she cried and they threw her down, she fell into the wall covering her stomach with her hands.

The witches began to chant spells and she felt dizzy as her back hit the wall, she slid down it with one hand over her stomach.
"Stop" she tried to say firmly but it came out as a whimper as her last thoughts roamed to Damon and her unborn child with him, maybe she would see him again….

She closed her eyes one last time and let out her breath as a tear fell, her baby never got a chance.

The witches watched as her hands loosened, they walked over to the girl and hoisted her up and carried her out of the house still chanting a spell as they placed her in a carriage and then down under the town and secured the room, they placed her in an open coffin and placed her hands over her small baby bump, the witch smiled, the evil Salvatore's baby and love was completely in her hands and will be in her family's possession for many more centuries.

She ran her hand down the girl's face like she was just some porcelain doll that she had won,and the amusing thing to the witch was that Damon didn't even know he impregnated this woman, or that she and their unborn child was doomed to spend eternity under the town, she chuckled darkly before leaving the girl behind.


Wake up, it's time, little girl, wake up
All the best of what we've done is yet to come
Wake up, it's time, little girl, wake up
Just remember who I am in the morning


Welcome to my story! This was kind of a prologue but I wanted to make it chapter one too! This is a Damon/OC fanfic, set in the 19th century where Stefan and Damon are from! Also it doesn't follow the plot really… I decided to exclude the sex scene because it is too soon, but this is rated T for now and may change, and the little bold italic lines are parts of the song Losing Your Memory by Ryan Star… Hence the title! The girl playing Carina is the girl who plays Mina in the new(ish) Tv series Dracula, if you don't know… google it or just look at the cover photo! Please leave your review I would love to hear what you have to say!

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