Another KisuHaru fic from me... :P They're quite a rare pairing but I love them. Anyway, this is just another random attempt to clear out my mind. I'm sorry for any mistakes I've done in here too. :)


"I'm going home first. Are you okay with walking alone ?", Makoto asked his childhood friend in concern. Somehow, his blue-eyed friend didn't seem to be in a good shape during their way home from Samezuka Academy.

"Yeah… I'm okay. See you later.", Haruka replied with his usual monotonic voice. As soon as Makoto went inside his house, he continued his way upstairs in a slow pace. Climbing the stairs somehow turned into something very difficult for him recently, especially when the pain in his abdomen starting to attack. 'Hurry up… I want my tub already…', he thought, forcing his legs to move on. As he was getting near to his house, he could see that the lights in the living room were turned on.

'I locked all the doors and windows…', he thought, staring at the house questionably.

There weren't many people that crossed his mind since not many have the key to the house. The first guess that came into his mind was his parents coming home but that seemed impossible since they didn't tell him anything about it. 'Then… Kisumi…', he thought again, making his second guess. Rin was out of his list since he had stopped coming after their break up. Besides, he just saw him in Samezuka with the others – there was no way he could reach his house faster. Thieves and robbers were certainly out of his guess since the lights were all on. Without thinking any longer, he slide opened the unlocked door, only to be surprised by a certain peach-haired male's greeting.

"Welcome home, Haru~", Kisumi greeted cheerfully, wrapping his arms around the smaller male fondly.

"Oi… You're too clingy…", Haruka muttered, trying to push the basketball player away from him but he couldn't as his strength slipped away because of the increasing pain in his abdomen.

"Aw… Come on~ I missed you, Haru~", the peach-haired male finally released Haruka from his embrace, following the smaller male who was heading into the hallway.

"We just met in Samezuka.", Haruka coldly blurted his words.

"But you were playing back then… Not to mention, you shot me !", Kisumi pouted, still walking behind the swimmer's back.

"Who told you to be too close to my beloved ex-boyfriend ?", Haruka muttered then let out a sigh. "So what are you doing here ?"

"I'm hungry."

Haruka let out another heavy sigh upon hearing the taller male's words. "Fine. I'll cook."

Kisumi cheered happily as he heard the blue-eyed male's agreement to cook dinner for him – he just really loves the dishes prepared from Haruka. While Haruka took his time upstairs to change his clothes, Kisumi headed first to the kitchen excitedly, getting ready to be a help to the stoic-looking guy. He was the one who asked for food anyway, so at least he could help with something that even someone who can't cook could handle like preparing the ingredients or passing him the equipment needed to cook.


Haruka let himself collapse on the bed as soon as he reached the side of it. Slowly, he went into a fetal position, clenching hard on his abdomen that was still stinging in pain. 'I shouldn't have joined the cultural festival…', he thought, cold sweat dripping down his forehead. If he could, he wanted to take the painkiller and let himself fall into slumber but with Kisumi in his house, he couldn't do that – he didn't want him to worry more than he had always done. He smirked to himself, as he remembered the first time Kisumi barged into his life uninvited.

It was during one weekend, when he went to the hospital to get his painkiller supply from the doctor who was assigned to handle his case. It was supposed to be a short trip but he ended up meeting the peach-haired male by coincidence, which turned the trip to be quite a long one. He already got his painkiller, ready to be brought home and all that left was heading out of the cold building.


"Eeh ? Haru ?", a familiar voice suddenly greeted from his back, causing the blue-eyed male to flinch a bit.

'Damn… It's Kisumi…', Haruka thought, hesitating to face the peach-haired male. Of all people, why must Kisumi be the one who met him in such place ? Now that he thought about it, the one who first knew about Sousuke's shoulder was Kisumi too and the situation was the same. 'Why should he appear in such a wrong timing…'

"Haru~~", Kisumi whined as Haruka ignored him, walking towards the front door.

"What is it ?"

"What are you doing here ?", Kisumi asked with a big smile.

"Just having a health check…", Haruka replied lazily as he wasn't in mood to keep up with Kisumi's questions.

Kisumi just hummed to the swimmer's answer, his eyes were busy eyeing the plastic bag in Haruka's grip, searching for the right timing to snatch it away. He knew that Haruka won't let him see the content even if he begged him for it, so the only way to get it was by force. As soon as he was sure that Haruka let his guard down, he snatched the plastic bag away from his grip, running out of the hospital playfully.

"Kisumi !", Haruka shouted in an irritated tone while chasing after the taller male.

"Aww… Come on~ I just wanna take a peek.", Kisumi said happily, grinning as he took out one of the bottles inside it. Gradually, his smile faded away as read the description on the bottle. 'Slow-release Morphine...?', he thought, wondering why Haruka got something like that for him. He took a glance at the other bottle and found out that there were stronger ones in it. 'He couldn't be…', he tried to deny the probabilities that was playing in his mind. He's not that smart but he knew quite a lot about medicines and drugs since his family runs a hospital. Stronger opiates mean that the pain is severe.

"Oi… Give me that !", Haruka said as he took his things back.

"Haru… Those bottles… Are they for you ?", he tried to ask, staring at the shorter male. Haruka kept quiet but Kisumi could see how tense he was as he heard the question. "Bingo, huh ?"

"It's not your business… I'm going home…", Haruka replied, walking away from the peach-haired male.

Immediately, Kisumi grabbed his wrist, stopping him from walking away. "I'm not letting you go until you tell me everything."


Kisumi let out a heavy sigh as Haruka finished talking. Everything has become clear by that time – the reason why Haruka looked paler than usual, the reason why Haruka seemed to lose his weight recently and the most important thing was the reason why he decided to break up with Rin. He took a glance at the person who was sitting right beside him, observing the usually stoic male's eyes that were full of tears. It was his first time seeing Haruka cry and for the person named Haruka to break like that in front of him, he must've been enduring a lot of things alone all this time.

"Haru…", Kisumi muttered, trying to get Haruka's attention. "Let me be your boyfriend."

Haruka's sapphire orbs widen in disbelief as he heard his words but it didn't last long as Haruka turned into his stoic mode right away. "If you're saying that out of pity then you better forget it…"

"I'm not. I had always loved you."

"Even so, I don't want to…"

"Haru. I'm not Rin. I don't have a dream that big. I already found my path and I'm heading towards it steadily. You don't have to worry about you being a hindrance for me."

"No."

"Haru, please…"

Haruka turned his face away from Kisumi, not wanting to see that desperate eyes of the taller male. He didn't want to accept his love – he loves Rin and it won't change until the day he let out his last breath. Accepting Kisumi when he's in trouble didn't sound right at all. If Kisumi really loved him, then for him to requite his feeling was absolutely unfair. "I don't want to hurt you…", Haruka muttered.

"You don't have to worry about that, Haru.", Kisumi said, his lips curved into a soft smile. "I know that you loved Rin so much. But I'm sure… that I could make you fall for me even if it's too late."

Haruka couldn't help but blushed to Kisumi's words. "S-stop playing around…"

"Ahahaha~~ I'm not playing around, Haru~", Kisumi replied, giving a wink to the blue-eyed male. Haruka didn't give an immediate reply as his mind was trying to search for a right choice for him to do in this situation.

"Then… promise me something…", Haruka said, staring deep into Kisumi's purplish orbs. "If the day comes… when you have to see me dying right in front of you… I want you to smile…"

"Aww… Aren't you a sweet one ?", Kisumi said, hugging the smaller male tight. "But doesn't that sound like a curse for me ? I can't cry when I'm feeling sad of losing you."

"Like I care…", Haruka replied coldly.


'I should get going…', he thought as he snapped out of his memory, forcing his body to leave the bed.

Carefully, he walked out of the room, trying to keep his balance as he felt so light-headed that he could tumble down anytime. 'Try… to act normal…', he encouraged his inner self before walking downstairs like nothing happened. As soon as he arrived in the kitchen, Kisumi handed him the apron.

"Thanks…", he muttered, then went to the fridge to search for the ingredients he needed to use.

"You're welcome~ What are you gonna cook ?", Kisumi asked.

"Steak…"

Kisumi's purplish orbs widen as he heard Haruka's answer – he didn't know what he should feel with it. It is good that Haruka has started to eat more meat recently, but somewhere deep in Kisumi's heart he felt a bit worried. Haruka only eats meat on the days when he vomited out lots of his blood to compensate the iron loss in his body. 'Then… he must have vomited…', he thought, moving closer to the smaller male's back. Slowly, he wrapped his arms loosely around Haruka's waist, while resting his head on his shoulder, causing a flinch from the chef.

"Oi… Kisumi… I'm using the knife !", Haruka muttered in annoyance.

"You can continue… I'll support you from your back~", Kisumi replied, trying to stay cheerful.

"You're restricting my movements…", Haruka said, trying to get the other male away from him. He didn't get any response from him but he could feel that Kisumi is tense, both from his heartbeat and touch. Haruka put down the knife he was holding then touched the taller male's hands gently, rubbing against the bigger hands soothingly to let him ease up. "It's okay Kisumi. I chose steak tonight just because I missed Rin."

"Ha…?!", Kisumi shouted in disbelief. "You're a mean one, aren't you ? I'm the one who requested but you cook for Rin in your mind~~"

"Pfft… I guess so.", the blue-eyed male said, then let out a small laugh. As he felt Kisumi's arms leaving his waist, he started working with the knife again. "But I didn't even ask you to be my boyfriend back then."

"You're cruel~~", Kisumi whined again. Haruka's words are true and he couldn't deny it. It was him that chased after the blue-eyed male back then, right after he heard that the swimmer has already broken up with Rin.

"Yeah… That's me ! This cruel boyfriend of you is going to cook for the both of us. So please stay out of the kitchen until I serve the food, okay ?", Haruka said, pushing the peach-haired male out of the kitchen. It wasn't like he didn't want Kisumi to help, but he prefers to do things on his own. No matter how hard it is, he wanted to do it alone so that he won't be a burden to anyone else. That was what he tried to do back then – undergoing his remaining life on his own but now that Kisumi has ruined his plan, he's going to make Kisumi pay for it.


"You're not going home ?", Haruka asked as he walked into the room in his short pants, hair still wet since he didn't properly dry them.

"Nope. I'm staying.", Kisumi said, staring at the swimmer intently.

Haruka just replied with his short 'Owh' then headed to his closet to choose a shirt to wear for the night. Silent and cautiously, Kisumi walked towards Haruka who was busy searching for the right shirt to wear and when he was close enough, he immediately hugged the smaller male tight in his arms, preventing him from getting away.

"Kisumi…", Haruka just sighed at the sudden act and he didn't fight. He was way too tired to argue with Kisumi – all he wanted to do was taking a very good sleep to forget his pain for a while. Haruka jolted a bit when Kisumi sucked on his nape, sending shivers under his skin. Since the first time Kisumi found out that weakness of him, the taller male would always attack that particular place when he let his guard down. "Kisumi… Sorry but I'm too tired today…", was the only thing he could say to stop the peach-haired male from continuing it any further.

Obediently, he stopped teasing the smaller male, bringing his hands to wrap Haruka's smaller hands gently. "It's hurting today too, right ?", Kisumi asked hesitantly – he knew that Haruka doesn't like it when he asks about that. Haruka didn't answer, but Kisumi could feel a weak nod coming from the smaller male that was leaning on his chest. He stood up from the floor carefully, lifting the lighter male in his arms then walked towards the bed. "I'll bring you the shirt.", Kisumi said as he put Haruka on the bed.


"Kisumi…", Haruka muttered in the dark. From the voice, Kisumi knew that the blue-eyed male is getting drowsy.

"Yes, honey ?", Kisumi said seriously, earning a small laugh from the other male.

"Quit playing around… It's late already…", Haruka whispered, his hands pinching Kisumi's arm hard.

"Okay, okay… What is it, Haru ?"

"Keep smiling for me… even after I'm gone…"

"I've promised that countless of time, Haru~", Kisumi whined as he heard Haruka's words.

Haruka could only smile to the reply as his consciousness started to slip away from him. He did felt guilty of having Kisumi as his boyfriend at first but he gradually turned to be so grateful of his presence by his side. Though Rin is still the one he loved the most, slowly but surely, Kisumi had come to make his own place in his heart – it was just like what Kisumi had said at the hospital back then. Somehow, the happy-go-lucky man named Kisumi has given him strength to face his remaining days with a positive mind. No matter how painful it is, he wanted to enjoy his life to the fullest, creating memories that he could treasure before he dies. He was glad that he made the right choice back then.

"Good night, Haru…", Kisumi whispered then kissed Haruka's forehead. "I love you…"


So... I hope that wasn't too weird... Well, I tend to write some weird stories sometimes... :P

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