White. Gray. That's the colors. Long drawn out beeps. Those are the sounds. Tubes. wires. her. that's what I see. cold. pain. fear and worry. that's what I'm feeling rite now. I cant believe this. Carly. my Carly. my one and only love. and joy. and times yes, my anger. but I love her. with all my heart and soul. more than any other person in this world. that shouldn't be her. that should be me. damn it. why didn't I listen to sonny when he told me to let her go. that she would have a better life. she wouldn't die in my arms. shed never be hurt. she never would be like this. Damn it! I ruined this too. I tried my hardest. I tried telling her I didn't love her. she saw through it. I tried telling her she wasn't worth it. she laughed at me. I couldn't let her go. I love her too much to live without her. I refuse to go on without her. if she... I stop myself she wont. she will not die. she can't. I need her too much. I never got the chance to tell her that. her hands cold. her rings gone. the one I gave her for her birthday, it was supposed to be an engagement band but, I...I didn't think the time was right. I'm such an idiot! God...it was right, everything was right. now, she's lying here. hurt. in pain. she could be dying. I swear to God Elizabeth will pay for this...my thoughts were racing through my mind before I was pulled out by a quiet moan. she was awake. I looked at her and instantly touched her face lightly. she looked at me. her eyes swelled up in tears. she didn't look like my Carly. she was so. pale. so hurt. but she was still the most beautiful women I've ever seen. her bottom lip quivered slightly the way it always did when she was going to cry. somehow now, that comforted me though. maybe because to me it meant she was here. alive. it didn't matter how many times we had fought. or the stupid things she'd do. it was ok, because she was here with me. yes. in a hospital. but still, alive. I open my mouth and felt a tug at my heart. it was strange. I never had felt this before. I cry. yes, I Jason ''sonny Corinthos'" right-hand man" Morgan. I cry. I cry because I can't stand to see my Carly cry. my Carly hurt. i kneel down besides her bed to be closer. to feel her close to me. she began to wipe my tears slowly. she smiled. "your crying..." I smiled. I kissed her softy and touched her face lightly.

"God Carly…you had me scared to death. don't ever do that again ok??"

"Ok…"she smiled