I'll Be Your Alex If You'll Be My Paige

They had been best friends since fifth period choir in 9th grade, Miley and Lilly talked about their families, Miley's family seemed perfect but Lilly's was horrible, and they talked about boys, Miley had a boyfriend who was using her and Lilly had been cheated on by her boyfriend, Tyler. They helped each other and became closer than ever. They hung out almost every day. Lilly helped Miley open up and taught her new things. She also showed Miley TV shows like Degrassi where Lilly wouldn't say but her favorite couple was the lesbian couple, Palex, between Paige and Alex and silently Miley agreed but neither friend would acknowledge it.

Time passed on and pretty soon the year was over they both promised to call during the summer but Miley got a job and Lilly got one too shortly after so they called but didn't have anymore time than that. As their sophomore year started they were excited to see each other. Miley had gotten another boyfriend shortly into the school year named Nick but Lilly and Miley still had one class, English, together that they enjoyed and looked forward to. Lilly started to realize as she watched Miley and Nick she became jealous and that she like Miley but couldn't tell her. She pictured Miley as Paige or as her new favorite lesbian couple from a TV show called South of Nowhere, Spencer. She wrote stories in her head of Miley leaving Nick and telling Lilly she loved her. Unbeknownst to her Miley was thinking about the same thing.

Sophomore year passed with both girls leaving in silent pain and love for each other. Work made the summer for the girls pass quickly as they realized they had a couple weeks excitement and fear rushed over them. They met on the first day of school as they had in the past and talked about their summer,

"How's you and Nick?" Lilly asked not wanting the dreaded answer.

"Oh, we broke up last month. I didn't tell you?" Miley answered surprised.

"No, you didn't mention that" Lilly said trying to hide her happiness. They looked at each others schedules and saw they had no classes together but promised to eat lunch with each other everyday and that's exactly what they did. Every day they met at Lilly's locker then walked to class in the morning and met at Miley's locker for lunch.

The Homecoming dance was next week and Lilly dreaded going because she couldn't go with who she truly loved and she didn't want to see Miley with another guy while she was alone. She was thinking about this one day at lunch when she heard Miley ask,

"Hey Lilly are you okay?"

"Yeah just thinking" Lilly replied quickly.

"What about"

"Nothing" Lilly waved her hand.

"It doesn't seem like nothing" Miley pushed and pouted her cute pout Lilly couldn't resist. "Tell me"

"Fine, I was thinking about Homecoming" Lilly replied defeated.

"Did someone ask you?"

"No that's not the problem"

"Then what is?"

"Never mind it doesn't matter"

"If it matter's to you it matters to me" Miley said smiling her innocent sweet smile.

"You want me to be honest?" Lilly asked gaining courage from Miley's smile.

"Of course"

"Ok I'm just worried that you'll be asked"

"Why" Miley asked still confused.

"Because I don't want to be hurt by seeing you with someone else again because I . . ."

"You what?"

"I love you" Miley scared Lilly with her reaction of her laughter.

"Why are you laughing" Lilly asked offended.

"I'm laughing out of relief because the truth is I love you too. I just haven't been able to tell you. I guess I've been too scared."

"Me too. Now can I ask you a question?" Lilly asked excited.

"Of course" Miley replied back with a smile.

"Will you be my Paige if I promise to be your Alex" Lilly asked sheepishly. Miley gave Lilly a look that she had never seen before a look of fear.

"I would because I do love you but I can't let my mom and dad find out if they do I'll be kicked out and hated."

"Oh, I understand. That's okay" Lilly wanted to cry but was taught not to show that kind of weakness. They finished eating and went back to the school in silence. Miley looked at Lilly's face and felt guilty but still couldn't get enough courage to say she was sorry. Lilly and Miley went through their last class thinking about each other. Lilly didn't let herself cry until she got home and was safe in her room there she broke down and didn't stop till she was out of tears. Her mom knocked on her door shortly after and said,

"Lilly, Miley is on the phone"

"Tell her I'm busy mom would you please" Lilly yelled back acting cheerful as not to make her mom wonder.

"Ok. She's busy may I take a message. Ok thanks, I'll tell her" Lilly heard a click then her mom say,

"She said she's sorry but didn't say anything else"

"Ok thanks mom" Lilly replied back getting a sick feeling in her stomach.

'Does she mean it. Did she mean it when she said she loved me. If she did why would she hurt me like this' Lilly laid in her bed thinking why this was happening when she got a text from Miley saying 'I know ur not busy don't avoid me. Talk to me' Lilly didn't want to talk to her so she distracted herself with her favorite book and songs until she went to work then after work she tried to sleep.

The hard part was over she got up the next morning from no sleep and it all hit her she had to face the women she loved with the knowledge that they would only be just friends. That word seemed so pointless to her now she thought that that word was enough just two years ago but now it seemed like a curse word that she wished she could tear up and throw away.

She walked into school and searched for the beautiful dark blonde hair like she did every morning but this morning she did it with a different perspective. It hurt. The most pain she had ever felt like a fire in her stomach and knives piercing and slashing her heart in two. She didn't sleep she didn't eat she didn't feel anything but pain. It had consumed her like Miley herself had. She was nothing but what had consumed her for the past two years.

She knew she had to move on. Her head was spinning she had to stop. The pain was swirling around her. She started to fall her world was crumbling. She felt no one was there to save her. When she felt her knees buckle and the earth separate beneath her she felt the sweetest touch wrap around her and she was okay but for just a moment when she realized who's arms they were. Lilly stood up as if nothing had happened shot one last glance to Miley's hurt eyes and walked away.

She didn't know where to go but she didn't care. She just walked trying so desperately to think of something different, anything but Miley. She pulled out her I-pod to drown out the pain but every song reminded her so she put it away. She stopped walking because of weariness and fear of falling again. She sat keeping it all in and so wrapped up in her thoughts she barely noticed the people passing and the girl sitting next to her. Only did she notice her when she felt the softest lips against her ear say,

"I'm sorry I was freaked out. I didn't wanna deal with being gay but I couldn't deal with not being with you"

"I'm not easy" Lilly replied getting a smile on her face at the same thought Miley was having.

"That's not what I heard" Miley said smiling at Lilly's smile.

"I meant to be with"

"I know but we're already friends and that's the hard part. So let's just start there and see what happens."

"Does this mean what I think it means" Lilly asked incredulously. After a moment of silence Miley replied,

"I stayed up all night thinking that as much as I don't want my parents to hate me I don't want to lose you or stop being your friend even more because I do love you. Will you forgive me?" Miley gave Lilly the pouty face again.

"Of course. If you promise to do something for me"

"Anything except telling my parents" Miley said getting a scared look on her face.

"I wouldn't make you do that but will you go to homecoming with me"

"Yes but we cannot tell my parents or let them know"

"We won't. I promise. Do you trust me?" Lilly asked looking from Miley's eyes seeing her fear to her lips that she'd been thinking about them every time she was with her for the past year and a half not just wanting them but craving them. She wanted them now more than ever. As if knowing what Lilly was thinking Miley stood up and grabbed Lilly's hand leading her to the nearest bathroom which luckily just happen to be empty.

"I know it's not the most romantic place but I've been thinking about this for a long time and I couldn't wait any longer" Miley said as she pulled Lilly closer to her by the wrist and their lips met. Lilly felt all her pain and doubt disappear and the rest of the world with it. She barely heard the bell ring for the first class to start. When they broke apart for lack of breath they realized they were late for class but didn't care.

"Wow" Lilly said out of breath.

"Yeah that was worth the wait but we should probably get to class" Miley said sadly.

"Yeah, probably but I don't want to"

"Me either" Miley put out her hand which Lilly happily took and they walked hand in hand to class.