This is a brief piece of monologue from Alex's point of view this piece happens in the moments after she sees her dad's suicide message.

My god why did he want to do that to himself or to my mum and why did he want to do that to me.

Maybe it was because of mum's affair with Evan. However, it is all beginning to make sense I am making the connections.

When I was shot, Layton said he would show me the truth of how my parents died and if I were dead then they would have told me.

That night when I was with Danny when the clown was on the stage at the blitz that was my dad saying he was waiting for me. He was waiting for me to die so I could be with him.

Nevertheless, what was gene doing there if he was there then maybe I was there 27 years ago but did not realise it yet.

Maybe it was for my own good that video was destroyed I think gene was right I should not have to grow up knowing my father tried to blow me to kingdom come.

But remember molly I would never do that to you