Hello there! I know I've already done a fanfic on Okita's death, but no ones done one from Sei's point of view yet, so I had to. I apologize Okita, but hey! Iget to cosplay you soon! Anyway! I do not own Kaze Hikaru or its characters. It belongs to Taeko Watanabe.
I'm not ready to let go, but I have to. I have to let him leave. He has blood dripping from his chin. I've been aware that this would happen, but somehow, I never believed it would. Maybe it was because Okita's been there for me for so long, or because of the simple fact that I love him.
Either way, he was dying. And I couldn't stop it.
"You don't have to hit a person to make them yield."
I remember when he said that. I remember it like it was yesterday. It was the first thing he said to me when I entered the Shinsengumi.
"Promise me you won't leave my side."
He didn't have to make me promise. I wouldn't have anyway, that is, not if he hadn't tricked me.
Small moments, unimportant to the rest of the world, came flooding back to me.
A weak smile appears on his face. All I can do is hold his hand and hope it keeps him from leaving the world, from leaving me.
He doesn't want to go either. I can tell by his eyes. A tear rolls down my cheek.
The conversation between us is unusual, distant, we would usually tease each other back and forth but now, we simply sit and talk about normal things. The life that happens to other people and we pretend belongs to us, as well.
Ever since I joined the Shinsengumi, Okita has been my teacher, my friend, and seeing him go is like having my heart dug out and ripped apart.
I leaned down and kissed him, interrupting him in whatever he was saying. I don't know why I did, but I think it was because it was possibly my last chance to ever tell him how much I love him. I think I did it because it could be my last goodbye.
And I think, maybe I'm just dreaming but, I think, he kissed back.
I'm a terrible person. But I had to write one for Sei! Sorry everyone, but did you like it? I hope you did, review! Please! Even if it's just a smiley face!
