Title: Past Decisions, Brutal Realizations and a Hopeful Future
Author: Farrah
Disclaimer: If I had a couple million to spare, believe me Grey's would be mine, but I don't. I'm going to cry now :-(
Summary: Things get a little interesting for the gang at Seattle Grace when someone from Derek, Mark, and Addison's past makes a visit. Not only do they turn things upside down but they also share quite an interesting past with another member of the surgical team. Post 'Yesterday'.
A/N: So I have no clue why I'm starting a new story when I have 2 to update but what the hell. Hope you enjoy. Please let me know what you think… I have so many things running around in my head.
This is post 'Yesterday' with little changes. The whole Derek punching Mark over Meredith thing and Mark realizing that Derek doesn't know that he and Addison had a 'relationship' after he left that ended with her having an abortion did happen.
In this story, even though Addison didn't meet him at Joes, Mark stayed and he got a probationary job from the Chief. Derek is still pissed at the chief about it.
Burke and Christina just became official; she got rid of her apartment.
I'm going to say the interns are about 26-27 and the attendings are about 35-36.
In this one though, Alex has already slept with Olivia already so the syphilis has happened; George fought him, Izzie has broken up with him, the whole bit.
Meredith and George never slept with each other.
Alex has just found out he failed his boards.
No clue what the pairings will be. I obviously have a new character (possibly more lol) so I think I'll just let things play out.
Meredith Voice Over: Decisions. It all comes down to them. Every day we wake up, from the moment our eyes open we make decisions. When we're young we don't get them, they're made for us but then all of a sudden it's our time to make them. If we've only ever had things decided for us who the hell is suppose to tell us what to do? How do we know if we're doing it right?
Meredith, Alex, and Christina had just got off the tail end of a 48 hour shift and they were spent, more so with the events of the day than the lack of sleep.
Meredith had been avoiding Derek like the plague lately and he was making it extremely difficult. Every corner she turned he was there giving her that pitiful look, that look that told her that he knew she was avoiding him but he didn't know why. He was unbelievable. She begged him to pick her but he chose his wife then she almost gets blown up and he comes to see her in the middle of the night. He was simply unbelievable. Between Derek and the propositioning on Mark's part she was about to lose it.
Christina was plain tired of commitment. Things with Burke were good but every so often he would say something or do something that required action on her part, action that solidified what they had. What they had in her mind, was good sex and living together. Why was it so important for him to label things? When they first started it was easy, it worked, it was good old fashioned sex. Then she had the miscarriage and he flipped the script. Almost every girl would be happy for a man that wanted commitment but Christina Yang was like every other girl.
Alex was pissed. How could he be the only intern not to pass the test? O'Malley passed, O'Malley and he couldn't. Never before had he been in this situation. He excelled at everything! Star athlete, good looks, and brains to back up his cocky attitude. He was every girls wet dream (atleast in his mind) and here he was, the bottom of the grommets, basically lower than low.
They needed to drink.
So Joes it was.
Mark had the same idea. It had been 3 months since he picked up and came to Seattle trying to win Addison back. Quite frankly he didn't know why he was still there, Addison had made it clear that she was trying to work it out with Derek and he knew Derek would try like hell to make the marriage work even if it made both of them miserable. Like Grey said, 'you don't leave a guy like that if you can help it'. Grey. He wondered if she was the reason he stayed or if his therapist was right, and he stayed because he is self loathing to an almost pathological degree and wants to punish himself for ruining his friendship with Addison and Derek by watching them move on without him. He liked Grey but he knew he didn't lover her not like what he felt for Addison.
He pondered all of this as he made his way to the sliding doors, the emerald city bar's neon sign becoming visible.
"So here I am thinking I've come to see Derek and look who I find slumming it" the woman said effectively stopping Mark dead in his tracks.
He hadn't heard that voice in at least six months. He turned and looked at the beautiful woman that stood before him causing all air to leave his body. He felt like he would pass out. He had kept off his mind intentionally, because from the first time he met her she had that same hold on him.
She stood five feet five inches tall, a perfect size two with the silkiest black hair that he had ever seen, with soft curls that dropped loosely on her shoulders. She had an almost honey complexion, perfectly tanned, perfectly toned, except something was off about her. She seemed more frail than he remembered, much more tired.
"jesus Alyssa, what are you doing here?" He breathed finally regaining composure
"I just told you! Came to visit Derek." She smiled as she walked closer to him
"Really? How have you been? Let's go grab a drink!" he tried to make small talk. When had this become so hard for him?
Just then Alex, Mer and Christina walked off the elevator spotting Mark by the door.
"Who's the hottie!" Alex smirked
"What's it matter to you? You got no chance, you're just the coffee bitch" Christina laughed knowing how much Alex hated being Mark's coffee boy.
Meanwhile…
"Let's not act like were best friends Mark, that's already behind us. I only came here for Derek" she replied coolly
"Ouch! That hurt Alyssa! Come on, six months doesn't ruin a friendship!"
"You don't know what friendship means Mark!" Alyssa shouted louder than she expected, she didn't intend to draw attention to herself. She just couldn't take Mark making light of the situation not now, not with everything that was going on.
"You hurt no-" and her words were cut short as her eyes rolled back in her head and she quickly started her descent about to hit the floor hard.
It's good for her Mark had some pretty fast reflexes because she would have had a nasty bruise, but Mark couldn't think about that, as soon as he caught her she started convulsing. For the first time he couldn't think, he let her go and watched her convulse on the floor. He was stuck. For a man that had the presence of mind to catch her he couldn't comprehend what was in front of his eyes. He wasn't a doctor at that point, he was a concerned friend.
"Somebody get me a gurney!" Meredith screamed as she ran to the girl on the floor, turning her on her side to help her stop seizing.
"Mark what happened?" He didn't respond "Mark!" The second call seemed to have brought him out of his reverie and he dropped to his knees to help Meredith.
"Alyssa baby hold on! Hold on!" He screamed as he willed her through it.
As soon as she stopped, Christina and Alex were by their sides with the gurney. Mark scooped her up with no effort at all and started running with the gurney to the elevators with one thing on his mind… Find Derek!
